I hate it

The silence between our screams

The breaking glass

The rough terrain

Where you cannot make a right choice

You always slip up

It never really ends

After the storm

The tensions flow underneath

Until the next explosion

The jagged marble of the rock

Cut into my blistered feet

I look down into the swirling roiling

Waves below

Friends sit at the base of the rocks

scream my name

There cheers push me to the edge

They smile and hoot

in excitement for my stunt

I turn and smile

My boys stand behind me

He stands in the center

I know it is a dream

He visits me often in the one place

I am truly ever happy

He pulls me into a tight embrace

He fills me with scents of

Freedom

His lips brush mine and I fall backwards

Tears of pain fill my eyes

It is like losing him again

Losing myself

I will never lose him

Then I wake

see this cavity in my chest

this giant gaping hole

shattered shards of stone

litter the ****** bottom

bits and pieces

millions of cold little slivers

look at how the pain and love alike

ripped from my chest

my heart has been broken up

and removed from the huge space

good thing I have some backups in the freezer

Society steals away the right of

Individuality

Every girl who looks in the mirror

And cries

Every boy who cannot show who he

Loves

Because of gender

Every other person who hides their

Feelings behind fists

All those who has to carve themselves

******

to be seen,

Only to not be heard

I reach out to you

with one message

Rebel,

show society,

Show what you think of there

‘rules’

Take back your individuality,

and love who you see in your mirror

The silvery reflective face of my hand mirror, ringed with twists of silver metal

Distracts me with its simple beauty

From mine

The fabric of my silken dress slips around my hips

The ocean blue of my bangles clink metallically

Rattling my arms to the music

My long, loose hair flies free as the ribbon binding it slips off

My bare feet thump the warm forest dirt

Rhythmically they fly across the ground

The sweet magic

of my dance swirls around me as I swing

the end of my song is nearing

My heart raps against my chest

the final notes soar around me as I launch myself towards the treetops

the last jump of my dance encases me in joy, only the gravity of my landing brings me back

I hit the ground

Then the next song starts.

Deep notes: then

Deep notes fill my ears

My voice rebounds across the water

My toes dangle harmlessly into the rushing water

He sits at my side swaying with my notes

The hollow of my swanlike neck

Vibrates with music

The one and only thing I can give him

My voice

This is the way he described me

When I was with him

Deep notes: now

My long legs folded underneath me

My neck stretches as I try to create the same sound

Now the deep notes are deeper

My soul deeper

My voice is mine

The lament of lyrics and notes vibrate around me

Weaving a web of anguish

Never again will I hear

The clean, pure note of my happiness

As I see my reflection next to his in the river

Now I hear my pain

As the images of the trees around me are blurred with tears

Same voice, different beauty.