Half melted
***** snow
Crystalizing
As last spatial light like a laughing
Coyote
Runs
Drunkardly
In short jagged
Bursts
Stops slowly looks back
And smiles
Peruses me
In a defiling
Way
You had no intentions
Of loving
Me
Soon after you
Beguiled me
Severed my ties
From everything
Dear to me
Peeling my skin
With acidic lies
And then when
I needed you
Desperately
......
You wet me
Up
Tainted
Me
With your

Sickningly sweet venom
your comforting words
In
Plain view
You
Scooped straight from the septic
Sadistic
Its so clear to me now
Yet i still dont know how
Your magic
Filled me
Giving me almost supernatural
Power
I would have
On a whim
Conquered
The world for you
Instead
You secretly
Forced yourself in side me
And layed a brood of eggs
A layed contently
Watching as you stories of woe
Incubated
And snickerd
As the hatch broke free
Muscle and sinue
Popping and cracking
And the sounds of pockets of air
Difficulty
Moving though
Liquid
As they devoured
Still i continued
To love you
The whole while
Mortally
You wounded me
Portraying the one trying to save me from me
Quietly telling
Everyone im in therapy
You belicose *****
You are not my
THERAPIST
You are in fact
THE ******
You actually took pleasure
In torturing
Literally
Got off on waterboarding
Me with
Costic
Love
Like
Dung covered
Tines
On a rusty
Pitch fork
The instant
Your ivory fangs
Pierced the nap of my neck
I felt poisened
The waters from you mouth
Leaching in
Teaming with
Sour worms
Causing violent
Spastic fits
You orchestrated
La pobré nîna
Flipped the script
I was out did
Left questioning
My memory
For
Ive been abandoned
Caught in your live trap
And acted burdened
Dragging my carcass still breathing
To the middle of
Nebraska
Bereft me of my clothes
Took a moist meat hook and hung
Me
Walking away i heard you *******
For days
Feeling the dank bitter
Breeze
Stinging
Unimpeded
By the endless
Fallowed fields of yesterday dreams
And tomorrows
Sorrows
Dangling
The last ugly
Gourd
Left on this leafless vine
Hollow
I alone
Know the truth
iconoclastic
I hold the golden key to the most important mystery
....crestfallen. ....
Dejected
Outcast
And sullen
No one wants
To know
Public
Ememy
No 1
...........
........

Me
...

..


.

Up on yonder
Eyes see
One vision

Listen to me

....My Father....
My Dad
Pops
A.K.A.
Old man Jenkins
ACTUALLY
his given name
Exactly
The same as
Mine
DELTON
GEORGE
PEELE
THATS
THREE E'S
TOUGHEST
MAN I HAVE EVER SEEN
Never seen
The Man back down from anything
Thee epitomy
Of a ladies man
Smooth talkin sob
I
Miss

***
Im buckled
...
****** Dad
.....
The prankster
HE
In privy
Told his confidant
He didnt want
To be a burden
To me
After loosing
.My Mother.
To cancer
...I..
Heard rumor he suffering
From the same
I went to see
HE
Said no son
Im ok
Not to wory
.....
Damm it Dad
....
****
I cant say
Anything
I miss you
Like a son
Who needs a father
Im
Insane
With the grief
Knowing
My greatest friend
My hero
My true
North
Youre bitter end
Alone
****
I cant do this
The veil
Of my life torn
Forlorn
The shame is too
Much to
carry
My vision
Is
This quest
Has no joy left
And
The path
Before
Me
Rapidly
Becoming
Shorter than
The one
Behind
Guess Ill
Have to man
Up
Take the wheel
Mash the pedal to the medal
Light it up
I dont want
Feel

3/4 of half the time
In my mind
I find you
Seeking
Opinions
(Secretly
Its my belief
Your
Motive
Is
Ulterior
In order to gauge
Your
Wrong behavior
Acting hurt,
Victimized,
And in that way
Gain favor.
Its
Codependency
Extrinsic
And
Somewhat
Narcissistic)
.........
The severity
Of your
Discrepancies
Dictates the
Intensity
Of your
rampage
And repeatedly askin me
Am i  outa line
Tell me the truth
And so I do.......
You get mad
Say ***** you.
Then in the rare time
Im in need
Or im down
You dont answer the phone
Or come round








I tryed to tell you.....
Dont set your perch so high.
Your response?
I dont need you telling me what to do!
You fell ......... 
You seem surprised.
The question now rises.....
If i ask you to tell me the truth no matter what
Would you ?smile ...
say
Whatever you
Think I would
Want you to say.
In effort to spare my feelings?
harmfully,
Charmingly?
A dashing
Eye contact
Evanescent
The rest of the half second
Digesting my kinematics....
Intentionally
You are about to
Decieve me...
Are you my enemy?
You never rebuke me for anything.
...............
Alarming me......
...............
No you are friendly..........
.    ......
Unfortunately
I guess
what
I desire is
A true ememy.....
One who I can count on
Too tell me
to my face the real things
That hurt.......
One whom will
Not suprise me
The way you do.

Entranced
In an instant

.. impressed..
With the
exquisite quickness
She

Ever so
..effortlessly..
Captivated
Me
.............

First glance
..
Enhanced
Everything

Her natural
Beauty?
Allmost
oppressive
.
eyes
Glinting
Like brilliant gems
SHE
...
smiled at me
.
Said
Hi
.....
Kept eye contact
Till
I
Blushed
.......


So subtly
Like candy coated
Saffron
Her
Fragrance
Ambrosial
Enraptured me  
In an
Effervescent
Dream
My love
Flush
In
Cloud 9
My life feeling
Plush
In thought of
You
No place
I
Would
rather
Be

Slumped
In disbelief
From
Input data recieved
The words i heard
Acid
Your
Voice
Venom
Leaving
My hope
Dreams bent
And uhm
Stunned
Numb
Any
Thing i think
I would like to do
Dumb
.....
Done
....
...
..
.
.
.
.
.