With you home isn’t where my heart is
I thought home was where you were
But that home feels more like a bar
filled with people distracting me so I distract myself
A place where I spent my nights
Drinking your kiss like shots of tequila
Burning my throat all the way down
Stinging acidity that draws me back
building a habit
And addiction
To something to numb my pain
my brain destroyed from how much I had
at least I can still breathe
At least my lungs aren’t full of black smoke and shards of glass
from the broken mirrors
The pain left for a moment
but eternity lasts
you created more problems
A wreck of lies
Of common misconceptions
Hidden in flowery words
And eccentric spaces
Making me turn to something new

Grape soda fizz’ bright, bubbles arise,
My purple champagne does more than the cousin,
Mellow and sweet and worse than before,
Desperation sneezes in hands, on floor.
A virus spreads from her deadly disease,
Soda is sticky once spilled, glass broken, and the disease walks out the door,
Down 1st on Main until upon your apartment where we once were and my car got broken,
Purple protection in the form of a virus, amorphous, distorted from all shapes and sizes

I am a mystery of the world  
I wonder not of where I’m going but how I get there
I hear the sounds of the future flood my ears and inspire my mind
I see the colors around me blend into a beautiful painting of my own creation, some lucid strokes, some, charcoal smudges
I want to learn and hear and love without hesitation
I am who I want to be

I pretend I’m someone close when I yearn to be far away
I feel heat, passion, burn though my fingers
I touch the grass burning the grasses with one quick motion
I worry for the destruction caused by fire and beauty
I cry to put out the fire but to no avail
I am the beauty, the peace, the warmth, the destruction

I understand the love of all elements, balance, harmony
I say words formed from my lips, started in my heart
I dream in the daytime and sleep at night, drifting into the distraction of his thoughts
I try to move slowly, but consequence is much faster
I hope for hope, I hope for love, I love for life
I am the peace, the comfort, the distraction, the kindness, I am the identity I give my heart to