I said ......
Because.......
Is the opposite of
......
Why ......

Sunshine glistening
Off a solem fat tear.....
Gently caressing my flushed cheek.....
I turn away unable to speak ....
"Look at me" ........you say
Laughingly......
A million words better than beautifull .......
Could never define you ..
Adequately
You said "I love you"
To me ......
This moment is ineffable
A warm quiet breeze
Berefts
cherry blossoms from fragrant trees ......
Flitter by diapheneously. ....
Gently touch down
Into a clear mountain stream ...
Enhancing as they flow away ....
Like my worries and doubts when I'm with you.......
Enchanting ..........
How you shiver me
With such natural elegance
your voice .....
Angelic
Your words alluring
I am spellbound by your eloquence.......
HONORED
And ....... I do
Blubbering.....ly
Look at you
Honestly..........you are an obsession.......
Not a choice.
Nuanced .....even your essence and the world un voiced.....
Everything that is not you is
Ambiance
I get lost in you're eyes
I see a reflection of me .. ...
The un-conquered spartan that's been all but beat out of me
By peasants who pretended to be
Lovers .......
Who were really handlers
Who used me. ..

No dearth of concern
A cornerstone decree
traumatic legalistic promissory
Top priority..
Believe me...... .
priceless .....
You have earned your worth....
I reiterate
Make no mistake
I have 427 lifetimes to burn
The leverage of jupiter slamming into earth

Pitched upon a galactic beam
Mars wedged up tight
Set as the fulcrum.  
I'm in the pinch point
Child's play
Worry  not .....
For I shall not sway  ......
You clueless clucks
get you're remedial  game face on
Because ......ooooh its on
Every goose 🪿 gosling or wanna bee's.  
Flock up and shut your squawk boxes from talking
And listen closely your new objective ........
...
READY??????............

PAINT!!!!!..........


****­e is our tapestry
I'm gonna make It wet .
You will make it sanguine......
Discontinue your disgusting campaign on my love
And  Maybe ........
It will change the outcome..
Maybe .......
I will render your recompense
Swiftly .....
It's a definite Maybe
....
Oh were still gonna paint the sky ...
You and I.........
Your blood ,
My brush ,
What a rush ......
You little reprobates
You're  all  dumb done

Lasciviously.
Imprisoned within this room
My love in full bloom
Subconsciously awaiting
Death to set me free.
Shakespearein tragedy
I'm  cupid+karma offspring
Crestfallen I cry .....
Engulfed licked by flames of passion... ...  
I couldn't have conceived a more beautifull obbsession.....
My doppelganger in the opposite ***......
(Censored)

deep rich luxurious ***.
.......

(UNCENSORED)
she's in love with me..
Yet here I sit
Chatatonicly......
In self denying stigma
A superfluous stupor of saddening miserable stupidities....
Literally killing me .....
Tombstone reads
"benchmark of irony"
The greatest romantic Martyre
His time spent his last days
Gazing  at the most glorious love
Seducing death
knowing he posses the key
Rebel without a clue !
I know what I need to do
And I don't know what to do
*** is wrong with me?
HELP
PLEASE
THIS STARTED OUT AS A Haiku

Eluding is the variation unseen
Through the porthole
Of an uncaring mind....
Consistency is the well spring
That consistently brings change ...
Positivity over time.... .
The key unlocks how you be too
The change you will see
That it is the only consistency
Change is inevitable
Fate or destiny
You can decide.
Change or not
Do or die
Dont complain to me......

faraday box
im kept.......
content.....
mmmmmmm...
except............
"I OBJECT"
CONTEMPT........
accept.........
submit..mmmm
fit?
NO...­....
CAMO .....
chameleon...
or........
Machiavellian?
You decide sunshine
its not my paradigm.
illuminate .........
dazzle you with up to date
environmental conditioning
as  I emulate who they think they want to be .........
I ll keep you spellbound....
I shadow........
mimic,,
and imitate......
"Yo!
Im kool az f..k......"
thats wuzup......foo.....
thats what you see.
thats me but thats not me!

the gift of insecurities
is a crime to humanity
symptom's cover you from head to toe...
like an  infectious disease.....
the only know cure ......
is to belittle  and then infect the one you adore ....
and then leave them .....
alone and hollow......
from time to time
be kind to them
when they start to feel better
then
pull the rug .
kick them in the face ....
laugh and leave again......
worked on me.......
i got so many ......
problem is i cant treat anybody
like that ........
if youre getting it.......
just remember
trying to forbid the things they do.
will reflect on you ....
and they will do it anyway..  .
the harder you try.
to stop them the more
they will say
it was cause you pushed them
to do it.
sorry .
the only thing you can do
is walk away .......
and love yourself
because they wont......
you deserve better .....
love yourself
hope this helps someone
i just really really really do.
i love you
..you should too.