you broke through my defense
with helo
then we skipped the light fandango
and

Oh
you dont even know
I gaze into outer space
and in everything i see
traces of you
in color
i see hues
that you
look divine in

my favorite pastime

re- live
our time
in my mind
its a volatile
couldren of stark
raving
gladness
even though
youre with  someone
else  
my friend
i love you
staight through
without end
there is nothing that could ever
tame
the pure freedom you bring
I know you hate the nick-name
MOUSER
you are my
Raison d'être
and you complimented
that by   making my
entire life sanguine
you left without being mean
didnt cause a sceen
said not one
disparaging
thing




U are simple
my favorite
day dream
picturing u

I
Transcend
into
you
AND
you should know
u
could never ever
comprehend
the sublime intervention
you ushered
in

the intensity of
what you have
given me
there arent words to say the
least
we havent even
come up with an emotion
that could handle it.
my love for everything has increased
during a time when

My life had been
entangled
by the
Infidel-a
cruel ela
careless  
Jezabel-a
mistress
of painfull
memories
maestro
of the
wailing
cathedros of woe
I questioned every poor decision
made
!
I drew her out of bleak
misery filled her with self pride  placed her on a pedestal
alas
I
soon discovered
I  could not vanquish
the evil
that had  been done to her
and in the summer of my  life
my Machiavellian
soul mate
my ex
wife  
tortured defiled and
smiled  
saunterd away
not only left me bleeding
but also said she didnt respect me because
I kept taking her back
after her cheating
meanwhile convincing
everyone
it was me
because i never said anything
its embarrassing
I was taught
not to air your ***** laundry
and maybe thats just me
but its common knowledge  
not to lie
  It s irrelevant
I cant spend more words
on it

Defeated rejected standing at the brink
i lost hope felt ugly  
an as unsexy
as a
Muh
YOU
APPEARED

youre sweet essence
and genuine interest
carried me through
you
are the
total eclipse
of my
unhappiness
mmm

nnn  


since I met u im
confident in every decision and mistake
Ever made

out of the montage
of
chaos
every single step
had to be made
in order for
me
to behold youre
unquenchable
beauty

my drug of
choice
YoU


addicted

and im sick  
i want you
so badly
and my
heart home and arms
no matter what will always
be


open

my
friend
im just jazzed to be here
and to have
met you
thank you
and
P.S.
In case you dont know

I
Love
YOU

wait what hey ***
that aint mine
you said you didnt wanna come back here tonight
fox worthy
you funny guy
put
my
  

hands on the back of my

oh **** that old ladies got SOME
GUM
    
see ya
  
ding daddle ding
dumb
on the run again
lost all my favorite jeans again
hiding in the trees
haw
johny law man
cant see me
oh snap here comes my friends !
oh no
dont see me!
im a bird
nothin to see
chirp
haw awe man
heh heh whatta u doin up there
hey

look cops are here again
you  owe me twenty bucks
    
ohh neat
off to jail again
oh no not that judge again
i hope i get some mail from my friends
i just cainst wait ta get out a jail agin


Turbulent , tumultuous,
Testing ,
Trying,
Times.
Solo
So
Low
So
Slow
Lowly
Solely
Slowly
Solo-ee
Trudging
Bare foot in the snow
Uphill up
A bell curve incline
As the weight of the world
Focusing
All of its weight
Upon
Me.
And all of it gravity
***** me down
Yoked to the
Worst of the uncaring
On the verge of collapsing
They wait impatiently
Up on yonder wonderin
How much longer I'll be .
Thay all got thier
Big ole
Buckets
Of burden
They gotd time to do themselves
But rather throw them on
Me.....and at the midway in this most vertical
Incline
Snow blowin
In my mind
Something gives
.
....an....
I'm thinking
Exacerbating.
Pondering
Contemplating
Vacillating
..Wondering ..
I'mportant
Things
All kinds a things.
Like if ice
Is made from water
Then
When it
Melts
Why does it taste funny.
and why does my celly always fall asleep before me and sounds like a weazing grizzly ridin a bulltaco 500 up hill underwater and i cant ever sleep
And why don't the fruit flies in my room like my organic made from real fruit
Gummy bears
And do the cows stop and
Stare at me as if
I'm melting
Is it because they are eating the mushrooms

And Is it accidentally
Or are they secretly
High and
Harvesting?
seems like
a ******* way to get high
buuut........... then again
who am I
ta think
on such things?
What do you think I think?
Nothing ?
Ya?
No!
I think
That I think
Too much.
If there is  
Sucha
Thing.
Anotha
Vanilla bean
Ice cream
Wet willie
Hypolerbies
In tune with
June
Jumpin on
Jupiter
With pockets full
Of juniper
Berries
I swear hes
Done gone lost his mind
This time
I got got
Got
GOT
No time
I got to get out
Of this
Place
Oh boo you got idears but no clue
What solitary confinement
Can do ta
Me .......here....s