They stare,

They whisper,

They gossip,

For they do not understand,

The quiet girl,

With a notebook and pen

Pain* woke me up
Like a bolt of lightning
It shot through my body
Grasping reality
I winced

Another streak of pain
From my core
To my fingertips
Paralyzing my limbs

Incoherent thoughts flew
'Is this a dream?'
No, I'm in pain
Real striking pain
Recurring pain

Shot after shot
Each vein in agony
Every nerve on overdrive
'Focus!!'
I willed myself

Slowly I opened my eyes
Heartbeats stabilized
While pain still writhed inside

With each strike I settled
As I drifted off to sleep
Pain is now a natural thing
Like blood flow under my skin

I live with it <3

it's that moment
when everything becomes too much
it's overwhelming
it's powerful

there's nothing you can do to stop it anymore
you can't hold it in

it's the moment when you have to accept the fact
that nobody is perfect

everyone has that moment
when you just can't take the world anymore
when there is no good to even out the bad

that is the moment
when the teardrops hit the floor

the moment when we accept the fact that we are all human
and we accept the fact that life can be too much
it can tear us apart
destroy us

but it's okay

in the end....everything will be okay <3

She clutches a knife
and softly
caresses her skin
shivering
as cold as metal
touches her
numbness
fills the room
diminishing reason
she craves release
her eyes are damp
tears licking her cheeks
sliding over the kiss of her lips
it could be over so soon
she could be free
if only she could cease hearing your voice
whispering
no, please don't leave me.

What we had was shunned.
Not for what it was,
but what they thought.
Though it was more than any of them ever knew.
And more than either of us could handle.
I hope the day will come,
When you can look back and smile.
Because that smile
Is all I ever really wanted out of you <3