Fickle ,
Unpredictable,
Random ......
The simply complicated state of zen......
It is what makes it so blissfull.......
Unwell wishing for some .......
At the other end .
Of the spectrum.
No use tryin to hide the pink streaks     ....
Like acidic streams
Cutting caverns down through my puffed cheeks....
The saline
Leaks .....
From my eyes....
Stings ........
Dreams .....
Lofty ....wonderfully
Thought of
Dreams .....
Beautiful sanctuaries.....
A place to hide and smile .........
POISON ....
They can be
Like walking down a slightly sloped ..oily
Razor blade.....
Dreams  .......
Have them love them . ....
By all means ..
Never fall in love with them ......
Never  fall in love with them
...........
POISON
......
IMPRISONED

Oh so now you wanst ta talk....
I don't suppose this has anything to do with your new boo ....
Telling you to kick rocks?
Ok let me ask you this ?
Have you natured enough to
Listen ?
Oooooo k.....
Remember at the end of show....
You said why
Don't you ever have my back....
And I said ..... I always have .....
Not when you're being faulty ......
Because you and me are good....
Me and faulty ...
Naw  I don't want to get hemmed up cause a you.


I don't need any partners for that ****...
I'm tryin to look legit.

Get it

Include exclude
Hoody
Goody two shoes
Refused
Muse
Bruised
The
un-amused
The Bruiser
Used
User
Brooder
Glib glad
Big bad
Mad
Intruder
Pied Piper
Without a pipe
Best friend till
The end of dividends.
Then I'm the
Outsider ...
Again......
Friend ....one
Me ......public enemy ....
Seemingly somehow
.......me.......
Only .......
Lonely
Scarred
Marred broken hearted **** star.......
Giver
Taker
Mistake ... ...
.........Great ........
Underrated fickle faded
Disassociate
Yourself from that one.......
All these without the pleasure or pain of commiting
Any one .....or admitting ....
No proof .....
Evidence or reason to believe ......
If you care to inquire ,
Study my profile...
Look into my
Character....
Interrogate me
Polygraph.....
Or skip all that
Go straight to
Private investigator
My intentions ...have always been to befriend and be friend ...
An always
The encourager .....
To the point of taking second place and the blame and punishment
Meant for you.........
henceforth the labels .....padlocked..
To my neck...
.........
Well..........since we're alone ......and I have your attention...
One ...........
Just
One ........
Just..........
One quick mention.......
My neck may bend down like a willow  ...only so far  ....where it stiffens like an oak.........
Stand in front of me while you slander with a sludge hammer .....
Till the handles
Broke........
Stoking the forge....
Fanning the flames
setting the stage for the insatiable
  "Morose delectation"
.............
without detection ....
Or reservation
Oh yes let's play this game .....   Ohhhh
....you shouldn't have ..but you did.....let's dig in........
decades of holding back the cries and crimes against my pride........
Dark clouds ......comming....
Down ........
Burnt cienna...
turnt ........
Charcoal grey....
Into black
Is this your wish ....?
To ****** and reduce me to  Schadenfreude?
Good.    .
Bad......
Pleasure  .
Pain
...these are the costumes you choose to wear
In lust just remember
This is youre hypocrite flipped script. .
And I'm playing the part ........
Let's not forget
I train every day and play way harder....
Psychotic ******* who so needs an outlet ......  Pain inflicting Olympic gold medalist .....
Oh you insist.....
You make me blush........
Get your game playing costumes on...
***!  
Comfortable  in them . .
Great!.
Go ahead then
Wear them out.....
Love .....
Hate    ... .
These wears are reversible..
All the patrons under the marquee......
You invited them in   .....
The came to see blood .....
The tables set
It's too late  and I'm hungry.
But maybe you don't  
Parlez-vous français ?
Huh?
Maybe you shouldn't play.... .....
Well now ....
Let's see.....
Your production.....
I played my part........
So you should pay ......no?
...or maybe.....
s'il vous plaît
Be........ My...
"Roman Holiday" ......
Oh .. yeah....
You do.....
Ok .......
Help me change .. ..
You know I can't do this without you .....
Hey I'm talking to me

Is it or was it ever....
Infectious?
Without delay
MmmmmM
May I direct your attention to you .......
As when you partook as much as anyone ....
And as your witness ....
You did confess .....
To abstain .....from...
Or any effort to .........was  um......
Un fortuitous..?
Mmm hhm
Yes.........
Let us look at your perspectous.....
Wasn't  it you whom .... Spoke these words .?
" .......... Shhhh ... No ......
Listen  
.. all I'm saying is ...........
Well.......
It's so callous
How we walk through a room and know the ones who like us ... A month later ... We see the same and  can't even remember them at all......
39 years later.....they    
Stood still
Living an existence they hated
Devastated......
Consumed .....
Still the fiery passion they had for us .....
Paramount....
As we go mumbling
Stumbling along looking for someone to love us.....
If we could drop what the media does to us ......or tell s us I guess......forces us .........controls us ...programs us .........perverts and lies ......
Flagrantly ........
We . ...drop all this beautifull artificial stuff ...and live liberated ..
In a perpetual state of elated
Happiness ...contentment
Having some one we treat like a queen ....
Or better yet ... Who worships you .... And you can be cool ... An they be that for you too!"
??...!...?.!?!?;?
So I believe ..... That I can speak quite frankly ......
For you when I say .....
Yes you......
Are just as infected as the rest of us ......
Inflicted and oppressed  .....
MmmM hhhm.

Sey yes
This is what the commercial world does to us....
With the filth advertising evil science does for us.......
Be us or not be at all ......
If you want to live you gotta want it all

When you think you got it ... It's really nothing at all ...
You're worthless  
.
Unless you wear this .....
Pothetic ....

Love I need!
I could not see;
Love I had
Didn't want ...
Me.....
Hostage negotiaton ....
Traded for the love that wanted me....
Still I couldnt see ........
Untill love wanted me ...... I had scorned love .......
Never satisfied ...
When the love
I wanted
..  .
Wanted me.....
I understood .....
All the more reasons that this love is the one for me ....
I just wish I wasn't so jaded scarred and ugly.......
Guess that's what she wants.    ....
My love loves me ....
I love her the best  I can ....
The gentle lover I was once before  ....
Lurking .. .
Brooding ...
Haunts me.....
Love?

Such elegance ...
Each syllable
A pleasure ......
In every sense...
Intellectual stimulence
Lets our frontal lobes,
Mingle with indulgence...
The fragile side we so deftly hide....
Set to the wild to run free... .
It's a broad point...
A guillentine
A lexicons
Aphrodisiac.

Some day they'll see....
Yah someday....
And when they do ....
They'll be humbled and jubilated  by
My generosity

An obscure handful of
Half assed fantasies......
I payed dearly for these......
Kept in my pocket all these years......
To escape from future fears  .....forget the details
For they could be derailing
I like to hide in the highlights
Weather it be the Gold mine
Or the lottery thing.......ya.....
Or the miracle man of 190 .....
Yah some day. ..... ............. ......
....some day ..... .................