Loving you has made me hate myself.
I hate the way you consume me.

My brain, my thoughts, my ideas.
But most of all, my heart.

You are my biggest downfall.
And because of you, I can’t let anyone else in.

I want your energy off of me, OUT of me.

I wonder what you’re doing right now.
Right now in this very moment.
I feel your energy pulling at my heartstrings.
I’m not calling you first tonight.


Not tonight.

Fell in love with one person.
Lost them.
Still love them.

So, it's just best I be alone for a bit till I figure it out. I refuse to hurt anyone else in this crazy process.

You meet everyone in your life for a reason. Everyone I've encountered made me a better person for the next.

And I looked at you, and it happened again.
I fell in love.
Again.
And I thought to myself “There it is”.

Toxic *** relationships yo. When it's good it's great, when it's bad it's horrible. You rip each other apart but then build each other back up& all over again, the cycle repeats itself. We were addicted to each other for so long, but it's been 4 years you rlly have to just let me go .. I need to move on with my life. What's meant to be will always be & right now just isn't our time. I am very exhausted. One things for sure, you taught me that real love never dies, like no matter who we cross we always come back to one another but, at what point do we stop ?

Ever been with someone for so long that they're your family, they're your norm, your peace, they become apart of your LIFE. & they're always around & your worlds collide because you hang around the same people? Pretty much knowing they're not ever going anywhere. Makes it hard to get over somebody like that. Makes it hard to forget them.

Sad when the person you fell in love with is no longer that person, it's like grieving the death of a person who's still here.