Burned it to the ground
There’s not time enough to explain
For you to comprehend the horror
That befell upon that tower
All you see are remnants
Of a building
That took a century to compose
Built by the locals
From hate and degradation
Had you the fortune to see her
Before the source of light
Lit her a flame
Your breath stolen
Animation devoid
Gaze professed to no other
Would never forget
The pure power that grew
From the aberration
But the light was enough
To reduce all that stability
To ash
But wonder still
If she was created from greater threats than nothing itself
What will she become
When she merely has ash to concur
She toils, I see
Defeat she will not succumb

When you lie
Where you're at
The space you take
Takes me back
Reminiscing about the last
One to take that space
And the next
Who will take your place
When you lie
Where you're at

I miss you but
Can’t bear to remember you
I do remember the girl who came
When I met you
I bet she remembers
I bet she has perfect recall
You made her out of essence  
Made her feel important
You told her silently that she was enough
She fit into your grooves
Her smart mouth challenged yours
The tide takes what’s beneath
That’s how it went
You rolled in and made a different version of me
And when you left she died
She disappeared in your absence
But I still feel her
Yearning for you
Believing she can live again
I am not so optimistic
She was created from you
But to me
This is all familiar
And I know there will be others
But not you
Never you
I will never get that version of myself back

This island is my home now
This is where I live
Here
Alone
There were others
But no more
Its probably why they left me here
With the outcasts
No regard for their lives
They just abandoned them
Here
With me
I’m not complaining
They were delicious
But my hunger grows
And I need more

You think my feelings make me weak
That they leave me vulnerable to defeat
But the strength inside me
Comes from getting back up
From taking the hurt, the loss
And recharging myself enough to face it again
You think that because I care, I’m not strong
That it makes me blind to want to belong
Caring has made life worth living all along
Didn’t realize it until now
Until I learned that emotions have to be allowed
If I want to be loved, I have to find a way to give it somehow
I’ve spent most of my life being numb and safe
Now, I am free from those restraints
Free to feel every mortifying pain:
Rejection, jealousy, betrayal, and inadequacy
I can accept those when I know
They are necessary
For joy, love, laughter and faith
I have to put myself out there, if I want to be happy
I’m stronger than the old me
I put my emotions into life, knowingly
Not out of ignorance or naivety
But out of courage
And for the chance to be happily free

Thoughts are fleeting
A conversation that’s trailed off
Itching at the importance of it
But can’t remember what it was
Always something important to do
Some lesson that needs learning
Some progress that needs made
Intent on making changes
But can’t keep them straight
Keep starting them
Losing them
Starting new ones
Hope of progress is naive
Flirting with it anyway
Because losing it
Might just **** me
Go back to them when I can
When light shines in
Keep plugging away
In lieu of unraveling
Of cracking
One last time;