It feels smooth like ice
It pours like *****
It smells like metal
It stings like a bee
Only slightly a burn
I want more
I want to feel that empty void
I play with it like a childs toy
It was always my favorite
The metal was always cold
After the mess is made all my pain melts away
My only satisfaction is the dark red that stains the floor
Like blood on a white fresh t-shirt

Who was I to love you.
Who was I to care.
Who was I to help.
Who was I.
Yelling, telling me you love me, with your vicious words.
Snatched me with your anger wrapped around my throat.
I smiled at you, with a broken heart.
I forgave you, with a blind over my eyes.
I kissed you, with fear of my life.
My tears appeared like the cuts on my arm.
They burned with anger,hate,hurt they poured and dripped.
Like the rain when mother nature crys.
For all the beautiful things and life she created
Just for everyone to **** it, she had to watch it all die.

It's always a war as I constantly fight myself. I'm trapped and I don't know how to get out. I'm lost and I can't find my way. I'm a unwanted stray with no owner, no tag and no name. As unwanted as a uninvited guest. But you brought me home, you loved me.
You hurt me, you killed me. You gave me everything you promised you'd never be. Thanking you for being another perfectly dressed lie.

Hey, strange girl with the colored hair.
Hey, strange girl with the piercings.
Hey, strange girl why so quiet.
Why so cold.
Why so dark.
Why does it seem like every time you talk you fall apart.

I am a girl
Not "nice ****."
Not " those pants looks good around your ***."
Not "Hey, ***** don't you see me talking to you!"
I am a girl
Not your entertainment of ****** desires.
I am a girl
Not "someone who was made for you."
I am a girl "Who, you're just not ready for."
I am a girl but I'm a survivor!