As a child i was taught
That joy and happiness were
Off the menu
Instead I was force-fed
Hatred and demise
And while  the neighbourhood kids
Played in my view all I
Could do was cry
So I cried
I spent days upon weeks
Drowning I  the tears
That had leaked from my
Cracked pipeline eyes
And there's alot that drowning
Can teach a boy
It taught me for instance
How to swim
And I tried so hard to swim
To escape the pain I woke to and
And dozed to
And I tried so hard to get someone to
Notice.
I tried so hard for someone to
Gasp in unbearable amazement
But if there's anything else that drowning Taught me,
its that nobody cares.
So I continue to cry
Because when it comes down to it
It's better not to try

One word is all it takes
To ignite the flame that
Sets a fencer into
Motion.

*"Aller"

The worst way to
overcome a fear
Is to become it

Thank you for taking the time
The time that you took
To wash the Windows of my eyes
Just to take a look
And thank you
Thank you for not running
After seeing the sight that you saw

Lately
I've been combing the sands of my memories
Hoping to find a sand dollars worth of
Good ones
Sadly
None of them are big enough to get caught between my fingers in the
Sand
So the only things I find in my hands
Are rocks

There's no time for me
And I'm so empty that I might as well be nothing
Because this shell  is so cracked
With scars
That I'd go so far to say
The only thing I'm good for is
looking
Looking down this path I must one day go
And I still wish that one day
Would be yesterday
That way
The weight of now wouldn't be so
Overbearing