My nights are long and days are short even nature doesn't seem perfect anymore, you've gave me wounds with the words you've used and never will you say forgive me I'm sorry

Is he missing me or discovering someone new, better, smarter missing me like a rose missing its petals but falls in love with discovering a new there will be more I suppose does he wonder, wonder about the what if’s and an’s is there something will you shine for me, show me who you are blossom for me bloom and grow for every day that passes I know it’s a day closer to you

for every day that goes by we get weary of each other that time goes by and each day my heart continues to break not saying anything was a mistake but then again i could be completely wrong no doubt about it when we can talk but never together cant have a ******* conversation but yet have every ******* thing to ***** about im told iim not asked to do anything yet if the house is messy and its not clean its my fault everythings my fault

it's all inevitable everything is bound to happen things happen to good people yes it could be you yes it does happen and no matter what you still go on like nothing ever happened that's what's bound to happen its inevitable if you ever healed or recovered from the damage of events doesn't matter and it won't matter time doesn't stop for anyone it sure as hell isn't going to stop for you it's inevitable who gives a **** about the stories the traumas the worry's the sorrows the troubles why bother bring anything up why stay stuck in the past if everything was so ******* bad why remines in somewhere if that's what you remembered not even wanting to think about yet we go back and backtrack or remines its the oddest of things to do but whatever the reason its highly *** backwards we all die at some point and we'll be a thing of the past we will not be remembered we'll be urban legends we'll be the example of bad habit we'll be the person who you just so happen to cross paths with and now there on the news reports of a body being found unidentified nobody was found no name no identification no one no one will be missing no on anyone who'll worry or wonder about perfectly no one

the tendency to feel the need to be 10 steps ahead to keep myself safe and everyone else just to feel like I'm keeping myself  safe and sane the tendency to apologize for everything and anything including the things that are completely out of my control knowing **** well the ones who should be apologizing never will so why not do it that's all I ever known taking the fall, accountability, being the scape goat that's my tendency for being a decent ******* person yet I'm treated by everyone like I've done something wrong the only wrong I've ever done was trust be kind decent to the wrong people thinking there could be good in everyone being naive putting trust care time into those who were patiently waiting for the moment they knew they had me where they wanted me that's when they would strike always catch me completely off guard then I'm in shock I'm stuck I'm in disbelief I'd say are you ******* kidding me no not you too why and then in the end I'm always alone just as i started nothings changed nothings new nothing hurts I'm okay no thanks anyways you too stay safe have a good day no matter how much time goes by at least I still have myself always faithful by my side

Such a shame he's a coward that's all he is and yet he claimed to be more claimed to be the one who's always there claimed to be the one who always cares but it was nothing more then a meticulous lie claimed to be the one to always be by my side but it was a lie a lie used to many times a lie that began to lose the meaning of being a lie it was so discombobulated that it was nothing no more such a shame he's a coward a shameful scared ***** in disguise a ***** in distress he was the one i trusted to bring to my family and he turned everyone of them against me non the less now here I am finally all alone and nope no one at my side and no place to call home such a shame he's a coward a ***** in destress what a waste of time non the less well at least I've got myself yes my shadow stays closely by my side I've got myself but in this life that's all we truly have we'll come in alone and go out alone we only have ourselves truly be good to yourself don't let anyone contradict your self wealth if no one will show you do it yourself

Its hard to think about things when they weren't so great it's hard to miss people who never cared about you a bit it's hard to be alone when that's all you've ever been it's hard to think about certain memories it's hard to think that on that day it felt like I had everything and now here today I'm once again alone stuck in my head nothing but my thoughts and tears comfort me in my bed why is it that we aren't aloud to stay with the ones we once came to know and now here you are all alone