One more time
You already have the keys
Pluck my heart string please!
Saturated with color......
Eyes ocean blue. ......
Heart true........
Tears flow because
Because I know you're
Lonely too.      
Disconnected from everything
I'm ready now
I want to hear you sing
Mazzy star to me
I wanna fade into you....
Love me
The way I love you.....
I do.

Take me ....sweep my feet make me.....
I want ....
No I need ....
I know so deeply
....
Can you please take me.....
Take me back to bell bottom
Star jeans.......
45's and 33's.....
Quadraphonic.  ..
Innocent daydreams......
Redline,hutch,
mongoose....
Stingrays and
No rain for days ....
No pains .......
Foozeball.....
Stick ball under the streetlights.......
5.oo dollar concerts ...
Dates at the movies ...
Hold hands ......
Naw ....Take me back to the 3 hour french kisses.....tongue sore . ....
Walk home 3 miles call you and lay on the floor listen to you just breath
For......hours......
Football pencils ...
Kiss cards .. ..
Dunes of the cape.   Saturday morning cartoons.  
Ted Nudget ....
AC/DC........
Passing notes....
Drawing ***** things on people's peechees. .....
Skipping ......
School.............
With girls . ..   ya. ...
Take me.....
Take me ..... can ya....please......
And an above all and everything .....
Take me .  
Take me back to the days when.  
I spent time with my family......
Back before we all started our own and drifted sofly ...
Away .... .
Take me back to the you must be Monas' kid......
Sitting around talking **** ...  far away enough so our parents can't hear........
Sneaking beer .....and getting high...... ....
Ya ...... can ya take me back ............
To the years before internet a cell phones........
Back when the ringing phone was an invitation not an obligation.....
Back when we gave hugs freely ....shared everthing...fought with our fists .......
And people were polite and actually cared. ......
Before we were scared of the government!
Take me

My soul bruised ....
I used to be
Unstable ,
Some called me Cain..........
That's not my name........
I'm still me ....
Psychosomatic
Dichotomy......
It's not me....
Your labels
Trigger lost time...
Once I saw how
Little you thought of me .......
Past generations
From the grave groaned hauntingly
Mourning me......
I felt the splitting
I lost color in one eye.......
The other looked away.......depth and time feels strange.....
I tried remain the same......
I knew the cruelties
You went through  and how the effects would likely be recompensed upon me........
I could not be swayed ......
To the depths and widths of my soul
Eternal wells flowed love .......
For eternity.    
For you.........
I spoke kindness ...
Gently asked please
Never assumed anything........
Never told you
You had to do anything ........
All in vain........
You and your games ......
Degrading me in front of family and friends .........
In private I cried ...
You mocked me......
I love you ....
You used me........
I tried to love you back to life .....you killed  the better half of me......
My purpose was to love you and only you..........
I held on too long
You broke your promise,your vow,my heart......
Forced me to be what you made me...
I am trying  not to change.........
I'm not Able...
Some call me Cain.....
I say that's not me ....yet........
I feel his blood course through
My veins...........
In my mind I see
In my dialouge I say.....
I never had a brother.......
I'm still Me ......
Same same.  
. That's not my name......
Who are you
?
Me?
?

My center  ..
My core ....
Under Lock and key anymore......
My heart ......
Upon it
The table...  
With Hammer I
Have chiseled its basic needs......
Not painful not pleasure full.....
Beautiful....
When I write my desires it bleeds ...

And it's ugly.....

E=mc²
Quantum physic
Algebraic circular reasoning .....
Strings tied themselves in knots.   .
Before the question asked ......
Do you make up everything......
The answer came back .....
I'm a frayed knot......
Is there intelligent life out there?
A square question
Reasoning would suggest if we could find it here
here...then it could be.
For it would take intelligence to perceive it.....
So far we haven't found any......
Impedance
Fighting for peace.....
Freedom ,
Jumbo shrimp ,
Military intelegence.......
Human kind?.
Is our purpose for living just remembering to breath?
Breed....
Want and need
One from necessity...
The other from greed....
Fate and destiny......
If there is no goal
...collaboration to find it ?
We can't even agree on a map.....
How many billions of gallons of blood have stained the soil .....and we don't even have a clue where we are going
...or even know where we could go....
Go get a new pair fo shoes and jeans mmmmm........
While people die starving
...yah I just went there .....but go ahead and shine it on .......
Hurry.  .....
Find an attractive distraction to take your mind off that....
Fur reals tho....
Don't worry....
Googles' got more apps than Carters'
Got pills for that....
So.........
Don't see humans living in dumps eating rotten deacay.

Was that your fate or thier destiny.....


Well Don't just stand there ...
Do something

So tired of chasing this dream.....
Languishing in the land of
Opportunity.......
So tired....
I had a dream
That I was sleeping.........
I mean .....
Really sleeping .....
Not laying in bed....
Tossing ideas and turning.......
My current circumstances....
Into blame and put all that on me.......
I cant wait .....
It's never or right now ......
F...k it ....
I'm doin it .....
Immma get the bear......
Or come back
Impaired........
I don't care...  .
I got to try something...

I bite my tongue?
You carry on !
Your welcome .....
( as long as you pay me )
outloud I say .....
Wow you're so ......
Idk...
Capricious today
You  laugh .....
Thank you .....
Don't mention it....
I laugh too
Oblivious .....
Obvious .....
Vicarious?!?
I guess maybe.....
Bellicose ?
Verbose?
Yes.......
Way off base?....
Absolutely.....  

Your agenda
........
What will you do when I'm gone ?
You will have no one to look down upon.
Then you want an apology?
Ok ...I'm so so sorry
I just can't apologize.....
For what you say
I do .......
Especially when I argue.....
You're response
Demand .......
So I do....
You have an epiphany.......
I am recompensed
Rebuked,
On public display
Forced to stand in
Reprimand. .....
I guess "we"
Have our role to play.......
.....

..

.

Ok ......give it to me.......
And then may I have my paycheck please?


Remember I get payed weekly ......
Very weakly......