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Farook Suyarov Jul 2017
i discovered God, while searching for inner self.
when i was alone and lost.
He was the product of my loneliness,
а proof, that no one can truly understand my nature. Is it an echo of my voice or a shadow of my image. Feeling or thought,  damnation or salvage. Am i playing with dimming hope.   Am i clinching to cracking rope. Is there abyss down below. I am not sure, i don't know.
Farook Suyarov Jun 2017
some day i woke up in the late morning
with untroubled mind.
thoughts began to dawn on me,
about past, future and the world’s design.
what is like to be a human - a question i couldn’t find the answer.
it is like having a power of decision and being deprived of the power of will.
I read, that God made angels obedient,
but the human...
he gave man a rare power to be on his own,
to make a choice of path to follow.
And the irony is so striking,
that i am confused on whether to laugh or cry.
He let him decide and made compelled to circumstances,
to be a slave of chance and subject to a rolling dice.
Man has a will of exertion,
but not the will to will.
i sense the unhappiness of his state,
but what a wonder to be a human.
his cycle is to sin and regret,
running from darkness to light,
tempted by world’s desire and another of eternal life.
his curious fate has been manifested
on cave writings and carved walls,
in a story of Lot’s wife, turned to a pinch of salt,
in rubbles of stones and gold
and the battles vainly fought.
i love this human and i pity him much,
for i am the one alike.
i can deeply feel his mind and soul,
trembling in shades of dawn
Farook Suyarov Jun 2017
Don’t blame me for i have no command of words.
They fell upon my head on a thoughtfall
and i caught what i could.
and i ducked a lot,
otherwise they could have crushed me.
i am not a good poet
and no good a writer,
but a hell of a shambolic trier.
sorry for the wind in my head,
i am just a residue of what the storm has left.
Farook Suyarov Jun 2017
do science, toiling, thriving, seeking for truth
indulge, being wrapped in a clout of mysteries
get amused, startled, taken aback
Dive into arguments, fall prey to curiosity
be slave of God, worshipper of its wisdom and beauty
Make you ardent preacher, passionate admirer
Lover of good, fighter of truth
What are we, after all?
Wandering creatures
Farook Suyarov Jun 2017
Don't feel sorry for me cause I am a Knight of gloom
I have neither sense of being human,
nor have passion, nor desire.
Just a comet wandering in space,
With no purpose and no place
Will you give me a chance to tell my story,
Which won’t bring me good, neither to you
But I like to imagine of someone,
living inside of me,
who knows my thoughts beforehand,
feels what I feel,
yearns for my talk
I want it to be a voice,
that makes my mind and body to shiver,
with hands as needles, piercing me
I have no cause to fight for but myself
I have no cause to die for but myself
Blame me as you like
Cause you’ll never know, what is like, to be me
I won't ask for approval,
I won't ask for appraisal
I am not desperate for your touch
Yes I am a gay, because I am fond of
Brilliant minds and souls.
So don't blame me, that i can't find a girl,
for they are hollow as tree trunk
Farook Suyarov Jun 2017
This age is the worst of whirlwinds,
of minds lost and souls scattered,
Puppets stringed with wills fettered,
unaware of times shattered
and clinched to things of worldly matters.
There is no guide to survive these events, tragic,
no time to apply for a power of magic,
can't stay aloof or lay unchallenged,
something  must be done and habits managed,
to change for good
and break the cages.
At least we try to overcome the risk of embarrassment
and fight temptation to show off,
not to lose the clear judgement,
to stop and look around,
when crowds rush to abyss with veils in front
and minds intoxicated,
unable to resist the urge to run for stuff fabricated.
We'll be enemies to friends and friends within enemies.
Always ask questions and not to pray for answers,
but dig and scavenge in wilderness of knowledge,
do things for their own sake
and always thrive for perfection
not for God, not for principles, not for ***,
but for perfection's sake.
The worst is to lose identity,
become a slave of indolent mob,
to be blind to light and sighted to darkness,
to loose the place to stop.
Remember to talk to inner god,
he might know the truth,
get injected with words, ideas and books of wisdom,
to shield from craze of this age's groove.
Dead could be precious than living
ideas, than mount of gold.
No one knows anything
it's only a dirt of the world.
don't feel sorry for me.
I am a competent,
satisfied human being.

be sorry for the others
who
fidget
complain

who
constantly
rearrange their
lives
like
furniture.

juggling mates
and
attitudes

their
confusion is
constant

and it will
touch
whoever they
deal with.

beware of them:
one of their
key words is
"love."

and beware those who
only take
instructions from their
God

for they have
failed completely to live their own
lives.

don't feel sorry for me
because I am alone

for even
at the most terrible
moments
humor
is my
companion.

I am a dog walking
backwards

I am a broken
banjo

I am a telephone wire
strung up in
Toledo, Ohio

I am a man
eating a meal
this night
in the month of
September.

put your sympathy
aside.
they say
water held up
Christ:
to come
through
you better be
nearly as
lucky.
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