The things that I say are certainly true,
The beautiful one that was picked out of a few,
The heart races as you feel the closing,
But really, it's only the beginning,
Why must it be the way that it has become,
Why not the way I pictured it, oh it's such a ***,
The thoughts seiged like a gun of never ending rounds,
The world is collapsing around these four walls with no sound,
Please send the help that is needed,
I preach to you cause I am feeling defeated,
The mind tends to wander a path of darkness,
Hope it ends soon, never wanted to start this.

My first few poems haven't been all as I planned,
My thoughts that came to me in a few minutes has brought no over loving fans,
But it is fine because I'm not here for fame or fortune,
I'm here to express my emotions,
Going through life coasting,
The mind plays tricks and I am being deceived,
Lost all consciousness of who I should be,
I may sound self centered but really I am not,
I put many ahead of me and it's not just a thought,
The way I've been raised has made me who I am today,
I'm sure the experiences you've all been through have the same effect eh?

But I'm starting to lose focus so don't judge me because I don't do hocus pocus,
It's not gonna be any better,
What do you expect?...
I'm only a beginner...

A Dustland Fairytale beginning,
Just another white trash county kiss,
In '61, long brown hair, foolish eyes

He looks just like you'd want him to,
Some kind of slick chrome American prince,
Blue Jeans Serenade, Moooon River what'd you do to me???

As the morning entails of darkest thoughts,
The sun shines bright to rid of such faults,
Another day has begun,
Another light upon your life,
Oh this perfect one,
Do not feel for pain but for love,
There's more to live for than what you've thought of,
Live for yourself and not for another,
Let yourself free and find happiness from others.

It feels as though I am moving forward but always reassured that I remain in the past,

Why must my head boggle when I think of the days behind my back,

The thoughts of anger and fear, the love and the tears, the happiness and what seems to be the memories of my peers,

Every time it overcomes me I push these thoughts away and with all my might spit on it with spite,

I actually enjoy my new life, turned 21 a few days before, it's time for some fun and I'm sure it will come forth,

But as I build strength, the thoughts come once again, to break me down as if it enjoys my pain,

To live a happy life you must accept the bad and the good, but when the bad outweighs the good in such a capacity, things can end up very tragically,

Your mind will play you like a piano made with a million keys, try and fight the feeling because it's not worth the ongoing misery, I pray that you have the strength and might, accept it with love, I do this because I understand what power those nights will shove...

The apparition of you, I see,
These thoughts are uncontrollable when it comes to me,
why must these thoughts overtake what I wish to break,
You've implanted plenty of memories in my wake,
Now i see it everytime I'm not awake, selling myself short, yes I'm that sort,
The options are endless,
I feel so friendless, but it's certainly not true,
I have plenty but all I want is you, as a friend or hopefully more, until I get to know you I wont see what's in store, the future is unpredictable and who thinks different is predictable...

The body aches as it tends to break,
The heartless boy with an unusual shake,
He cries for love that has no bound,
To perceive in his mind that it can be found,
The thoughts of many have ruined his image,
But as he ages he will not be finished,
His mind expands to unknown areas,
He lives on with no fear from us,
He screams out with incredible rage,
And lives on thinking about the new age,
Staying strong and living on,
Bless the soul that he was gifted,
He brings hope for all of those who wishes.

Who is this?
The one that I think of so,
Who is this that has wrecked my brain with thoughts of gold,
The one I desire most at the moment,
This creature of beauty,
The way she dresses, I do not mind,
But those eyes have got me hypnotized,
The way she proclaimed and presented herself towards me,
I feel my heart beating towards she. Her.
Memories that I won't forget,
that vibe in her eyes,
What is it that grasps my heart?
What is this feeling?
Am I falling apart?
Have I fell down or have I rose up?
This beautiful music won't stop...
Is this a chance?
Do I see it in her glance?
Or is it my mind playing tricks on my mental stance?
Walls broken as if I was at war,
But these feelings remind me of what has happened before...afraid to even open these great doors.

Through the darkest night, the thoughts creep and strive on your emotions in a flurry,

Through the darkest night, when you wish god gave you a break from all of your problems in a hurry,

Through the darkest night, the time you realize that the future is blurry,

Through the darkest night is when the next day is the brightest and brings you glory.

Ever wished life was back to a point where you were most happy?

The moment that gave you a sign of hope for a life story,

One you would share to your great grandson or granddaughter Laurie?

I've had moments that I wish would freeze, the moments that mold me to who I am today,

The memories that would rid my pain of yesterday,

The heartbreak that I felt, the moment that I fell,

It's all coming together and becoming a lovely tale,

The happiness, the sadness, the old crying of the eyes...kid,

Have you ever had this feeling of grief that makes you wish you had a belief,

In love and everything that is oh so sweet,

If you had then you would understand, having those moments would make you a man,

The days of childhood are over and it's quite a simple plan,

Time to grow up, but never forget what made you fearlessly stand,

Above the rest and everyone with doubt,

Live to be who you are and remember...only yourself.

Our eyes met in an open plane,
Your words still burned into my brain,
The lost of love, the pain of one,
You still have my heart, it can't be done,
I love your eyes as they sparkle through the night,
Shining that light that is oh so bright,
Those beautiful freckles as I kiss your lips,
The moment I knew I fell for this,
The love for you I try to endure,
But neglect is all that I receive from yours,
A year has passed as I still think of you,
My life should move on now but I still feel blue,
What must I do to revive your heart, from the love that has made you dark,
I must not expect you to change your ways,
So I say goodbye to those beautiful days,
Love must be grasped at a certain time, so I move on to another in the life of mines.