some people just do not get it
do they?

they think they can see you clearly
when in reality, you are not a window

you're more of a piece of one-way glass
people think they can see through you
but from the other side
its completely opaque

they say
"Your smile makes others smile!"
when really you're thinking
"My smile is so forced."

its hard
seeing everyone all happy
when you're all sad
they just dont get it

so you laugh it out
you laugh when they do
you smile with them
you put on the best **** act you can

they dont know that youre breaking
they cant see it
its the one-way glass
they dont understand

you might open up to people
but they mainly just leave
some will stay
but its likely theyll leave

so you go to school
or work
or out in public
and you force it

you force your happiness
and your smiles
and everything
and you just laugh it out

laughing makes it seem like
youre perfectly fine
youre okay
but you arent

they just cant see through
the piece of one-way glass
they dont know
they wont know

as long as you laugh it out

my house would be a lot better if
the kinks were all worked out

if the water wouldnt get so hot
i think i might get burned

if the water wouldnt get so cold
i think i might get frostbite

if i had my own room
instead of sharing with my sister

if my brother wouldnt pester me
about how he needs help
with everything

if my mom wouldnt yell at me
because my dads being mean

if my dad wouldnt annoy everyone
because he thinks hes being funny

if my cat wouldnt jump on my bed
and knock everything off

if my dog wouldnt bark so loud
at the slightest sound

if my hamster wouldnt always
get stuck in the stupid wheel

if i could actually sleep at night
instead of crying for hours

my house would be a lot better if
there werent so many reasons
for it to not feel like a home.

the most simple thing to do
is breathe

but some people
find breathing difficult

their heart beats are fine
but theyre suffocating

theyre suffocating inside themselves
calling out for someone to help

nobody comes to help
they dont listen at all

their breathing slows
same as their heart beat

heart beats are simple
just a signal that says

"Hey! You ARE alive!
Don't fret! Don't worry."

but some people find it hard
to make their heart beat

to make their heart beat
to breathe

its difficult for some people
anyone can have this issue

but, its simple
right?

take a look at people sometimes
acknowledge them

befriend them
care for them

help them breathe
help their heart beat

those people will love you
whether you know it or not.

Why would I only name four?
There's so many reasons

Like the way your eyes have little crinkles when you smile
Or when your laugh gets high pitched when you laugh hard
Or when you wear your new glasses, because you look so **** cute

The way you act like you're a child
Or how you love those movies
I love how you seem like you don't care
But you actually do

I love when you play with my fingers
Or scratch my back a little
When you surprise hug me
Or when you're trying to be cute in public

I especially like how you stayed with me
Through those god awful times
You're what got me through
So I really honestly can't thank you enough

I like that you don't mind me
I like that you care
I like that you stay awake for hours with me
I like that you like me

I love that you're you
I love that you just do what you want
I love that you love me
I love you

i cant do it
i cant speak

i cant do it
i cant talk

i can only talk
to certain people
and only a few
understand my words

i try
to make people understand
but they refuse to hear it
they dont understand

i give them hints
i speak
i give them clues
i talk

they dont understand
they dont get it
i cant speak
i cant talk

i dont talk to people
who dont understand
i speak
i talk

the people who get it
they acknowledge me
they pay attention to my words
they probably feel bad

i can speak
i can talk
i cant make them understand
i cant make them get it

i might just give up
but the people who
understand
would actually care

the people who
dont understand
wouldnt even notice
that i couldnt speak or talk

and i cant speak
or scream
or talk
or hurt anymore

mother, why?
i know you carried me for 9 months
well a little less...
i was born early

but, why?
why do you act this way?
why do you treat me like this?
why?

i understand
i can definitely be aggravating
and annoying
and frustrating

but, why?
why do you do this?
why do you say that?
why dont you see it?

you act as if i was the worst thing
youve ever encountered
i look at you sometimes,
and i dont see my mother

but, why?
why dont i see my mother?
why dont you like me?
why dont you care?

i know that i dont do everything you ask
i know its hard nowadays
i know that you can get very mad
i know this

but, why?
why dont you hear me?
why dont you want to know about me?
why dont you just listen?

i know why
you have a lot on your plate
you have more important things to do
you have other people in your life

you choose to ignore me
unless you need something
you dont hear my cries for you
but, why?