i miss you
i know you probably don't wanna hear that
but i had to get it out some way
it's been ******* me up so bad
i need to not miss you
i need to get over myself
i'm just hurting myself more by missing you
i'm sorry but i miss you
but by this time next week i won't miss you anymore
i won't break down every time someone mentions you
i won't cry over you anymore
i won't wanna cry when i hug you
you won't affect me
not the way you used to anyways

i miss holding your hand
rubbing the huge scar on your ring finger and pinky
the scar that sent you to the hospital
i miss teasing you about how funny it felt
i miss kissing your hand when it started to hurt
i miss your sweet big hands
i miss your hand gripping my thigh when you would get annoyed at something
i miss your hand on my stomach rubbing soft circles into my side
i miss you teasing me by rubbing my lip with your thumb
i miss your fingers wondering to places unknown
i miss your hands on my back just holding me
i miss your fingers
your hands
your arms
your everything
i just miss you
and it's fine
i'm not going to tell you i miss you
cause i'm happy with my gf
and i wouldn't do anything to jeopardize that

i need you
but i don't have you
we're still basically best friends
but it's fine
i'm happy we're talking
you broke me tho
my heart shattered
but i never cried that day
i cried after
thinking of the things i wouldn't be able to do anymore
i wouldn't be able to hold your hand
i wouldn't be able to kiss you again
i wouldn't be able to cuddle you in the shed while happy and high
i wouldn't be able to fall asleep after we smoke
i wouldn't be able to fall asleep on the couch we called ours
i wouldn't be able to tell you how much i love you
nothing will ever be the same
and you know that
but we're friends
and that's fine
that's all i need right now
as long as you're in my life
i'm happy