Hide

I need a wall to lean on
All my strength is gone
Give me a buoy to float
I cannot swim on hope

Give me a ladder to climb
I’ve sunken deep in my mind
I need a hand to hold
To stop from feeling alone

A prescription for pain
To stop the thoughts in my brain
I should get off the ground
But Gravity is pulling me down

Let me sink in your embrace
To ease the crazy that I face
All the things I am inside
Is on the battlefield where I hide

We’ve really been through it, What’s there to say
I’m grateful for your love everyday
The past is what makes us who we are
I think we’ve both come really far
It’s taken me years to be ok.
But that’s not your fault in any way
I have sisters and I have brothers
But I am the lucky one not the others
I still have a Dad and a mom
People who love me that I can depend on
My emotions have always run deep
Loving me it doesn’t come cheap
I’m sorry for anything that’s hurt you
I am the one who doesn’t deserve YOU

In a war with myself
Who will win? Can’t tell

Anger over what’s been done
Happiness was no longer having fun

Sadness saw and began to sway
No one will win this battle today

All these things fighting in my head
Anger wants all emotion dead

Happiness turns into insanity
How will I keep my humanity?

Fear is running everywhere
Hope no longer seems to care

Peace has long since fled
Anger can only see red

Fighting my daily battle
Dug a grave but it’s shallow

Because I’m in a war with myself
Who will win? Can’t tell

I’m swimming in your sin
How did we begin?
Splashing in wine and gin
I don’t want it to ever end

Give me your love and hate
Your a thirst I cannot sate
If the flames burn me, great
Together our darkness is fate

It’s been five years today
I will never be okay
I can smile and I can laugh
Inside I’m broken and that’s that.

I’m a hole, a giant void
Where I go, I erase the noise
I am blackness,  I am night
My hearts been eaten by blight
I am suffering, I am disease
I will bring you to your knees
I am destruction, I am pain
Follow me and you’ll never be the same

Don’t give me excuses
For these ugly bruises


On my soul