I feel so hurt,and lost                                                                                                   I cant get out of bed                                                                                                     What is wrong with me                                                                                              Is I dont have you                                                                                                        To talk to and help me through the day                                                                         Every night I dream your alive                                                                             And wake up and your not                                                                                         How can I survive without you                                                                                          I feel like someone has pulled my heart out                                                              Im empty and dont know how to be                                                                          They say times a healer                                                                                                Its been 2 years and I still feel the same                                                                       The day I lost you ,I dont feel anything just hurt

You continue to manipulate                                                                                         And spread lots of hate                                                                                               Put seeds of doubt                                                                                                        Into peoples mind                                                                                                                     Always trying to seperate                                                                                          Your mask will slip someday                                                                                       The truth will come spilling out                                                                             When that happens what can you do                                                                        No one to blame only you                                                                                 The sooner you stop your evil the better  for everyone                                                Your a narcissistic pyschopath                                                                                 Who does not have a clue                                                                                    To love our to care for others

In my life I have many regrets, not what I done but what I did not do                            Living in misery and putting up with you                                                                    You put me down every chance you got                                                                     I  put up with you and thought it would get better                                                        But instead it got worse I ended up being your unpaid live in nurse                           This was not how I imagined my life, so unhappy so much strife                              You are passed now and its sad but I feel relief and then feel bad                              My advice to anyone going through what I did is leave                                              Respect yourself trust and believe                                                                            You are special and deserve to be loved and treated with respect                               I live alone now and am happy for I love and care for myself

Im in my house with my little pup                                                                              Things quite good not much up                                                                                The next thing I no my kids are coming home                                                            And staying with me until lockdown is gone                                                             We all get on pretty well                                                                                              Then my son passes out and breaks his foot                                                                 He stays in bed for weeks and has to then wear a boot                                               All was going fine and I was trying my best to be kind                                             I then find out from them that I dont wash the dishes right                                     I could do them right our they could wash them themselves                                      I felt really hurt and upset                                                                                           We are in the middle of this pandemic                                                                        Who gives a **** about a ***** knife

Im fed up with my life                                                                                                                                              Just been used by others,all through it                                                                        Got nothing to show for it                                                                                     I have been abused and I have been beatten                                                                                                                            Gone hungry with no place to sleep                                                                                   Now I just feel invisible                                                                                               Have done good things in my life                                                                           Tried to help others through trouble and strife                                                               The dark hour has come upon me                                                                       No one is there that I can see                                                                                     Feel that I dont matter and Im just garbage                                                                Growing up I was told horriblr cruel things                                                                 That I would amount to nothing

In this great big world of ours                                                                                    At the moment things are really hard                                                                        But we are very lucky non the less                                                                         Cause we have the wonderful NHS                                                                        They stand on the front line everyday                                                                      And fight this virus                                                                                                  We have the brilliant local shops                                                                           Their front line staff looking after us                                                                      Their is all the cleaners in the hospitals                                                                       Making sure everything is hygenic and clean                                                        They dont fuss and probably hardly ever seen                                                            All the delivery men and women                                                                                Putting their lifes in danger bringing us  what we need

I fell for you the minute I met you                                                                                You didnt feel the same                                                                                              We went out for a few weeks                                                                                   The happiest times of my life                                                                                       We got on really well and you are really nice                                                             I just wasnt the one meant to be in your life                                                                Cant hardly believe that was nearly 30 years ago                                                       You are married now,with a lovely wife and kids                                                     My life is happy and I have 2 girls and a wonderful son                                                 I just know for me you were the only one                                                                 Just seeing you made my heart flutter,my knees go weak                                         It great to see on facebook how happy you are                                                       Not a stalker just looking from afar