What do I want
I guess it's not clear
I thought everything was perfect
But now I lie here

I lie in my bed
A million things going through my head
No sleep to come
Why am I feeling so glum

I wanted you
So terribly bad
Now that I have you
Why am I so sad

What do I do now
Stay and accept
Will I smile again
Am I trapped in your net

Is it too late to run
Admit I was wrong
Should I just float along
Like a sad country song

Be careful what you pray for
You may get what you wish
My heart's been deflated
Too broken to stitch

I fly through the sky
With a twinkle in my eye
Don't know where I'll go
But it won't include snow

Sun and the ocean
Is the place for me
Peace and serenity
The way it should be

The warmth brings me away
To a magical place
You can tell I'm in heaven
By the smile engraved on my face

I want to stay here
Let the waves rock me to sleep
I'll be quiet and happy
I won't make a peep

Paradise.

I never thought I'd be in love again
Especially with my best friend

Life had its troubles
Surely more to come
But with you by my side
The dark brings the sun

My lover, my friend
My partner till the end

How long I have waited
For you and I
So many nights
Left alone to cry

We are finally together
Like we were meant to be
I have all of you
You have all of me

I'm sitting here all alone
Staring down at my phone
I'm flying out once again
With myself, my only friend

Excitement is lost
It's a regular day
I can't run from myself
No matter how far away

I say I need peace
This much is true
I only wish
I was leaving with you

I still dream of you
I can't explain why
When I think of us
I just want to cry

You are with her now
Happy as can be
I'm so pleased for you
I just wish it was me

How do I get rid of the pain
My heart screams every day
There is nothing I can do
Nothing  I can say

There is no second chance
I can't get you back
I'll live with my tears
My life's turned to black

Where am I going
What is my path
I have to make choices
Put aside my wrath

Trails lay before me
Like cards in a game
Which trail do I take
Will I end up in shame

Choices are not easy
Overwhelming at times
Which way to turn
I can’t cross that line

Stand still for today
No decisions can be made
Only time can guide me
All the way to the grave