Two pillars  set juxtaposed ,
I use both as baring,
Both bearing equal gravity.
Rising high from the waters ...
Between these ,
Lies this isthmus.
In the middle of which
A field of lavender .....
Outlined with oleander
peach colored summer
I lay awake at night and dream
I dream that there is more than this
I know I shall surely die ..
Here betwixt good and bad  .
Here ......
this lonely existence
Here I feel the undercurrents
One I cant resist
the other ....
Eradicate
My destructive state......
One is such a succulent persuasion
Easy as a fall
The other seems difficult
Abstinence not my favorite
Suit .....
Yet the treasure upon that vista
Manifold ......
The fruit ....
Ambrosial

I lay awake........
Suffering in dulcet
thoughts of you......

Despite  risk,
  love outweigh  my mind

Archaic ,......?
Me?
I do my best not to be  ..
Although If you try to be anything
Means you actually are what your not wanting to be.....
Anyway that's just another
Misconception of arbitrary
People's perception based on they're own environmental
Conditioning .......
An Im not gonna lie    ....
This was a big hang up of mine for along time .....
I can tell you this .
The less I care about what people say .......  
Sets my heart ablaze .....
For real though!

Still I get good and bad DayZ
On the good Im
Feeling like I look like I feel!
On the bad ....
Same same .. .
Against the grain  ..  .
Maverick?
Maybe ,......
Mistook for
Stoic ?
Shylock ,
Hopeless romantic !?!
emotions ........
reflections of memories
Feelings , how to react
Through experiences
Taught to me.........

Are my day drifts
trips in nostalgia
Synthetic?

As this journey continues
Lower are the highs
More frequent are the lows!
Once long ago
I was told to be a good man
Be honest ,empathetic and
Sensitive.......
Now I believe I can't let any
Of these things show......
Everything  I have struggled to be...........
Make me look weak......
Don't really know ***
The world wants of me. .
I'm just good ......
I'm gonna just stay me ...
Everyday , everything
Comes my way   ....
As it unfurls .......
It's my way . ...
F. T W..................
Im in an enclave .....
In my minds eye ......

Mother nature in budding years fell insatiable with what the gods had gifted us .....
She layed at our feet ..
Upon a golden fleece.......
An overly filled cornicopia
Brimmed with anything we wanted....the magnitude of which inexperience
Simply could  not comprehend.
We laughed like fat young kings ...... ..
Shook the pillars ......walked like
GIANTS.



Twas the crestpucular rays
Cusping the dawning of sweet savory days as we ****** knuckled our way into the  arena of adulthood
which did
Glint our eyes ablaze.....
Shedding light upon phantasms of delusional grandeure!
Insatiable .....
A pack of wolf to be sure.....
An almost overbearing musky Aroma of overconfidence lurked ..
And ohhhhhh..
Stiffining the hackle was the ever present danger of spontaneous fight .....
The unpredictability incredibly
Intoxicating.

What a plush
Den  ........
I remember the air back then seemed ....I  guess warm and thick.......
Like it had some meat and............
Still had some game to it .......
Awe yessssss!
peach would pair well with it.
And such a
Flavor hung from each lush
Syllable spun .
Closing in n
Drooling like dogs teeth fully displayed, Eyes transfixed
ears pricked ...
Rotating .........
Searching the silence...
As they  clung to the regaling of some past violence and not wanting to miss a single nuance
Anti-)nay sayers paradise

You wanna be.
so you think
The one. ....  
everyone wants to be...
star struck.......
And the limelight .....
Is blinding
Fine line
In between!
It's tiring  
The silky threads
Dual purpose...
Adore you on the surface.
Until one of day
One fray and it becomes
sharp as a razors edge...
Being famous is the same as being infamous........
Like a vibrant flowering tree
You are disideous...
Winters knocking .. ..
You gonna answer it    ?

You'll have to forgive me...
Or not !?!
Its up to you.
I guess it's my sorta ,
Pre apology,
For ...... Normality ....
In reality is a relative term
Encompassing innumerable
Shades and hues  
Within an endless ever expanding spectrum
In a constant state of flux......
Like modeling tuxedos in Bellevue ,
Seen on tv,
Then caught yourself on fire
Working two pairs of nunchucks
Drunk on you're parents patio
Cause their friends wanted a show.   ?
Next day did a bachelorette party
Got attacked by two cougars...
And held down while the rest of the pack did tequila shots off me...
Ok    that  was actually a good night .....
Weird ..... But good .  
Anyways I guess what I'm trying to say is
This....
You are a star
You are far more and greater than even you can imagine you are ..
Never let anyone tell you what or who you are ....
Don't accept the limits people try to put on you...
You be you ....
Catfish? (That's an attempt at humour... Gaaabeesh?
Er... Gabish .... Uhm capisce?)
K **** it so I'm not funny
..... Heh heh ... Ahhhh  uuh emm
I know you ....
People are so hung up and jealous  ...
They can't see" you" the way you do ,
Not the real you!
Because the ones who do.......
are small compared to you .
And so they will be-little you.
to make themselves look better than you..
Don't trip on haters who run under you. k?
You are bigger than that.
Right ?
You are not bitter you are better.
They will look like the fool
Be cool !be you !
The magic is in you
You know it's true
The only limits
Can only be set and broke by
.. you!