it's all inevitable everything is bound to happen things happen to good people yes it could be you yes it does happen and no matter what you still go on like nothing ever happened that's what's bound to happen its inevitable if you ever healed or recovered from the damage of events doesn't matter and it won't matter time doesn't stop for anyone it sure as hell isn't going to stop for you it's inevitable who gives a **** about the stories the traumas the worry's the sorrows the troubles why bother bring anything up why stay stuck in the past if everything was so ******* bad why remines in somewhere if that's what you remembered not even wanting to think about yet we go back and backtrack or remines its the oddest of things to do but whatever the reason its highly *** backwards we all die at some point and we'll be a thing of the past we will not be remembered we'll be urban legends we'll be the example of bad habit we'll be the person who you just so happen to cross paths with and now there on the news reports of a body being found unidentified nobody was found no name no identification no one no one will be missing no on anyone who'll worry or wonder about perfectly no one

the tendency to feel the need to be 10 steps ahead to keep myself safe and everyone else just to feel like I'm keeping myself  safe and sane the tendency to apologize for everything and anything including the things that are completely out of my control knowing **** well the ones who should be apologizing never will so why not do it that's all I ever known taking the fall, accountability, being the scape goat that's my tendency for being a decent ******* person yet I'm treated by everyone like I've done something wrong the only wrong I've ever done was trust be kind decent to the wrong people thinking there could be good in everyone being naive putting trust care time into those who were patiently waiting for the moment they knew they had me where they wanted me that's when they would strike always catch me completely off guard then I'm in shock I'm stuck I'm in disbelief I'd say are you ******* kidding me no not you too why and then in the end I'm always alone just as i started nothings changed nothings new nothing hurts I'm okay no thanks anyways you too stay safe have a good day no matter how much time goes by at least I still have myself always faithful by my side

Such a shame he's a coward that's all he is and yet he claimed to be more claimed to be the one who's always there claimed to be the one who always cares but it was nothing more then a meticulous lie claimed to be the one to always be by my side but it was a lie a lie used to many times a lie that began to lose the meaning of being a lie it was so discombobulated that it was nothing no more such a shame he's a coward a shameful scared ***** in disguise a ***** in distress he was the one i trusted to bring to my family and he turned everyone of them against me non the less now here I am finally all alone and nope no one at my side and no place to call home such a shame he's a coward a ***** in destress what a waste of time non the less well at least I've got myself yes my shadow stays closely by my side I've got myself but in this life that's all we truly have we'll come in alone and go out alone we only have ourselves truly be good to yourself don't let anyone contradict your self wealth if no one will show you do it yourself

Its hard to think about things when they weren't so great it's hard to miss people who never cared about you a bit it's hard to be alone when that's all you've ever been it's hard to think about certain memories it's hard to think that on that day it felt like I had everything and now here today I'm once again alone stuck in my head nothing but my thoughts and tears comfort me in my bed why is it that we aren't aloud to stay with the ones we once came to know and now here you are all alone

No matter what I do it seems like there's nothing to impress you
all you love to do is stress me out and get in my face
and down my neck about the invisible people
you always tell me about
how you cant trust me then why do you stay
Why would you stay
If it's a constant fear a monkey on your back
While cause your own problems
When nothing's wrong I would love it if we could always get along
But you noice the peace
The bliss and joy we're having
As you stop and catch yourself your search for something to go off about
Search for something this **** this up something to break us off
This pain and ache I constantly feel
And think why do you stay
Why wouldn't you go
If this is a loveless love
Theres nothing were in holding onto
There's nothing here anymore
To say its not here anymore is and understatement
Because I truly would never know
I wouldnt be surprised if you dragged me along
Just because I was a trinket you paraded to your friends
Call me out of the room
Say we have company

Feeling everything on the inside, while feeling numb on the outside. To wear a mask I just stay quiet the more quiet you stay the more you'll see your not the only one who wears a mask at times when its needed maybe just convenient maybe its your armor and with it you feel the safest no matter the situation or the case at hand we all have choices but with this gift I know you wouldn't really care about what I said. So I saved my little bit of hope and lots of dread. I guess I rather be here unsaid, then lying in the dirt dead