I loosen my eyes and the suddenly the whole world appears before me
and I smile
and there is no reason
or perhaps every reason stand before me
evident, luminous, unified
that I cannot tell where it begins and where it ends
or even if my nature is separate from this joy

Some days I hold space for the tears

some people go out and buy new dresses
cut their hair
say mean things or ask “ why me?”
some find a pretty face
or a temporary generous hand

I just sit and cry
because I am just sad that is all

some go out and shop,
some drink their way to swim out their sorrow
but I don’t buy many things
and I am not a heavy drinker

I just lock myself in the bathroom stall and cry when the feeling comes on strong

some move
and some delete everything
I think everything in life is a gift
and with time I want to see this as one


some, many, people,others
do “X” who knows what the way to go
is...

...just have to let the tears fall so I feel cleansed

Oh Nina when I hear your voice from the speaker I am overwhelmed and the guards standing at door of my eyes lose their composure

“ I get along without you very well” plays and I silently cry in a coffee shop

Simply in flesh
expressing

simply like you
born into earth
breathing

simply here
for just a while
living

simply all of life
loving itself
in disguise

simply
and humbly
trying
(like you)

People say the spirit walks with them
but they are the spirit walking
and we are the flower
and we are life blooming
each capable
–just as we are–
of offering the greatest gift of joy to those who come into our lives
each of us able to take a second to stop and appreciate
each of our lives unfolding with the equal beauty

Awareness’s long encompassing skirt fits well and I twirl and run with it. spring  is here and my heart rejoices and I want to close my eyes and soak up the sun
how wonderful it is
how we all rise and regardless of yesterday and can pick the street we turn on
there is no road where life has not been
I hold the evidence in a book and I hear it through the music of others and I am calm and I am happy to be a human being even if its not eternally

The stores were open a bit later so I went to buy berries. Walking back home I turned onto my street and from the distance I saw an old man taking very small steps. He walked so slowly...when I had finally walked passed him he stopped me and asked me if he was close to a certain address. I could see his phone was out of battery. I pulled mine out and searched the address he had written down for him. With a few taps I knew he was six long blocks away from his home. I walked with him less than a block and when he noticed it was going to be very far he said thank you and kept heading that way but he was so slow and he couldn’t walk so well. It was nearing midnight and I could not let him go alone. Even if it would take an hour at his pace I would walk there with him but a taxi road by and I am fluent enough to say “take him here” and “ I will pay the fare” so hailed it down but the cab driver wouldn’t take him. He said “he’s not normal, he can cause me a lot of trouble” he wouldn’t take him. I walked with him arm in arm until I got to a bigger street there I hailed down another cab. I helped him into the taxi and asked to pay his fare. It was simple this time.

An old  man with a dead cell phone battery with a little paper medicine bag trying to get home.