Begin........
.. ....
Comprehend and then.....
Become the chameleon....
Blend ....
Trend...  
Bend ..  .
Mend ..
Transend.....in meditation.....
See the light.....
End
..........
Fin

Endless sea shimmering
In ....e v e r y
Gemstone tone.....
A lexicon of only beautiful words......
And the waves speak to me.  
In my mind .......
In my mind I drench you with
Scintillating poetry.      
I rehearse these ...
To say to you............
And when I see you
All you hear is a madmans soliloquy

Oh how cliche,.......
Beguile me
with your
Myriad of complex sufferings.... .
Bleach me with tales of sabotage
and an obscure
collage of un-merrited
catastrophe.....
Pull me in deep
with fortune's and fame
Fill me with how "they".............
Gang stalked undermined and kept these things just out of reach. ......
As the fabric of morality beginning to frey.......
Give me please addresses ,names,
Anything I can do even beyond my means.. ..
I feel I must sacrifice my self . .......endure pain .....
I will take the reigns
You shall remain safe ...here . ..  
I shall buffet whatever
This world will bring....
Moved by compassion
To be the change I wish to see ......
My life is not worth living ...
If live comfortably   ....
At the price of those poor souls who's
Sole purpose is to be
The whipping posts
That society ghosts
Because they can't quite manage the routines........

The ones everyone uses as a gage,
And say "Well atleast "we" aren't as bad as them......
Meanwhile,secretly their mind itching
With iniquities ..
Outwardly receiving kudos for how good they've been,
Inside festering with fleas ......
A slave to dark desires
Cloaked with lies.  .  
........
And now back to our story.....
My campaign extreme.
Exhausted
I collapse .....
And take stock as I coalesce......
It seems for you
The one whom I went all this through
Said I have done nothing
I haven't changed a thing...
Infact I have been the worst......
The chief of them. ..
All my giving and regiving ad sleepless nights,fights,
Going beyond and without....
"YOU"
Mistake my kindness for stupiday!

Fill my heart with black venom......
I no longer wish to be
The victim
Now I see revenge!

Every now and then .
In a state zen .....
Take an I.v.
Retro-fit it with a pen.
With dark stark contrast
The crimson splash upon the white...like a beautiful Japanese mural...
I shudder as each word pours from my heart ...

Desperately I try convey my epic love for her........

She doesn't care ........
All my words are in vain ....

Look me in three
Eyes
Have you ever seen this hue?
Some would say it's like a vast
Ocean of evening sky blue
Can you spell ....... Cast
Or define lure
See  my intentions
Are the words obscure ?
How about lines
Are they beginning to blur
Relax add an e and an m
Pretend to read them in twister
Swirl your stare
Bed of tiger lilies to lie on oh my
There's no place like you're imagination to roam
You're will is still sort of or
Well.........
Part of you're own
Mama dont take my codachrome
If you forget me you will turn to stone
Sorry I just cast a spell on you
Forget me knot ?forgive me not!
Never forget me because it's me
And its my heart you own!

Restless dreams
Lazer beams
5 five Am
Swat teams ..... ....
trying to persuade Me.......
Saying.  ........you need to let us in........

I disagree............
"Can you come back later? ........"
Wellllllll ...I di

Hissing the the front window.  
The crescendo of broken glass
Quick silent pause ........
Brilliant flash.    
The answer came .........
Percussion grenade
Snot ,smoke ,...........
And the ringing..........
The ringing ..........
The ringing..................
Restless dreams ...... ..
Same anxiety ,same fear ..........
Terror rains can't breath.......
Tears and chest pains .......
..without fail
Every time my phone rings...

It's an invitation not an obligation.


I try to convince myself ........
Train my brain ..............
All In vain ...........
It  rings .
I answer .
I loose .
They're gain