My life has a story to tell I want to break things I want to sing I want to run I want to feel the sun I want to fly I want to know why I want to be wrapped in a cocoon I want float like a balloon
I’m not perfect See these cracks? It mars my soul That’s a fact I am sorry Don’t you see? I want more Than I can be I can be bitter Taste the wine Remember things I should leave behind Broken record On repeat My mistakes They haunt me I try to fit A puzzle piece Crooked edges Torn out seems What does this world Want from me? I am a mother Please don’t laugh A solitary soldier I do the best I can I have no answers Just what I feel What’s the lesson? What is real? All these things I shout my mind is chaos Let me out
How many ways to miss you how many times to cry? How much pain must we feel how many questions why? How many days have gone by, Since We last looked in your eyes?
There was once a girl who didn’t fit in She was lonely all the way up to her chin She did have a sister And often she missed her It boggles the mind How much trouble they’d find And when they were together It was always forever
I thought i was a mistake A little pill someone didn’t take It once felt like no one gave a **** But I am proud of who I am My Daddy’s talents my mothers face I want to live my life with grace I’ve overcome a war within myself Blessed to be me and no one else
There’s something wrong with me I have the sight but cannot see You tried to show me the path I got caught up in the math Sun and moon and stars I reach but they’re to far Your soul is filled with light Mine is dark like cryptonite You sing your glorious song I’m the one whose already wrong I have a voice but cannot speak The very air makes me weak
My life has a story to tell I want to break things I want to sing I want to run I want to feel the sun I want to fly I want to know why I want to be wrapped in a cocoon I want float like a balloon
Standing together holding hands Watching the world die from where we stand I’m not afraid and I don’t cry It’s like I know the answer so I don’t ask why You are beautiful and you are calm Just being near you feels like a song Our white gowns blow in the wind I used to wonder if I’d ever see you again Buildings crumble and buildings fall The one we are on is still standing tall Peace comes over me everything’s ok As we watch the Earths last day.
We’ve really been through it, What’s there to say I’m grateful for your love everyday The past is what makes us who we are I think we’ve both come really far It’s taken me years to be ok. But that’s not your fault in any way I have sisters and I have brothers But I am the lucky one not the others I still have a Dad and a mom People who love me that I can depend on My emotions have always run deep Loving me it doesn’t come cheap I’m sorry for anything that’s hurt you I am the one who doesn’t deserve YOU
I’m a hole, a giant void Where I go, I erase the noise I am blackness, I am night My hearts been eaten by blight I am suffering, I am disease I will bring you to your knees I am destruction, I am pain Follow me and you’ll never be the same
The winds on the hills call my name My spirit is searching wild and untamed I raise my arms high and encircle the sky Let the wind lift me and raise my body up high I look to the crashing waves and broken rock I hear the bleating of far off sheep in the stock I wrap my shawl around me to fight off the chill As I head towards the ruin of the castle on the hill The stone holds the coldness of it's many years I run one hand upon it the other wipes away my tears The rough wind whips my hair upon my salty face It's been so long since my soul has stood in this place A thousand lives stories could be told It's the many secrets these old stones hold I close my eyes as they filter through my head Take me back my soul cries I leave the words unsaid He stands there before me Like soldiers of old His breathe warm on my Cheek worth more than gold No longer does the wind whip through a ruin I have returned to Cal Ne Ra Duin!
I move through your blood and through your veins You cannot see me but I’m here just the same I am the fire that rages out of control I am the darkness that attacks your very soul I am the scream you swallow Where you go I will follow
Family is what makes us strong Fixes hurts and rights the wrongs Family knows us for who we are Fights our fights and mends our scars Family stands together in family we trust We do what we do, we do what we must. Family can be chosen it isn't always about shared blood. It's about a love you can count on that's always enough. Family is the beginning and family is the end. The stronger the family the better the friend.
I'm all right Till I'm not Everything's ok Till its rot I'm up high Till I'm low Here I am Nowhere to go I feel good Till I don't I fake smiles So you won't I crave love Like its gold
I stand under the lonely sun Reflecting on the things I've done Deadly desert in my heart Painful stabbing tears it apart My sisters sins have hurt us all Screaming crying tearing at the walls I want to burn it. My mothers house Till there's nothing left the flames can douse Maybe I'm just another crazy child Setting things on fire and screaming wild Sometimes I don't ******* care I'll go screaming till there's no voice there Slip on crazy like you slip on gloves No one to listen no one to love Responsibility is a heavy weight Crazy is easy crazy could be great Slip away from it all feel no pain
Pulled and twisted a million different ways Who are you to tell me how to live my days? I answer to one person and one person alone I answer to GOD who sits on the throne!
So take away your judgements and your reprimands No one gave you control over me or my life again You can choose to love me, for who I really am Or I will move on to people who can.
For I will be myself and LOVE all that I can Learn from the past and praise the I AM
Burn down the memories I need to sleep Away from the reality I want to dream The fire will feed I need to flee Smoke is reaching for me I have to get free My memories are pictures Scattered on the floor Stuck in a room No windows or doors The heat is rising It's burning my cheeks Has it been days? Or has it been weeks? I give up the fight I fall to the floor Surrounded by my memories I don't care anymore Breeze on my face Memories rise and bend They turn into doves And fly away on the wind
My selfish heart calls out to you Please come back I need you! To hear your voice to see those hands To know you’ll never leave us again I know your in a better place But we’re still here and it’s not the same Pops is just a hollow space Kristen wants to leave this place Our brothers pretend that nothings wrong Your Grand children sing life’s sweet songs We try to just breathe and act the same Forever changed and living with the pain Every day I say move on move on But how do I do that when my momma’s gone? Stolen, ripped away! By someone she trusted who has yet to pay? The only thing that I can really say We all lost a part of ourselves that day We love and miss you Momma
Dark and darker the night Black crows dance in flight Cold and colder my skin Blue veins glow from within Red and redder my blood Agony crawls through the mud Grim and grimmer my smile Hello Pain it’s been awhile Deep and deeper my sin My soul shudders it’s him Strange and stranger the fear I scream out my tears Wild and wilder is death He drinks me in till there’s nothing left Dark and darker the night Black crows dance in flight
It’s not much but I gave you my heart You threw it in the fire till I’m broken and charred Now that I’m hollow you are more than you are My feet are frozen my lips are blue You just continue to do what you do A fraction of what I was I’m a just a shadow A seed that’s been thrown to ground that’s hallow You are glorious you glow like the sun A thief of souls and owner of none