They may ask if I'm the Resistance or perhaps Heightened.
It's my call to make it so.
Should I break from the pack or stand unnoticed.
In the end I have to admit the fence is wearing thin.
Indecisiveness is so unattractive, especially to me!
That's who matters the most anyway.
Control issues being my worst defect.
I tend to try to stay out of the limelight.
Only as of late that's been a luxury I've not been privy to.  

So I remember lessons taught and used.
Wills and ways, even though they be backwards and awkward,
are most effective.
That passiveness that allows me to let go of anger,
malice and greed.
Letting go of all the ugliness I see within me.
I'm not enlightened or part of some covert resistance.
I will do the most right thing I've ever done!
Give Up!

Give up the struggle and let a very forgotten child be set free.
Locked up, thrown away, broken, torn inside.
Sitting in some forgotten corner, pitilessly crying.
Time to stop the crying, walk out of the room to the light of day.
Those saying there're enlightened confuse me, while,
those claiming to be fighting some agenda are
far beyond my intelligence.
Now I can see so many more options to choose from.
Gentle options that will allow happiness to be the only goal.
Not about what I eat, wear, my latest profile picture
on the internet or whether or not I'm on the
internet or in real life. 
There are so many options that lead to happiness!
No pressure, taking time to choose, actually enjoying the process.
No over night sensations, quick fixes... just logic and peace.

What will they think!?
It really doesn't matter anymore!

Give me your wishes, your weariness, your hopes and aspirations
I will direct them and create whole worlds of your desires and fears 
It's only a science so don't take it personal or any ill content
I only want to mix and match a series of events that entertains your restless soul
Allow me to work my magic and I might even awaken your secret abilities
At that point it's all you cause I'm just your broker not a creator like you
Now run with it, measure it up or tear it down it's your call
I'm just an observer that sees your inner self and your deepest feelings
Don't worry I'm always here to guide you to the next adventure
Just give into me and I'll embark you on the journey of a life time 

Broken as fast as it begun his love disappeared with no trace
Just like the drunkard that can't remember a **** thing too
Long before a loving embrace or long enduring breathless kiss
Something to remember so came from his intended, you
Laughing, crying... crying over what losses were the worst to own
Then the greatest loss of all, his own self respect inflicted his soul
Sudden he found himself loving all by himself, absolutely one-sided
What developed was a greater need creating a much larger hole 

Then the realization came that perhaps he never had loved at all
Then what was that intense feeling reeling, whirling inside his mind
Death had taken it's toll yet it was so much more than all that
Could it be that he never was loved and he was left far behind
Standing alone, looking as everyone ran to save their own *****
Every excuse and untruth reveled the total gravity that occurred
Never seen was the innocence that persisted through the ordeal
He was the unloved drunkard once again just the way they preferred

They can all be as one or act on their own
Muster up enough power to reek out the norm
None of them ever turn out to be a clone
Hey they're known to be able to ride out any storm

What I really like about them isn't so plane to see
Their valances are not the glory of their head
To know one you know all or possibly just let it be
Cause in the end enough is enough said 

Every single time I give a glance;
A moment in time fills my heart.
The first time I gave you a chance;
Your sky blue eyes sparkling was a start.

All I have to do is look in my peripheral; 
There you stand tall, still on your own two feet.
No matter how long, it all seems so surreal;
Yet a smile comes to me all so sweet.

What is it you know that about me my love?
Is it some pain I'll never comprehend?
Are you giving me signs from above?
Or just a chance to let go of this pain!

For now I'll accept the simple glance;
Seeing you even for an profound millisecond,
Giving me one more wonderful chance..
To allow your loss to be less painful and
more eloquent.

Scream into your pillow that unscrupulous emotion
Cause your day brought you unfulfillment in one swift continuing motion
Sleep will come slowly and perhaps you will not dream
Maybe this will be the night that doesn't wake in a scream

Morning comes, you forget the night, fear of remembering darker places
Because if you do, it just may allow you to crawl along the spaces
It's all connected in our minds collectively throughout the night
As we traverse dimensions some seen before, some never and it's a fight

Learning to crawl so we can walk
Learning to cry so we can talk

Learning to feel so we can relate to each other
Learning to stop screaming to love to love one another

Yes, he's talking to himself
Like some twisted cave elf
Forgotten from some by gotten year

Numbers never really quite random
But one the level given a handsome
Rambling about some long forgotten year

His days spent in silent concentration
Perhaps the state of a failing Nation
Or perhaps just the constant retro
thought

If he's caught in his own predicament
He'll charm you with heartwarming sentiment
Then look just at the nothingness you got

Ask me how I would know that this is so
With a truthfulness I should know
The stories, the secrets, the day being free

Magic imagined, fairytales reenacted
All my creativity highly interacted
How I know is,
it's me talking to me