Lying in this room
And as I do I lie to
Myself and wonder why.
I get comfortable  
Then I try to continue ....
Unchanged ..
Deep down I'm grounded I truth
So I've deduced to find solace
In the unpredictable entanglements for without
Chaos how far would I get
It's in the ebb and flow of anything
That sustains life.........
I should learn to live
.......in ............
.....

It ........

So tired am I
Tried love
It lied
I cried
My heart sang bitterly
Live and let live. ..      ...
And so I did.
It came back
To  many times .....
I died inside.
Became empty.......
Put  all my dreams and happy things
Carefully away in my secret storage far away ..
And there I sojourned a lengthy stay.
Organized prioritized and placed all my hope and future perfectly and locked the bay door securely.
Doused it in magnesium and gasoline ..accelerant.
Patience
Benevolent
Intelligence.
Burnt.
No more hurten me
No more
Love
In me.
You grieve me
Deceive me .
I believed
Now leave
Me be
Please ....
Go
.be gone
Away from me.
And stay .....
Inspire me to do good and fill my destiny to be
Great ......  
So you will
Want me.....
Badly....
Chase me ....
Fight for me
Prove your love...
Show me
C'mon let me see
Beg me ...
Please my love please

So I can finally look you in the eyes and say ........NO!

Dark times ....
Desperate crestfallen
Wished we'd never seen,
The dark specters carrying roses
days we'd hide.........
Crying ,
waiting for the stench to subside.......
Seems like it never did.....
Hope and happiness slid....by the wayside, pungent flames
Consume
Remains of those whom.
Carried
Pockets full of posy.
Bodies  piled high lock down in quarantine.h00ùrrr44
Plumes of smoke.....
Followed you
piled high ,
in quarantine,

Dark times ....
Desperate crestfallen days we'd hide
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Blackberry
Wilst though ever see how I yearn.
Upon thy beauty
I ponder on miracles endowing  me the ability
To simply behold you.
And I do .
During the off season
I can still glean throughout the year pictures of you in the crystal clear dew.
Or flash frozen from the freezer a gallon or two in case of emergency.
I do declare
Is quite often .


yearn.

Wolfram and Sheelite
Octahedral double terminated crystal golden
Bright
Sometimes used in jewelry.
The other so. Beautifuly black........
Epochs and eons ago these two embarked upon
Unprecedented journeys.
Mystery still the matrix of their origins.
Speculators say they have always been....
Arguing that cosmic dust glittered an scattered about pulled by indescribable
Gravity into the transformation of super nova .
Irony in being cast about came the same .
Then  over countless para secs.
Arrived early in this earth .
She likes
This earth that is.
Some things. More than others .
Take a pumice stone in one a tungsten in the other youl know.
These two beautifull stones set the world on its ear .
The real irony is how
It polutted our world with light .
Yet be so dam heavy