effaced

effaced Nov 2015

i am

i am young and old
i wonder what life has in store for me
i hear the pattering feet of mini me's
i see my face aged with wrinkles, arms full of babies
i desire a family
i am young and old
i pretend to be happy
i feel longingly for my future
i touch the new skin of my babies feet
i worry my children will hate me
i cry for the mother i never had
i am young and old
i understand i still have a life not lived
i say i'll love you with every breath i take
i dream of the first time you're in my arms
i try to be strong for you
i hope to be the mother i never had
i am young and old

Oct 2015

princessv

Love

Love lasts about seven years. That's how long it takes for the cells of the body to totally replace themselves.

i don't like the idea of a me without you
i don't know how to be okay with this

effaced Oct 2015

mental illness

i did what they asked.
i asked for help.
and as i knew it would be
they refused me.

effaced Jun 2015

Untitled

This time.
Ive drowned so fast.
There wasn't time to yell for help.
Water filled my lungs,
And weighed me down
Into an eternal sleep.

Jun 2015

Rivers Kay

Look through my lies then maybe you'll see

One day I'll break
one day unexpected
but you won't ever think it's breaking me...
until i'm already shattered

Jun 2015

Rivers Kay

Maybe i...

Maybe I'm not depressed
Maybe i had a bad day
Maybe i got hurt
Maybe i wasn't good enough for something
Maybe people shouldn't be so mean
Maybe i don't appreciate being lied to
Maybe i don't like lieing
Maybe people shouldn't judge others so deeply
Maybe i have a purpose
Maybe everything happens for a reason
Maybe i was meant to be hurt
Maybe i was meant to be played
Maybe i was meant to find him
Maybe i should have shut her out before
Maybe all these ******* problems don't mean ****
Maybe it's called life and,
Maybe people shouldn't watch my movie before reading my book
Maybe I'm just a person

effaced May 2015

sadistic;

i crave for the blood flow

i cry for the **non-existent love