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ForeverAndAlways Jul 2018
Relationships:
******.
***:
Abused.
Love:
A war.

Things once sacred,
Lost their meaning.
ForeverAndAlways Jul 2018
"I'm okay."
I say
to the reflection
in the mirror
nothing but the shell
of a person
no longer surviving
no longer living.

"I'm okay."
I repeat this again,
and again.
But each time
I say it
the sincerity
of those words
crumble.
ForeverAndAlways Jul 2018
People are so dependant on social media.
It's kinda sad really.
They no longer communicate truely face-to-face.
But why should they?
In real life you have to be raw, make mistakes, experience pain...
while in their virtual worlds,
they can manipulate the perception in which others see.
On social media they could appear to be the most content person,
but in reality,
they use razors as a paint brush, their wrists the canvas.
Don't get me wrong,
people can easily hide behind masks and pretend to be okay,
but the isolation, the desolation,
that technology induces creates a cage around us.
Only, this cage is invisible.
We are not aware that we have become encaged,
until, the emptiness creeps up.
You feel as if you are completely alone in this world.
You look up and the the only thing you see is the light
that is produced by the screen of technology.
So instead of seeking help from those around you,
you glance back down at your screen,
searching for even a glimpse of validation,
something showing that you are doing something, anything right.
Just like a rope, the notifications you see pull you back in.
You have become so addicted to seeing how many people
have brought the perfectly constructed lie.
But the question is:
Can you find the truth,
or is it too far buried?
Just a few thoughts I've had...
ForeverAndAlways Jun 2018
I just want to disappear.
Become non existent
to a world that already
considers me to be invisible.

I just want to fall asleep.
A sleep that will take me
to a world of peace and rest
and allow me to never return here.

I just want to be something.
But it is hard to be someone
when even my own mind
reminds me that I'm nothing.

I just want to stop feeling
that I am a rock
in a world that only cherishes
those who are perfectly carved diamonds.
ForeverAndAlways Jun 2018
I wish you could see how far I am sinking.
The despair in my heart is crying rain
that is flooding the cavities of my soul
and drowning the thoughts in my mind.

I am suffocating on the lies I tell to you.
Embellishing every quiet word with a sweet tone.
I am trying to be strong for you, like a mountain in nature,
but the waters of miseries are eroding my strength.

Why can’t you see the calls for help?
I am standing here, screaming in your face,
begging for the scraps of your mercy.
However, these screams are silent.

They are hidden in the times that you cannot reach me.
I see the font of your name appear on the blank screen of my phone,
but my mind feeds me lies that make me believe you don't care;
that I am just another burden in your life, so I leave it.

They are hidden in the darken bags around my eyes.
Sleeping is a mere missed memory that every bone in my body craves to feel again.
Instead I lie here thinking of every possible outcome that could be wrong,
and this is becoming a regretful, captivating habit that I cannot break.

They are hidden in the ways I stumble with my words.
I try to tell you what’s really going on in my mind,
but I can’t describe something I don’t even understand.
So instead I smile and say I’m okay,

when in reality,
my life is dissolving away.
And the sad part is:
I want it gone.
ForeverAndAlways May 2018
"Stop stressing,"
They say.
"Not everything
can be perfect."

But you see,
this 'perfection'
is the only thing
I'm capable of controlling.

If this slips
past the tips
of my forever
busy fingers,

my world
would not exist
in the way
I need it to.

My life will become
a never ending spiral,
ripping apart the foundation
of my sanity
ForeverAndAlways May 2018
Keep it together
You can do it
Just push it down
Build a layer over it

Tears swell up
Heart pounding
The heavy weight
Upon your shoulders

Your mind wary
From the sleepless nights
That are now
An unbreakable habit

The butterflies of hope
Dropping one by one
A graveyard
In your stomach
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