Don't just be with the one you think you can live with....
Be with the one you can't live without

This little girl
Won’t go away
She taunts me
Makes fun of me
She’s cruel
She wants me to suffer

She’s laughing at me now
She’s saying I’m fat, ugly and old
She says I’m useless
And she keeps laughing

I start to walk away
As fast as I can

Am I safe now?
I don’t hear her…
Is she gone?

I pass the store window
I see her reflection
She is there waiting for me
I can’t get away

I turn towards my car
I see her in the window
How did she get in there?

Oh dear God, the girl is me!

I look at the sculptures in the sky
The beautiful white creations
Against the deep blue sky
With just a hint of red
As the sun sets over the ocean

I wish I could fly
Jump from cloud to cloud
Light as a feather I’d be
Not a care in the world
Until the dark comes
I’d close my eyes
And dream of the light
And the beauty of the sky

Oh, how I wish I could fly

I remember
A time
Long ago
When waking up
Made me smile

New day
New opportunities
Fun
Excitement
Amazement
Love

I wake up today
Tears run down my cheeks

Dread
Fear
Disappointment
Heart ache
Anxiety
Stress

Is this all there is?  

I don’t want to wake up….

Should I give up on life?
What’s my reason to live?
I know in my heart I have so much to give

I have so much going for me
So I’ve been told
But all I feel is used up and old

Too many things against me
One, two, three
Addiction
No Car
Cannot drive for years
Who would want me, who could handle my tears

I’m doing my time
For my sins and my crime
But who can see through
To the woman inside

It doesn’t seem worth it
To wake up every day
But there is no way out
I’m doomed to stay

Responsibilities hang over me
Penance to pay
For mistakes in the past
Memories that will never fade away

My tears flow like waves thrusting in the ocean
The pain shooting through my brain is like thousands of tiny needles
Deeper and deeper down to my soul
My body trembles and shakes uncontrollably
Every muscle in my body screams for relief
But none comes…

I push the button next to my bed
I feel the morphine swirling through my veins
Waiting for relief
But none comes

My days are numbered
Just relieve me of this torture
Please make it end
Pull the plug

I still see your face
With that grin so brash
Taunting me
Teasing me
Torturing me
Then gone in a flash

You don’t show your true colors
You hide them so well
Hidden behind that sweet smile
Those kind words you sing come straight from hell

Peel back your mask
Reveal your true self
The devil appears
Hiding on the shelf

You’re incapable of love
Your anger is fierce
Perverted thoughts
You try to hide
But you can’t help yourself
You enjoy the ride

The charade is over
You come exploding through
You can’t fool me anymore
I can see right through you