Food for thought
Thought for healing
Healing brings hope
Help someone to have hope again
And you my friend will begin to heal

This anger that I
Continue to display
Is the dross
Being forged away
From the state of alkali
Into a tool of toxicity
Avant garde of broken dreams
It seems every thing I
want
Is so heavily laden
And inundated with things
I dont need
Yolked up with fools
Cloaked as frienemies
Who pretend to be
In awe just to be associates
Semper fidelis....semper gratus?
Naw disrespectful mooches.
I have yet to see them
Recompense a single thing
Professional victims!
you would think I would learn
Each time I get burnt
They glean every dime I have earnt
In return , i become the merchant of their burdens
For me to carry
Trudging forward with great  difficulty
Collectively shackles pinching ,
pulling my face to the ground
I look back ...they are lieing
down
Clowns laying on my magic carpet
The sound of a thousand voices saying
Hey! What about me?
Ive givin all I could
If I had more to give I probably would
Yet is that not enough i catch them thieving
Lock down  i get them socked in
Im goin in to beat the brakes off em!
But wait theres' more
They bring to the plate some kind of clemency
Aint capitulation great?
The weight is bringing me to my knees
And in grief is like currency represented by these
Crows feet you can read like a receipt
Showing the cost
Of living in the acidity of a recent love lost

Partiality ,
Reflective
Teflon like membrane
deflecting Dysphemisms
With psychosomatic euphemisms
And remain in a state of osmolality
Vanity in vain
Pseudo synchronicity in
Emotional attachments
Spurned by environmental conditioning
Creator of schisms.  
Hider of truths
Author of lies

It's like being resurrected from the grave ........with a ravenous appetite  
For life........
Drunken on bravery......
With no yearning to fight......
it's like learning to fly ...
For the first time......
Everytime you fall  in.....
I love love as much as falling in......
But it's the fall that I crave .
im a slave to it.
Its that sudden stop at the end
That's what I'm afraid of.......
Although ........
You know.. .
Love.....
When your on the verge......
Reluctant dragon....
First time going down a slide.......
Feet out front.....
All the warnings.....
Grasping for something....
All those memories
Fat lips scraped knees.   ......
Wait what's gonna happen .......
When. .....
Then the push ....
The rush ....
All that could happen.......gone.....
Running cutting in line.    
Giggaling climbing the ladder.....
......
Love ........
It's a funny thing....
If you've never been .....
Then I guess your probably fine.
It only takes one time .....
You've lost your mind......
Falling out......
Lilliput Glumb.....
Bummin everyone .
Inconsolable..
Sad sack Sarge
Goyoallllllllllly!
Sickening
Oh woooez me....
Falling in ....
Knight .....
Full of chivalry......
Courageous.......
Enviable......
Righteous in your own mind .....
Unstoppable........
Once you've been
Bitten.....  
Oops I meant smitten......
A bit of advice......
If you are young .....
Listen .....
Chase the girls .....
There gonna run from you...  
Put all that energy into you......
Build your dreams...the girls will eventually chase you.....
If your a girl.......
Same thing but double......
If your old ......
Hair of the dog.....
Rabies......
Oops meant to say
"BABY"

Picture me .....
In parody.
Promise me
You won't let me
Let you get confused..
Because I can see
How someone
Could be
I mean with me .
Oh well sorry
Sorta too late....
I guess welcome to my
Cartoon...
Kinda funny isn't it.
I mean me and you....
Maybe it's just me.....

What does poetry
Do for me?
..............
One thing...........
It sets me free
And thats everything

Honestly speechless
A full return to innocence
Mingled with iniquities
I  study to see......
Is this a counterfeit
Or is it legitimate ..



Dimly lit .
Mourning the theft
Of future memories
From the grip of
Damp cold misery ...
solo ride ,
Lone wolf .  ...
Weighing time
and what little I have left.
I macerate in thought of exiting
....
Exacerbating.
Is this really it?
In steps the Queen
..
Pruses me ......
I'm caught up in a stare.......
Pontificating in dulcet fantasy.....
Pulled down more than a few degrees...
Imbued by my badly bruised longevity ....  
Am I selfish enough to let her love me......
Yet so sweet is she to want "me" in spite
Of me.....
I'm on my knees pleading to the executioner for  clemency.........
For this surely is
A woman worth far more than me....
Greatfull !Humbled
Honored  
⁶⁶ě
....standing in awe ..
You seeing passed all my flaws....
..caught up in your stare.........  
SARA..........
I was  just  jazzed to be there. .  
As if  you didn't know ...  I fell into you deeper every day......
Thank you.......

I dont fit in well
Not in hi society
I get drunk
On the pain you give me.
I bottle it and let it rot
Oh you thought you
Knew me?
**** trigger please,
I love so hard its innocent
Like i honestly cant see whats happening
Because im happy,,
I can fly
I dont look for my love to play me like a sport
Then when i get shot down
I fall just as hard at terminal velocity
I break my wings im wraught and at aught with everything i dont understand why .....,.my eyse sting i cry ...,,,,,im on my knees in the dark about alot of things i get high , and im alright  im on to better things .
I get  higher and oooooh whats this a bear trap?
I love these things
Lets see what  happens if i pull out my heart drop it in
SNAP
Oh woe it  bit me
I knew this was gonna happen
But somehow i didnt know it would be  this bigga thing

I love the time spent away from you
My inhibitions engulfed
My organs move as if
Primping in anticipation of you
Bristling ...     .saturated in fantasy
Blushing in fever
Irrational im insane......... Unbridled
Tension............high.  
I cant wait im burning
Spontaneous the flames will surely consume me
the thoughts .obsesion
Attraction ....... .. ..........lust... our bodies clash we must not .....
Stop.    
We canot
STOP.........
WE MUST NOT STOP
THERE IS NO WAY TO STOP
WE GIVE IN LOCKED TOGETHER FOR AWHILE.......savor every titillating second surrender youreself to me
Commit every unquenchable
Unmentionable nasty unthinkable with me
Every detail things you have supressed .......confess them to me we are doing them
What ever perverse deeds you have been   quivering for but could never tell a soul and would never assk for
Bring it to light and i will unfold youre love and every thing we do
Is my desire to give or do or help do with you for you to you .to solo too mi amore my heart craves the entire sensuality of you its my intentions to highten and feel every sensation and emotion ****** immersion  that you could possibly ever want .
I am so.........into you.......

Inninit strange how the heart interacts with the brain .....
Like Able and Cain?!
"Motion to strike your honor!"
"(Under which pretense?)"
"Leading  the witness"
" (Sustained!)"
Seriously?
I.E.
Using a person to satisfy your needs
Till the right one comes along.  
What kind of monster ?...
I mean how could somebody... .
Too be fair .......
Honestly ... In younger days    
I actually wrote that song!
But then .... ...........
O m G .......
When it happened to me   .. ......
Vicious uncaring cold hearted beast  .....
Youda thought the world came to an end     .      ....
Our hearts and minds work in erroneous harmony
Justifying our deeds
Constantly reconciling the books
Comparing ourselves to those
Less than savory naves
And mistooks they've made
Remembering incidents
In our own special way.....
Gifts ,... tokens and goodie too shoed gestures displayed and portrayed
Go ahead ......
Pretend you don't know the games you've played......
In your heart you know that your mind is there to reflect on
pre- meditative mistakes
You make.........
"Mirror mirror on the wall ..  .
Who's the most loving , giving ,
Compassionate on of all....."
Your heart wants to know.......
Does anyone know ...........
The terrible things we've done...... Should I confess ...... Am I bad ...
Should I just tear off this mask?
And the mind is the mirror
That says no No NO........
YOUR Good you are beautiful.
Better than all.........
Your not like all those..............
Peasants trust me I know.

This ambrosial  ? . ....
IDK........
Thing .........
I mean ........
It's like ..........
Seriously?
What are you doin?
No SERIOUSLY!
Look .......
I'm all..........ya know?
Dude ..........
***?  ...'.........
What am I doing........
Oh .... I
Just called you dude.
I'm a frickin idjut
Literally I cant even
Practice out this fantasy.
Without screwin it up
Dam boo you got me straight shoe lacen
Over my trippin
Ok allz I want to say is
I,spend over half my day thinking about you
And even more tryin to
Not think about you
I feel crazy caught up in your maze
I m amazed at how much
I love not catchin you
In this cat and mouse phase
I dream of this encounter
I see you and I'm in a seether.
Im goin out of my mind
Tryin so hard not to look
And like  crook
I get caught
And im completely sprung
Cause I see this look from you........
O M G.........
Sayin.........
I know boo
You ......
Om gosh im
blushing
You........like.....
Ummmm
I can fight this either

Its complicated they said
Big shiny heads tilting back krinkled

Let's roll ......

In the very heart
Lies,
Confluence
A plethora of angularity
What I think I see
Who I want to be
What I know to be
Do I exist .
Am I missing something.
I dont understand
And
A long list of unmentionables
Mixing and mingling
Outward flowing
Incongruous streams
Untill feeding the persona
What some think of me
Honestly it's no where near who I think I am

I may laugh at you
Doesn't mean I want to
An its not cause o your misfortune.
What does is your jumped up joco monkey fit.
And you so in disbelief screaming
"I KNEW THIS WAS GONNA HAPPEN..!"
well if that's true then why you so ****** man?

Im not trying to offend you....
I don't need you to defend me....in fact I don't need you for anything..........
You are simply the best thing
I have ever had
From beauty, to wit, to love making . ......
On and beyond everything ...
Your love drives me mad
I want you so bad I can't breath...
I mean that's fairly straightforward! right ?
She should get that .......
I mean ........I think ......
Oh great it's still typing

The pungent waft of sweat ,beer and malaise in the dimly lit belly
Of this rustic little foundry the stinging clamour of
Mechanized machinery
Sparkling dross splatters the walls like an angry draggons sneeze
heavy laden hands throwing sledge hammers  at metals on the torments random lights flashing
raging hiss of plazma flame
And hearty laughter full of grit
sand lubricating the pit
Communicating involves over exaggerated gestures cuppin youre hands and screaming with a smile ,
leaning towards the recipent
From a safe distance
To avoid the accompanying  spit
A dizzying array chaotic cringe worthy things slowly without warning  an eclectic orchestra forming naturally,
Out of comradery,
Forging a violent symphany  
At the heart of which
The Crucibal almost overly
color enhanced
Gurgaling cauldren
Glowing Vermillion
1700 degrees farinhieght
Hypnotic
The way it boils rolls and flows
Like its unearthly 33 percent zinc yellow brass
Rain or shine
Yet another
Flawless
Masterpiece

Earlier seeking somewhere
I could breath
in secret
An opportunity presented itself
and
Covering my tracks and slipping
Through the cracks.............    
............
stealthily .............
took my leave
Sure footidly i ran and scampered
The whole while feeling  a silly anxious childlike urgency like a
Toddler running from daddy
Cause i know he's gonnnnnnnna
TICKLE  ....MEEEEEEE....
Now no time for tomfoolery
This is dead friends peak
As i slowyly lay back on the bare rock its a little
Unnerving
The jutting stone cradles you so perfectly yet
Youre legs dangle 4500 feet above town
Its so far down you cant see it but theres
a coin operated telescope
Where
bets and braggers pay when they finally get
Here all they can say is nope
Needless to say im the only one
That ive ever seen sit here
Just some rocks and a huge fern
A perfect secluded solitude
A wam breeze bringing the smell  
Of sunday food
I lean ever so slightly
To view the carnival lights below me
And i slide .  .        .           .
Fortunately my palms sweaty it stops me
Although slapping the rock that hard
I swear it moved
And my heart murmured
I was a little concerned it wouldn't
Start back up again
I swallowed and took a breath
Both actually hurt.
I closed my eyes and re-positioned
I could smell dirt
Collected my nerves ,
Relax i said
Youre even more alive
Now
But lets never do that again!
Smiling on the outside !

Opening my eyes some how everything looked color enhanced and
Extra wonderfull
Watching the cumulus slowly churn
Above me
Like smouldering smoke
Took me to a better time for a short while
I felt free
I sat peacefully for a bit
In a sorta happy state of quandry
As the shapes in flux ever changing
The thought never occurred to me
It ..............
Was assuming disguises in effort to stall me
Although hinging on the menacing side
Being so far from me somehow seemed charming
A needed respite from the mundane
Now the nimbus turning charcoal grey
On this Melancholy Sunday  afternoon
As the autumn shy line consumes
Precious daylight
a dreary darkness
Like an empty heaviness a low
Pressure depression moves in
And overshadowed me
Within me i feel it
The impending doom
Looming above
has touched down
Groping blindly
Lurking around trying to find me
Gripped in fear and although slow
Im moving
Barely
a chilling breeze berefts the leaves from the trees
There icy rustling
Sounds like wind chimes made from bones
Strips me to my soul
Im all but naked and alone
The winds so cold
Pushing past as i exhale
Even the air i breath frozen in fear
From the ghastly thing behind
Looks like a spectere before me

And now im paralized i hear the funeral knell
Ringing for me
the same wind that hit my back now burns my face.
And i know now my time has come
It can smell me
Metaphorically im spinning a caccoon
And in it
Ruminanting within gloomy memories
Impatiently im waiting for in a short while even my soul will leave me
Why would it not everything that
Hasnt been taken has got up and left me
At this point i would be amazed if it didnt
...
......what im trying to say is this
Take my words exactly as they have been contemplated,
And weighted like stone chosen precisely , arranged ,braided ,
And conveyed in syntax and perfect timing
So when i say time apart from you is hard for me
I know youve only been gone a couple hours shopping
Look at me the house is a mess and im a wreck
Do you see what i mean
I couldnt find the vaccum so i thought id eat
Tried to make a sandwich  all the knifes are *****  left it started cleaning the room
Thought i heard my phone ring .maybey it was you .couldnt find that either then. I found the vacuum thought it wasnt working took it apart ....lost one of those little important pieces down the toilet ....... .......dont ask.... ..please       ......and then ....realized it wasnt pluged in.    ....
And thats when the toilet got broke......and coincidentaly
Where all the wated came from.i forgot that i lost the phone .then i wanted to know if you would pick up some.....  . .... . .  .  ........... .... ...... ......
........



....... .... ....  ...  ...

befuddled muddy and half broken
say round about age
maybe 30.
trying to find me or ,
better said,
pulling free
from what i was supposed to be ,
and fading out who i thought i should be .
wanting to just be me.
Hindsight I should have been looking for difficulties.
of which were way more than plenty.
suddenly
a profound
epiphany
in
serendipity ,
out loud
issued a solemn sobering
soliloquy
Dad was right.
this is some ******* right here.
i need to change my ways or start sellin fertilizer!

I can not write
All the wrogns
I have done
If I did
There would be
No more sad songs to be sung
..............
Yesterday thinking on it
I thought what would
I possibly do today
If I  had just done
What I oughta
And
If I didnt have to spend
All of it fixing what
Yesterdays going to bring tommorow

Like always in love I fall too deeply
Ive never been needy
But it seems
I have lost "me"
Somewhere in what we used to be.
Can you help me ?
Cause I can't remember me.....
I feel like I'm just a part of you that fell off .
...ewe .....
That's not me....

Proverbial shortcut no one knew about or
Somehow forgot
One thing can be said
They all have a common re sult
They never lead to longevity.

Im a poet
And didnt
Realize it.

To Picture me,,
Not in love
Would be blaspheme,
And yet I sit
In reflection,
Recompensed by transgressions.....
Committed and convicted of after being forewarned......

Un fathomed .
..forgotten
Forlorned
Chalice full of scorn
Crestfallen
Mourned by the dead.....
Reduced to
Sit in sacloth
Pouring ashes on my head...
Like a pig on a spit
Basted with unsavory things I've done
Seducing  Karma was easy.......
A ruddy little nerd,
Told her she was pretty
The starving little dog ate every word.......
Filtered her eyes with poetry.....
I played the field....
Unconcerned....

Convinced her I was the one... ....
On the day we were to be wed
Fleeced her of everything
Left her at the alter without my vows being said......
now she's Obsessed
No good deed goes unpunished
I'm hex, vexed and hazed...
every glib quip spake
Or every woman that says goodbye to  me.
It's her face I see!
Knuckles
Bleed
Racked with splinters...
Railing loves door...
Afraid to let me in...

born for this chase.......let the race begin...
my heart to carry me
But my souls worn
Thin

..grasping for straws gasping for air.  
Used to return from the forge strengthened shiny ,glistening......
Clean.....
Now I'm the dross.

Fin...
..
.

.

Love is within
Or is it
Verily i say unto you
It need be
You should know
You are worthy
And deserving

Level horizons
As in yard
Landscape
Is my therapy
It's actually easy find the lowest measure the highest from this
And shoot for what is between the two.my favorite thing to do
.unless someone helps
And they don't have a clue what you're doing Or what to do

Makes me wonder what life would be like the more primitive we get like not so many distractions
Expectations
Disappointments
Regrets
Commitments
Punishments

Let me let you....
Fall in
And then......... .
Thank you I got this ....
Ill take it from here......

I sent you a friend request
You accepted
I got butterflies.....
You messaged me
My face got hot
And carbonated my eyes
An I..................
Found myself lost catotonic
In a hypnotic gaze swimming .....dare I say it..
Naked unashamed immersed in you profile page.......
You were shy ,flighty and
Cryptic. ....sorta on the chilly side..........
That made me feel even more attractive.........
Cause when you did respond
You never were the one to break that bond
An immaculate conception
Friendship ...........randomly
We .............2 out of billions
Billlions of miles , people, years.....space
And we are instantly cosmic
Soulmates..........you said you wanted to meet........
We did .........
O m G ......
A legend on the silver screen
Model for S.I. Vouge. Prada......an..... I........
Was nothing but starry eyed
Lacivious insatiable......
You bad girl out did my fantasies with full recompense
We became lost in RPG....
Then on that dec.morning
In full slumber without warnning.
I woke and felt as though i was levitating.
Above a tub of ice water
I was and you had me by the throat .......body slammed me
Almost drowed me pulled me up
Savagely beat me .......threw
Me out in the snow .......
Dare i say it naked.....
You .........were wearing my
Farorite furry......since then
I ve sent you money ,
Flowers,love,friend, requests,advice,forgivenezz
No strings attached.......
I live on the streets now
But still working......
I send you every thing .....
And said. I said I love u
Unconditionally.........
Why cant I send you.........
Away............

Lifelong song
Sung .....
From innocence
Into efflorescence
subtlety with ease
She........
elevated me.
I gravitated to her temptation
As natural as falling into destiny.
The essence of my enchantress,?,?,
Enamoring!
nuances
Left me defenseless.
Intoxicated with sundry pangs felt in crushed velvet magenta ,
saturated with indigo blue.
Beguiled by her presence
she held me still deliberately!
Euphoric glistening tears flowed
so slowly and satisfying .
As her eyes closed. 
Even slower the fear of death came and went .........
Loosed her grip
Then
slowly squeezed my chest
with
a sweet
Seductive
Suction!

Still deeper into my heart
her fangs sunk in!
pains so succulent
I languished in sensual Sickening  
agony.
Leaving my thirst for her
Unquenchable......

First Love-bite  ........
..
the venom is irreversible. ....
It's like being resurrected ....
A cocktail confected from your finest chemicals upbraided  into
An attractive macrame ....of attraction.
The ultimate inflicted reaction from an infection that  causes sexiness and intimate ,
Instant
Addiction ...
Once her teeth sank untill
Her lips touched wet with mine
I lost trust in my mind,
And I knew that only insanity would follow,
And also I know

I  cainst let them withdrawal ....
She left me at an intersection
With countless directions
Which lead to any and everywhere.....
And yet for me it's a one way .
And it still feels consensual....
Karma my Queen
You put the hurt on me . .
And love is like the fall
When you learn to fly
Feels like the first time
Everytime I fall in
I love love. .... as much as falling in love.
But
It's the fall I crave ... And I'm a slave to it . It's the sudden stop at the end that I'm afraid of ..  
More than anything.
Yet.............it....
Hasn't
stopped me yet

Lying in this room
And as I do I lie to
Myself and wonder why.
I get comfortable  
Then I try to continue ....
Unchanged ..
Deep down I'm grounded I truth
So I've deduced to find solace
In the unpredictable entanglements for without
Chaos how far would I get
It's in the ebb and flow of anything
That sustains life.........
I should learn to live
.......in ............
.....

It ........

Let's forget about it.......
Fe pyre that so
Impedes me......
I wanna remember everything..  .
Re-live and regret .....
Burn it ...
Let's do some mescaline and swing from the mezzaning

I am nothing special
Not compared 2 u
My color is a silent hue
Oh beautifull you
magical incredible bliss
My muse
The reason i exist
All i need is parchment
A fine point gell

In indigo blue i write .
You read
And when you do
You carry me away
Through you i live out my dreams
So you see im not as great
As you
Although i love
Thank
And have become
GREAT.......FULL FOR YOU
THANK YOU FOR READING

The sadistic muse is back
Dawning my doorway
Trying
To draw me into anthother fight
I cant loose
So im .
Going
Grimaced and slithering away .
Crying in so many ways
to the all reclusive in
Lachrymose
Confused.
Sullen and crestfallen.
What can i do
Point of view

Dark times ....
Desperate crestfallen
Wished we'd never seen,
The dark specters carrying roses
days we'd hide.........
Crying ,
waiting for the stench to subside.......
Seems like it never did.....
Hope and happiness slid....by the wayside, pungent flames
Consume
Remains of those whom.
Carried
Pockets full of posy.
Bodies  piled high lock down in quarantine.h00ùrrr44
Plumes of smoke.....
Followed you
piled high ,
in quarantine,

Do you ever stop .
.........and can you
Would you ever listen
Will you please ..................
Have you ever got lost in the quandry of the matrix
Do you have the vaguest clue .
How ridiculous this is .
I mean you and lucidity
How a living entity arrived into reality
And within it .....YOU?
do you wonder ?
How ?
Ponder?
Where you were before
Have you really loved yourself?
If not.           Why?
If so why? And who ........
I mean im happy for you,
But is it all vanity?
Why else would we do ................
Anything.
Its so ..................

******


Society


Rules
Governing enforcing



What




I love me and my addictions

Im addicted to me

I dont care what you think of me


Doesnt that just make sound badd ***


Oh fuckitall i lie .


I cant help it i just need to hear it once in a while

Seven hard time years
In ......
Psychiatry!😥
I.........
Really dont want to talk about it . . .
I can do anything
Without these
Chains that bind me
I have the key
Its all eye can see.......
Still .......
I dont want to
Unlock it.
The reason being
Im not sure ...

Ok wait
Stop!!!
Call me hypercritical and a grammatically hypocritical
Hypocrite too
.....
You are literally
Using the word rong
Too much
NO -
Lit-TA-RA-lee
And another thing
With books ,magazines,
Libraries ocean beaches castles
Caves riverbeds coal mines
Mountains deserts desserts concerts the internet the oculus
The xbox the wii virtual realities the real reality literally the virtual reality
All these and ssoossooso so much more ......
So so many more alluring beautiful places
You could stick you're nose 🐽
So many places I couldn't care
****........
Noooope !
Ev---a---ry time I start to relax snooop!
I look behind and woop
There you are up to your eyebrows.
One of these dayz bro h
One of these dayz!
Literally
Wow..
LI--TA--R-AAA--LL--Y
Pow
Right to tha.... .
****
Literally ...
....
I mean seriously
No
SE-R-...EE-  OS.........

So tired am I
Tried love
It lied
I cried
My heart sang bitterly
Live and let live. ..      ...
And so I did.
It came back
To  many times .....
I died inside.
Became empty.......
Put  all my dreams and happy things
Carefully away in my secret storage far away ..
And there I sojourned a lengthy stay.
Organized prioritized and placed all my hope and future perfectly and locked the bay door securely.
Doused it in magnesium and gasoline ..accelerant.
Patience
Benevolent
Intelligence.
Burnt.
No more hurten me
No more
Love
In me.
You grieve me
Deceive me .
I believed
Now leave
Me be
Please ....
Go
.be gone
Away from me.
And stay .....
Inspire me to do good and fill my destiny to be
Great ......  
So you will
Want me.....
Badly....
Chase me ....
Fight for me
Prove your love...
Show me
C'mon let me see
Beg me ...
Please my love please

So I can finally look you in the eyes and say ........NO!

Friends, and
Family
Everywhere......

I feel their every stare.....
The worst of which
I can barely bear.    
My reflection
Won't make eye connection with me anymore...
Blood .
..shot eyes.  
Snot ,tears ......
Blubbering.
Convulsive inhaling.....
Worst case scenarios
On repeat .
I'm up braiding the pain caused by me tuning it inwards to pay Penance
This is all the things I've done wrong marathon
Staring me as the morrow
I'm the only one invited .....
No one sees the pain
I hide it everyday thinking this surely means I'm a good man......
Ironically since Noone sees
Me Bleed internally
They assume I haven't changed a thing.......this why evey mistake made is to the world not a big deal
To me it's everthing...
It's devastating

In the orange and red glow
Locked behind iron clad gates
Of no one will ever know
Let the heat from the fire caress you cool shimmering minty tassels of silk
In feverish bliss
A soft wet kiss
Give inhabition to remiss
Give in to this
Let the sounds of pleasures
Lift and set you adrift
honey dew drips from lips
Pulsate with pastel vibrance
Purple to yellow
Slowly set down
Into satin and sweet rest as my voice echoes
I got this

I love you

I know.............
Yup....
Uhhuh.
I know riiiieeet?
No..no listen
After all.   That ....
Dun dun DUUUUNNNNNN
The unimaginable.    
I know its like i cant describe it
Its like ok i cant say it so use youre imagination
Then.    Dont
Huh
I KNOW.  Riiiiieeeeet?
It was that good............oh im bad .........
Thats good right?

I love you intoxically...
Like a venom filled rig ....
You fill me with love
Like fire burning  colored gem's
Radiates me euphorically.
Then leave my mouth foaming copper acidic and green
Gut empty writhing
Toxic ............
Your mean ........
I can live without your love
But  not the pain .......
You are my ******
...my ******
.
.
Stay......


I need a fix

I'm fixiated


Fix me




Please .....






Why do I need you?

He said
Son.....
When your tough .....
You be greatful
You hear me?.
Don go get all proudfull bout it ......
Just be humble and shine when you can ..
We might be  in chaos ...
I'm gonna
Enlighten you to the natural order ....
You go brag
And prides gonna come back on you like a viper.....
Tough as you are there is always gonna be one tougher.
No one like to stand down  
Or loose....
An who likes to hang with losers  ..
Cept loosers..
Keep it humble . And take this time of ease ..  to get smarter...
And don't brag on this neither...
Cause there's always someone smarter.... And if they're ain't
Then there's ones who are
.........
Smart enough to no that most aren't smart enough to see through a lie...
And they take you with trickery
And nobody but you can understand it.
So
Be smart enough to be tougher than anyone .. ..
But tell  no
one.
And be tough enough to be the smartest
And pretend not to be  ......
When you can master these and be humble and gracious .....and share you're gifts.
You shall have a good life....
Let me do bragging........
I'm old but never to old to
Whoop you you smart *** .

My tears shall never answer my please ....  
That ,which I want
Shall always remain
Penultimate reason
I fall to my knees.....
Love .........
Forgive me ......
I know not why I do these things .
.............
I appologize that's a lie .....
I do .......
In sin I know also
I try not to ...........give in ......
I know you still love me even though I do ......
Forgive me .......
My love if I could ask of thee ..
Let me speak directly to her heart...........
All geese and geeseings disapate...
Loose any memory of Her....
Then loose your mind and continue life in misery
Get in line for your torture enternaly and know where you go there is no outcome
Your existence will only be known by you ........
Forever erased from our memory.....
.......
And to you the one who .......
Captivates me ......
Allocate me your trust and love...
I pray thee
My love I shall endure what ever need be
to show you my love only grows continually
I will always be the one who will always keep you before me
Your love is my world .....
And I love living to love you......
You are  so delicate with your affections
My fear is when you do fall in love with me ........
My tears of joy would never end .........

Thank you my King
For everything I love you always in all ways ......
And especially for letting me speak to her heart directly