I lost a lot in the process of doing better I was afraid of losing more but then I realized that what was being replaced was the things that wasn't needed in my way putting aside all the negativity and ******* taught me a lot don't ever limit yourself to doing what is needed, don't let that fear stop you from becoming the person you want to become. Distance yourself from all those who try to bring you down don't dull your day because of inconstant people ignorance is everywhere remember the key is motivation and ambition and god is your strength.

I'm tired of being so overwhelmed about a situation that's not even my fault I'm tired of a ***** giving me the run around like I'm some type of bad person I do my part as a lady now a ***** want to throw shades at me like I'm crazy. I try to avoid every bad situation because I know it will only get worst if I entertain it. Now I'm sitting here analyzing everything because at this point in my life I should be happy counting my blessings not crying over a ***** taking them from me. I took a lot and lost a lot I'm not going back. Accused everyday of things I don't do the past brought up daily because a ***** can't let go of it. I need me some space. I need to grow out of this shell I'm in because if I don't I'm scared that I will always be confide to this thing called hate.

Stuck between love and hate I know I shouldn't hate no one but you make it so hard for me not to. I loved you with a passion now I'm just numb to it I feel nothing but hatred towards you. Can't change what I feel about you. Steady focusing on my mind because I'm tired of always following my heart it always leads me to the wrong path. So tired of ending up in the same place twice I need to make a change for myself because even god himself knows I'm not happy with where I'm at.

I live my life wondering, what else can go wrong is there a reason why everything is all going down hill for me. Maybe I deserve it. I over think things to much && that's my biggest problem. I need to  worry less on the negatives and focus more on the positive. I need a better outcome. I know I can do better all things are possible if you believe. There is nothing that is impossible only if you make it that way.

When you get let down so many times in your life  you start to creat this brick wall around you, your guards are always up. You live your life with fear of starting over because you feel like you will get rejected. You've got let down from so many people that you thought would've been there for you then the people you wished were there for you all turns there back on you as if you didn't even exist. This generation that I live in has a lot of wicked people in it only God himself knows how much pain and anger we all carry in us. But who am I to judge when there's things that I do myself that I wish I could take back.

Girl all he does is play games, why do you allow this clown to still walk back into your life. He claims to love and care for you but yet hurts you so why do you keep pretending like **** will ever change. Baby girl I know you love em but don't be the fool playing this nikkas games. He'll just have you running round in circles like your the one that's insane. Don't let this nikka bring you down he's nothing but a deadbeat. Your worth so much more. These dudes now and days don't realize what they've got until it's actually gone. They talk **** when they see you happy in the arms of another but when they had you they didn't even know how to cherish you. These dudes are nothing but selfish *** clowns looking for another excuse to make you look weak.

When the one person you thought would be there for you ,turns out to be the one that walks away from you. Broken promises,you feel lost like the air that you was just breathing got ****** all out of you and you can't catch a breath. So many questions but all unanswered. Your left with a broken heart and eyes full of tears. What did I do to deserve this did I do something wrong am I the one to blame. Can't seem to catch my ******* breath I have all the time to sit here and cry and ask questions like why but all im doing is wasting time. Wasting time on a person that walked out on me chasing a love that wouldnt chase me. So stuck in this zone that I've forgotten about the girl that is strong. So foolish of me to think that this would last,every love has its beginning and ending. Maybe in my mind all I ever wanted was a love that never ended to spend my whole life with you. You took me by surprise and left me confused now I'll never trust another man because of you ...

When your losing the one thing you thought would always be there for you. Everything in you just feels like giving up. You gave me hope that one day everything will change. All the lies the betrayals just kept building. You've taught me so much and showed me things that I would've never thought I would have learnt. You was my everything and I was your nothing. You made it seem so simple when you told me you loved me. Then you just gave up on me. Don't understand why you would have done the things you did to me then try to pretend like things are okay. Trust and believe me when I say I'm officially done with you. Can't take the lies ,no more tears, no more pain. Getting my life together. No more stress no more worries. You hurt me but one thing you haven't tooken away from me is my pride ......!!!!!!

I feel like I need space I need some fresh air.  everything is just hitting me hard right now . All I want to do is let all my tears out. Pain & anger is what I'm holding in. Nobody's ever around when you need them. Hate feeling used. Nothing matters anymore, no one will ever understand. I try my best all the time to keep a smile on my face, but this time I just couldn't pretend anymore, a person can take but so much until you have nomore strength to hold it in anymore I know giving up isn't the right thing to do but at this point I have nothing else to keep my motivation going

I'm done with all the ******* I need to start living and doing my own thing. So done on waiting on an approval. Yet im still here sitting with tears in my eyes. Still wondering why I haven't even gave it another try, chances after chances I feel weaker and weaker just feeling like I need to give it a break. Can't sit on my *** and keep wondering why ! I have to keep pushing myself. A little more motivation is all I need, I hate it when the one person you loving can't even be by your side, but yet you always find time to be on there's , can't count on anyone other than myself and God. All I ever needed was for you to be on my side

Every struggle comes with pain every tear you shed will eventually fade & become a memory you can't erase. I always tend to runaway and hide from this nightmare that keeps trapping me in. Can't escape im feeling suffocated In my own space. My heart just keeps beating faster and faster can't catch my breath. I feel so alone, sadness and anger is all I feel mixed emotions all coming in at once like an adrenalin that just kicked in im high off of the pain that im in. Can't take it nomore feeling like I'm losing myself im just stuck in my zone without an escape to leave from... !!!!!

I always find myself to be to nice. Always being the friendly one. I have to keep reminding myself that at the end of the day ain't no one real, half of these people I speak to are as fake as the gossip **** that I read in the magazines. No matter where I go where I work where I live im always going to be me. There's no need to pretend. Hate when people talk **** about you and then play it off and want to talk to you. I don't need ignorant people in my life to bring  me down. Im me and that's why people hate because they know they would never do half the **** that I do ... !  ✌️

They say love is a powerful word. && I agree 100% on that . It's a battlefield that cannot be defeated, A wall that can't be broken down. You feel pain nothing but mixed emotions. A feeling inside you that can't heal unless you let it. They say think with your head and not with your heart, it's better to let go easly when it's done that way. Love hurts love scars. But a broken heart never heals unless it finds another soulmate to cure it ......

Lies
When lies are all you hear you become more and more wise. You try to hear the truth before it becomes another sentence without explanations. The truth is all I ever wanted, I wanted to trust you believe in you that no matter what you would say to me I could always count on the truth. I gave you the respect. But where mines.. I gave you time and all you did was lie ... Now I'm sitting here with tears flowing down my eyes hoping that your not planning on making up another lie ......

thє mσmєnt í ѕαw чσu í knєw чσu wєrє thє σnє.        чσu єmвrαcєd mє wíth чσur kíndnєѕѕ. чσu'vє tαught mє whαt lσvє íѕ trulч αll αвσut. fєєlíngѕ ruѕhíng ín αll αt σncє, thє wαч чσu mαkє mє fєєl cαnt єхplαín thє wαч í fєlt fσr αnчσnє єlѕє. чσu σpєnєd mч єчєѕ tσ вєlíєvє thαt thєrє íѕ α chαncє tσ ѕσmєthíng nєw. mч lσvє fσr чσu juѕt grєw αnd grєw, & nσw thє thσught σf lσѕíng чσu mαkєѕ mє wєαkєnєd. чσu αrє mч lífє thє σnlч pєrѕσn í pícturє mчѕєlf wíth. чσu αrє mч ríght hαnd. fσr чσu íll dσ ít αll. вєcαuѕє wíthσut чσu ím nσthíng......

When life gets hard and you want to give up just think about what you have accomplished so far. Think about the good things life could bring out of the bads. Always remember to walk with your head up high and prove to the world you made it. never let the fear of not doing stop you from achieving !!!!! Maturing is the key to life . Teaching yourself how to be strong takes courage, never let anyone tell you that you can't do it. Do what you want go for your dreams never let anyone tell you that you can't be someone greater than what you are now.

I want to be free. I want to fly like the birds in the sky, I want to see everything from up high. I want to take a chance at something new. Extraordinary is what I want. I want to run free like the kids from the park. No worries no struggles no fear no pain

I can't take this pain away as much as I try to figure it out I just do more and more damage. I hate feeling like I'm always trapped. Tears flowing down my cheeks as I ask myself why,why so much agony.? I'm stuck in my own zone trying to figure even myself out. Words can't even begin to describe how I'm feeling inside. I keep it all in without letting one word out. All I can do is sit here and cry. My tears says more than a million words.

Everyone has there own destiny its up to you to  decide which direction you want to take. I know that my life has changed so my way of seeing and wanting to do things are different now. I won't say I regret what I have now I just say more time is all I needed. My way of viewing things changed so much of how I used to see it. Now the тнιngѕ тнaт ι want ι can't get it. It's very frustrating  when you can no longer have what you want anymore ......... I thank god for everything he has put in my life I thank him for always being there to catch me when I'm at the tip of falling. I see a whole new me I'm maturing I'm more confident then I ever was. Things are just meant to be when they happen. So don't ever think that one mistake can ruin your life it's a choice you make to better it not fall with it. Keep your head held higн and always pray for the best that regardless of the struggles there's always a rainbow waiting for you at the end!☺

lιғe wнere do ι even вegιn?
wнen ι тнιnĸ oғ lιғe ι тнιnĸ oғ a new вegιnnιng
ι ѕee cнangeѕ ι ѕee a pυrpoѕe
мy world ѕтarтѕ тo evolve aroυnd ѕoмeтнιng good
ι ѕтarт wanтιng мore oυт oғ тнιngѕ ι dιdnт wanт в4
вυт wнy ι aѕĸ ιт? вecaυѕe ι ĸnow ι only goт one lιғe тo lιve or ιѕ ιт вecaυѕe ι нave an acтυal dreaм тo accoмplιѕн.

When you start seeing things from a different perspective you register the negatives and the positives you see things you once thought you couldn't do but wanted to. Every dream comes with a struggle it's up to you to fight through it.

wнen yoυ ғeel lιĸe gιvιng υp тнιnĸ aвoυт тнe мany тιмeѕ yoυ тrιed тo do тнaт and dιd вeттer. jυѕт realιze нow мυcн yoυ нave accoмplιѕнed. even тнoυgн yoυ dιdn'т мaĸe ιт тo в a вιllιonaιre aт leaѕт yoυ can ѕнow ғor oтнer тнιngѕ. yoυ are вleѕѕed wιтн тнιngѕ yoυ мay noт ѕee вυт already нave. good тнιngѕ coмe ѕlowly.