I've started wishing again
Stars, eyelashes
Wishbones, 11:11
Creating pictures from the ashes
I doodle your name
In the pages of my heart
To me you are
More beautiful than any work of art
You are the sun
To my rain
You take away
Every ounce of pain
Will you be mine?
Will you love my mind
And my fragile
Soul as it gently unwinds
In your hands
You can mold it
To any shape or form you please
My heart, you can hold it
I trust you
With every inch of my being
In my dreams
It's you I'm seeing
I
Crave
You

I'm falling down that rabbit hole
This love has taken its toll
Drifting through this swirling abyss farther down
I finally spot the ground
Feet planted firmly
A bustling tea party
Offer me a drink
Just a spot, the tea cups clink
Filled with who knows what
I want to run but
I'm growing
Overflowing
I need to find you
You'll know what to do
To get me out of this mad, mad, world inside
Without you, I can only run and hide
You are my bravery to help me defeat
The monsters I must beat
To get back to reality
The cat told me I must find my sanity
Without you it's not there
Just ask the March Hare
I'm mad without you by my side
Much like the hatter who uses his hat as a ride
Can't you see we're late?
For a very important date
We must get back now
We have no time to figure out how
We'll fight our madness together
Get out of this world forever
Fight the jabberwocky
To find the key
Back reality with you by my side
You are my bravery, my sanity, my pride

Goodbye to you
Sweet hopeless dream
Our story wasn't meant for two
Not a shimmer, not an inlkling, not a gleam
Of sadness in your eye
As I slowly walk away
Breaking the tie
That held us day by day
Unwinding endlessly
The knots come undone
Completely, utterly, helplessly
Fading in the sun
Our love used to be bright
Magnificently colorful and wild
It's turned dim, no light
Unbearably mild
Maybe I'll miss you
When I feel that imprint you left on me
But now were through
And I am free

Oh the feelings you ignite
My heart like a light
I haven't felt this way
In forever, I'd say
Not sudden like the others
Been growing under the covers
Kept it inside for so long
Are these feelings so wrong?
Maybe I'm in love with your crooked smile
I pray it stays this way for a while
I don't want to fall out of whatever this may be
Somehow you feel the same about me
Maybe it'll turn out right this time
This isn't too bad of a crime
I think I've fallen for you
Yes, I think it's true
I love you my little sweet pea
I think maybe you're the one for me

The worlds hazy hue
Beneath my purple tinted shades
Thinking of you
Makes me want to give up the blades
My lipstick stained cigarette
Between my lips
You let
Me put my hands on your hips
Steal the cigarette with a kiss
Inhale the smoke
Little miss
I've got half a pack cause I'm too broke
To buy anymore
I'd give my last to you
Rob the convenience store
If you wanted me to
Bite marks on your collar bone
The scent of your skin
Smells like home
Pop a pill out of the little tin
Kiss me gently
Push it in my mouth
In the back of your Bentley
While we travel down south

My little suicidal sweet pea
Tells her pain and troubles to me
She gives up so often
Watching her heart soften
I've never been good at expressing how I feel
But without you my heart would never heal
Please stay
If only for another day
No one is better off without you
I promise you, it's true
Especially not me
You'd leave me in misery
You're the first who truly understands
The pain I've had to withstand
And I understand yours
So please don't close your doors
Continue telling me how you feel
My love for you is real
I'll take care of you as long as you need me to
Please my suicidal sweet pea, don't be so blue

Alone
Never lonely
Never good enough
For anybody
Pick apart
All my flaws
Until my soul
Is rubbed raw
Not pretty enough
Too delicate
To be tough
Not as talented as her
Not as lovely
Needing to be thinner
My hips
Too wide
I crush
My pride
I do this
So self inflicted
I want to love myself
But I'm so conflicted
How do I love
Someone so disgusting
The tears I cry
Have my heart of steel rusting
Making it harder to break free
From this self inflicted misery