Finding love in a hopeless world is a treasure
Finding something real feels impossible
Something filled with hopes and dreams
With respect and admiration.
We hold on so tight when we're scared
Afraid to wake up from the dream
Afraid that the other person will see,
All the darkness and pain we're hiding.
But I could see it, and I didn't run.
Yet once again I stand on the battlefield
Alone with sword in air,
Ready to fight.
But for what?
Why am I the one who is always fighting?
Why am I the one bloodied and bruised
Fighting for my heart to belong to someone?
It's time to lay down my arms
It's time to put away the armor
I have faught a loosing battle for too long
I will no longer fight for them.
You want to claim this heart, fight for it
If you want me in your life, fight for me
I am tired of proving myself
I am not the problem.
I have seen the light inside of me,
A fire raging with passion and love
I have seen the strength inside myself
And I will no longer be made interior.
I've been waiting for the shoe to fall,
For the secret to be revealed that I'm not enough
That I am somehow unworthy of love
But I AM ENOUGH
At the end of the day, are you?

I sit upon the window of my tower
A protective prison
I can find small joys, small love
My only comfort is the child I bore
Who smiles at me with such innocence
I accept this fait, this mild joy
Understanding I am alone.
Until the day our eyes meet,
My heart awakens from a deep sleep
Filled with love and joy
Filled with courage and hope
I reach out my hand,
Knowing yours is waiting to hold on
Terrified, excited, nervous and uforic
I see so many possibilities
So much wonder and new light
But the doors close
I am torn back to my reality
Closed behind doors and secrets
My heart starts to fade
Fear grips its icy hands around me
And yet....a light glistens from behind the wall
And hand reaches through the stone
Holding mine though I am still bound
It waits patiently, understanding my burden
Giving the strength I need to build
Giving me the love im afraid to feel
Helping me survive
Waiting for my moment to break free

I didn't know true love could exist
I didn't ever dream you could be real
Yet here I am standing in your arms
Here I am kissing your lips
Getting lost in your touch
Holding your hand in mine
And staring into your eyes.
My heart finally feels home
My soul is filled with light
I thought the shadows ruled the decalet lands where hope had gone to die
Where is the other edge of the blade
Where is the cruel mask to be lifted
Where is the needle to pop this bubble of joy
I can see the road ahead, I can see the struggle
Yet my hesrt holds no fear.
I can see the love, the joy that is to come
I can feel hope reborn in my heart
So I hold onto your arms
I rest my weary head against yours
And I breath in life
AsI feel for the first time what true love feels like

I forgot how deep the words can cut
I forgot how crushing the pain can be
I watched every dream drop like glass
Shattering the promises I held
I cant breathe
I cant stand
All I hear is the ringing in my ears
The shards of the future are scattered
Laying around me in a circle
I can feel the walls closing in again
And I dont care enough to stop them
He reaches out but I hold up my hand
I cant look, I can't bare to see his eyes
I know its not intentional
I know it wasn't to hurt me
But still disappointment chokes me
And icy claws cut off my thoughts
Never enough.  Im never...enough.
Sitting in my isolation I am numb
Where do I go from here...
Do I just fade back to myself.
Gods I cant hold back the pain
I have no more tears
I dont know to to say
I dont know what to feel
Everything's in pieces again.