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Denxai Mcmillon Apr 2015
I make moments last, too long.
I take these breaths between breaths.
I wish upon stars,
And count those wishes.
I can count on one hand
the wishes that came true.
One of which was you.
Denxai Mcmillon Jun 2015
I have a negative outlook on love
It's too much trouble to pursue
I'm trying so ******* hard
But I'm invisible
And you're intangible
I can hold you through every night
And you'll look through me
It doesn't matter what you try and say
This is how you've made me feel
This is how I see love now.
I'm so in love with you.
A love that's breaking me
A love that I want to work
A love I don't want to give up on.
Maybe if I give up on you
I'll be visible.
Maybe if I give up now
You'll want me.
But probably not
So I'll just keep loving you until it puts me at the edge of life and death
And walk away so broken giving up will be easy.
I wish you wanted me the way that I want you.
But in real life, wishes don't usually come true.
Denxai Mcmillon Oct 2015
The world is vastly different when I look at everything objectively.
You and I were more than you'll ever truly understand.
You were the blue fairy
I was Pinocchio
I simply wanted to understand what it means to be a "real boy"
In the end,
I was returned to the puppeteer
In the end,
I couldn't feel for long
In the end,
My disease is my sin.
For a while I forgot I was broken.
For a while I felt real.
For a while
Denxai Mcmillon Mar 2015
It's hard sometimes,
to push pen to pad
force a rhyme
About some time in the past
when something noteworthy happened.
How am I to tell the masses how I feel?
When, honestly,
I have no ******* clue.
Denxai Mcmillon Feb 2016
I can still hear your heartbeat
I can still feel your breath
I can still feel your lips on the nape of my neck.
If I could.
I'd go back
and
every time we broke a kiss
and
I felt you breath out.
I'd breathe in your carbon dioxide.
For you I'll find a way to become a tree
So every time you breathe out
I can breathe you in.
And every time I exhale.
I could actually be beneficial to you.
Denxai Mcmillon May 2015
"all we gave each other is inspiration to write heart broken poetry"

Thats ******* *******
I have poems about
how much I love you
The depth of my happiness
And remember all my heartbroken poetry
Is because you made decisions that only ever hurt me.
You left me to be with your ex
You left me because love is too hard for you
You left me because you're too stubburn to ******* see how much I love you.
You hurt me so ******* much,
Yeah I've written some bitter poetry.
but if we refer back
to something you said once more
"Sad poets only write sad poems because when they were happy they were too busy living."
So here we go again,
I'll drown my sorrows because of you and cry on the floor listening to the music you showed me.
And in the back of my mind
All I'll hear is
"*******, you miss me."
So goodbye,
I hope your loneliness will kiss you goodnight for me.
Denxai Mcmillon May 2015
With your radiant smile,
waking my heart from its slumber after,
what feels like,
years of hitting the snooze button.
I feel as if I'm laying in bed,
sunshine peaking through the corners of my thick curtains.
As I look around the room
I feel I've never seen before
it becomes very clear that this
is my home.
The first steps onto the floor
are like
running my fingers through your hair, familiar and comforting.
Your touch,
warmth creeping from the ceiling chasing away the rush of cold
that comes with exiting bed
on a winter morning.
I wander through the room
taking in the calming feel
of the cool green paint on the walls, sunset peeking through the canopy
of the woods that I plan on taking you,
one day.
I find myself resting my hand on a messy desk.
It reminds me of how cluttered your head is.
Trying to sort through the papers seems impossible.
I found a lot of amazing poetry
and a lot of sad thoughts jotted down
Abandoned rough sketches.
I like this room a lot.
The ceiling has a line of paint flicked across it,
stars in the night.  
I enjoy it, 'Tis Like freckles.
It's sporadic, draws my attention to it. The bed is large,
I'm only now noticing it.
Comfortable, it seems easy to overlook . I'm glad I didn't.
The door is open,
I wonder where it leads
as I let my overwhelming curiosity lead me.
Into the next room.
This is the first of a group of poems about the woman I love based on a writing prompt I found here on hello poetry. I hope she understands how much I truly adore her. I, also, hope she follows me as I lead her through what I see and feel when I see her. This is an adventure that I know will only grow as we do. This project makes me happy.
Denxai Mcmillon Apr 2015
You're quick to drop me,
Send me spiraling down
When I reach the bottom of the string,
You let me spin alone,
Until you're ready to pull me back into your hand.
I'm used to this,
Or
So I'd like to say.
Because you've dropped me twice now.
I understand you need space,
But the force of this spin is pulling my feelings away.
The longer you wait the further I'll be.
It won't be as easy to pull me on try three.

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