There was never a time
When I was not
You promised
Where are you now

There was never a time
When you were not
You promised
Where am I now

There is never a time
When we will cease to be
You promised
Where are we now

Show me

I keep stealing sidelong glances at you
And looking away

You know I’m looking
But pretend otherwise

You smile ever so gently
Your eyes sparkle

Your form is extremely alluring
Your limbs long and graceful

I want to run behind
Follow you till I make you mine

You keep going out of sight
Stopping and watching me from a distance

How long will they go on
Our tricks and games

I’m afraid
Not that I’ll fall for you, I already have
But that it won’t last
Please don’t let me leave you

There are times
That I envy you

Why should you have everything
And everyone you desire
You are spoilt

You are the most beautiful
Everyone praises you
You are supremely powerful
Fair, compassionate and magnanimous
You are the lord of wealth and mysteries
Your fame and glories are sung across the world in exalted circles

I have heard from some hushed voices
That you are an expert and cunning lover
Who gives unimaginable pleasure  
You are perfect in every way
You are, what I can never be

So tell me how do I love you
As an equal
What can I give you

I don’t want to be another one amongst the countless hordes
Who come to you for who you are and what you can do for them
I have my pride
And my self respect
I must have something to give you
Something that you don’t already have
At least pretend
For the sake of my dignity
That I have something to offer

But then
What is the use pretending
When we both know the truth

I am not good enough
I can never love you the way She can

Have I ever really known You
Do we really share something
That is Eternal

Its not that I don’t trust You
At least I know that I want to
But

How do I trust myself
I have lied before
I’ve made mistakes
I cheat often
And I am weak

Forever at crossroads
Always on the edge
Of freedom and *******
I’m tired

Please
For once
hold me tight and set me free
I cannot go on forever like this
I need you

I grapple with my self
Once again
Entangled in chains

My strong hands
Otherwise nimble and dexterous
***** and fumble
I tug, twist and turn
Entangled in chains

My wild heart
Beats against my chest
Desperate for the moment to end
Before I come undone
Entangled in chains

I avoid looking
I pretend
To be the fool that I am not
As I remain, the fool that I am
Entangled in chains

I scrub my fingers
Hoping to wash away the stains
Of the sins that I want to commit
And those I already have
Entangled in chains

I walk away
I promise myself
I will not be bound
Not anymore