If I said I was a liar........
Inwardly your thinkin duh ...
Outwardly your eyes dart down
To the left bend the corners of your mouth into a over  exaggerated frown
Then open palms
Shrugging shoulders wagging
Gesturing a response which reads no!
You say "I don't know.. .."
I say ok .......?
I guess that make two of us?

A Colluded illusion
Ilicitng indecisive decisions
Which side of the schism
Is your tomb in....?
Skrrrt!
Would it behoove you to know
It doesn't really matter?
Should we unify begin to solidify?
Love would mend and strengthin.
Ya that's gonna happen ......
See how sarcastic
Splatter the screen with blood
C'mon traumatize me.....
Let me hear the catastrophic
Story ... ..
No not that one
No I'm craving something to enrage me .......
****** mayhem religion ,racism
Not the money *** and drugs
Let's glorify that on the silver screen
That way the kids can see who we want them to be
We'll watch it with em
Maybe even vicariously...
Isn't it hilarious  
How we show them how to be so cool.
Then say
HEY *** .......?
why you acting this way
Don't be what we say
We don't portray?
Plus I'm doing everything I can to raise you......
Rieeeet?
So I'ma take it easy
But you better turn out better than me
Even though you think you have the right to run your neck and disrespect me...don't think
That alone makes you a better person than me ......
See what I mean .
Anybody can say that everything seems to be against me......
I'm live in a state of static
Lcd  stereophonic 10000 watt.
Amp 20 inch woofs
24 inch blades
12 gauge
***** my ears fill me with worry hate fear........
Put me in the cage keep me chained
Don't let me loose keep me tuned in......
The venom is ready
The needles pop then slide in
One for each eye and one for each ear
To controll what we hear
And manipulate our vision.
Augment reality
They watch us continually

we react
they keep pushing it in
The  spastic chatter
Spit by mad hatters and creating haters and division the say they're doin everything they can to protect us .........
***......from who?
Us or you .....



Its just another plastic prescription from spin doctors
Keeping us posted...........up
"This just in"
We interrupt this movement
With another social injustice
Because honestly when the
People get quiet
We get nervous
Better shake em up
So the dont wake up.

Can this really be a conscious
collective conspiracy


Flooding my psyche with ideas that I'll never be free

I'm sorry poetry
It seems like I only write you
When I have to!

If I had the full power of the potential I've bottled up inside
Over the years of swallowing my pride and putting my angers aside.....with all the pains
Fears and tears .
Dark lonely days walking home in the rain..loves lost or takin away.....all of it...
all of it all at once ...in a pill
I'd take it ......and then
I would stand like a giant
With all that power
Could you imagine?
And I would walk to 7-11
I would demand a free slurpy.
Instead I would get laughed at
.... probably
And I would not receive a free slurpee.......
Because no one will remember any of these sufferings.
Not the way it was felt by you...
And no one's gonna apologize
Not the way you need them to.
Nothing you have suffered through will elevate you ...sorry
If it were true
I would have died from diabetes
With a coke and banana slurpee
A long long long time ago

Like always in love I fall too deeply
Ive never been needy
But it seems
I have lost "me"
Somewhere in what we used to be.
Can you help me ?
Cause I can't remember me.....
I feel like I'm just a part of you that fell off .
...ewe .....
That's not me....

Uhhhm.....
It is what it is .......
Untill it was ....
But I really can't say
It always was ......but I do know
It was is before it was ....
Was...
And I can't garauntee it will always be........uhhhm
Is or was or will or could or would or can or even should
How could I?