Eternal Dreams

Eternal Dreams Apr 2017

I'm fine and happy today
I stalk the nights
I prey on the day
I wonder what will change

During the day I wear a mask
It helps me accomplish the impossible task
I lie down
And wait patiently for the day I die

I sit there, depressed, and try to sleep
My insomnia tells me I have promises to keep
My souls feels very worn
I start to ache and burn from my very core

Then... I'm not alone, and the mask reaapears
Out goes the grief, pain and my fears
I start my fake smile for the day
With no shading of the grey

Of course I'm not okay... I want to die
No matter how fast time flies
I don't know why I feel like this
But maybe it's fine to live in an abyss

But it is, and will be, so I cling to life
As one day I'll end it with a knife
But, I'm still here, no matter what my dreams say
And I hope that one day I'll end up being okay

Eternal Dreams Apr 2017

Abyss

There's a cold, dark place
In the back of my room
It speaks to me
And says I'm coming for you

I lie in my bed
In a uncanny position
My eyes are open
Hoping and wishing

That one day,
My dream will come true
That I don't have to be here
With a hue of blue

The darkness keeps talking
I'm going to die
All I can do,
Is lie and cry

As the darkness comes closer
It takes me in
It felt like my soul was comforted
As it soothes my skin

As the answer was always there
I just had threw it away
Now the darkness corrupted me
And I won't be here for another day.

Eternal Dreams Apr 2017

Everyday thoughts

Waking up the the morning dew
and feeling the cold as the wind blew
My mind was stuck on you
As there is nothing more for me to do

Wishing that we went to the same school
I knew that I would be a fool
As I miss you on every opportunity
I remember that you said this is your stupidity

I don't know why I won't tell you how I feel
Maybe it's cause I don't wanna hear
the answer I cannot deal
Or hold the feelings I strongly bear

I always stare or smile
Because you are the one I cherish
That we can be together for awhile
But me and you are far by a mile

Eternal Dreams Apr 2017

Maybe...

Maybe you were everything to me because I had nothing.
Maybe I loved you because I didn't know how to love myself.
Maybe I tried harder because you didn't care
Maybe it's hard for me and it's easy for you
Maybe I stayed up because you slept me away
Maybe I told the truth because you always lied
Maybe I cried you away because you laughed me off
Maybe I was sad, and I wanted you to make me happy
Maybe you are the sun, and I am the moon
Maybe I had a reflection of you because I longed for you
Maybe I loved you....or it was just a crush
Maybe I fell for you but you didn't catch me
Maybe there is a reason why I'm going through this
Maybe I'll look back and laugh because it was obviously a joke to you.
Maybe I just fear the unknowns, that maybe it's the unknowns in my life thats torturing me
Maybe I should run away
Maybe I should forget you and leave everyone behind
Maybe I want to run because it's easy
Maybe I have these feelings for you that I warn myself not to have.
Maybe I don't care if I caught feelings for you
Maybe I'm content with having you around me
Maybe I'm okay having you nothing more, nothing less
Maybe I'm slowly, but surely accepting my fate.
Maybe, just maybe, you were the one for me, but I wasn't even a number on your list.
Maybe I wanted to burn bridges, but you were the one holding the match.
Maybe I see a future with me and you together
Maybe I wanted you to love me
Maybe you should of stop running from it
Maybe... I'm just tired of saying maybe

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