It’s painful to be so close
Yet be so far apart
I may have your friendship
But I will never have your heart
When I look into your eyes
My world stands still
I feel as if I’m dreaming
And can’t believe it’s real
Your beauty is mesmerizing
In every possible way
When I see you
You’re the highlight of my day
I wish I had the courage
To tell you how I feel
But I’m afraid that my love
Will always be concealed
I love you more than you could know
But for fear of losing our friendship
You will never know

All the brilliant stars in the sky
Stand like friends
Side by side
But this isn't the case
Millions of miles apart
They will never see face to face
Like the stars friends seem near
Is this the same illusion?
It all seems so unclear
Because as bright as the stars may be
I still feel alone and in the dark
Despite all these stars that are surrounding me.

Thirty years separate our lives
If she was here, she'd be forty-five
Sometimes I lay awake at night
The tears I try to fight
But I have never won
The tears, they always come
I didn't even know what was going on
Just one day she was all of a sudden gone
And no matter how hard I try
I don't even remember saying goodbye
I had only taken thirty-six million deep breaths
By the time of her unseen death
I never had a chance to say goodbye
It hurts me everyday, so much that sometimes I cry
When you go home share your love with your mom
Because you never know when she will be gone

Late at night when I cannot sleep
All I think about is you and I weep
Why can't you be here with me
That's the way it ought to be
I wish I could see you one last time
I'd do anything to see your face right next to mine
But your in a place far away
And for eternity, there you'll stay
I hate the cancer for what it did
Stayed away from the doctors and hid
It was found but way too late
It had already decided your fate
It was a clear, sunny morning when I heard that you had died
I comforted my sister while she cried
I asked Dad if you were ever coming home
He was silent, and I knew it was a no
I felt tears streaming down my face
He said it's okay, she's in a better place
I know what he said is true
But I can't stop missing you

Walking along the beach
Waves crashing upon the shore
When I am here
The pain, I feel no more
The deep blue sea
The dark starry night
When ever I am here
It just feels so right
I'm at peace when I am near the sea
It gives me hope
It gives me dreams

The cool ocean breeze
It makes me believe
Believe that you are near
Even though you could never be here
Because I know that you died
But still, it feels like your alive
There was this time when I tried to take my life
I thought of you and couldn't control the knife
The room started to spin around
My knee's went weak, and I fell to the ground
For ten minutes I layed there crying
Thinking of you and thinking of dying
Only when I stopped thinking of death
Was I able to regain all of my breath
I know that it was you
Watching over me like you'll always do
I'm still not sure what I believe
But you'll always seem near when I feel the cool ocean breeze

My time with you was very brief
But still, your death brought me pain and grief
The cancer took you from my life
It took you to a place so very nice
You left me at the age of four
To go through heavens door
I know it was not your fault
But still, the sadness will never halt
I feel so lonely inside
the sadness builds like the rising tide
I miss you every minute of the day
but you'll always be so far away
It's been eleven long years
Since the last time you were here
But no mater where I go or what I do
I will always remember you