Like a dead fossil crystallized in amber
My image of you held perfection
And perhaps I left before things got too bad
Because I wanted to preserve that image of you

Make up your mind
You have to choose
Because if you keep doing this game
Of
"I changed my mind"
Both of us
Are gonna end up getting hurt

Choose
You're killing me

The strings on the guitar
Are so close to snapping
Though, I unfortunately
Have to tune it up
Every time I twist the ****
It inches closer
And closer
And eventually it will snap

I'm never touching it again
I'm too scared to break it
...well, I will touch it...
The temptation is too strong...

But every strum, I will wince

I'm not sure
If I want to sleep
Or die
But I'll find out
When I close
My eyes

Only when the sun rises can I fall asleep
And the sun looking in
Through cracked windows
Tells me to sleep, but it's day, so why sleep?
But at night, I can't rest
So I might as well squeeze some in
Sleep through the days
Cry through the nights
Sleep when the moon
Finally says goodbye
Talking with the moon
All through the night
And only when it sleeps
Can I do the same
Goodnight moon
Until next time

I've lost my appetite
I mean
Sure, my stomach sounds
As if it is screaming for me to get up
And get some food
But when I actually get that food
Then what?
I raise the fork to my lips
And try not to hurl
And ****
How good it feels
This emptiness
Satisfies me
The crying
Calms me
The diet
Flattens me

Besides
They say
"Beauty is Pain"