Cover the blemishes
Fill in your brows
"Fleek" the contour
Perfect teeth
More muscle
Less fat
Hate what you see in the mirror
Worship filters and fame
I wish you could see yourself
With the eyes that watch you wake
Because American standards of beauty
Don't show how in my eyes you glow.

I'm happy now
Depression is still hugging me from behind
But
I'm happy now.
Anxiety has tightened its bind
But
I'm happy now.
The stress of work has played with my mind
But
I'm happy now.
I don't have to hide who I talk to or how I feel.
I'm happy now.
I'm happy because I'm free.
I'm happy now.

I speak poetry
With flow
I speak poetry as a release.
I don't see a reason to sell my feelings

I have the ability to make anyone who leaves my life feel happy.
I am draining.
I am something designed to be fleeting.
So join me for a few months then walk away with a smile.
I am king Midas.
A king that wished for gold
Only to die alone.

Remember when I used to look up fan sounds on YouTube when we slept at your moms house?

Well now I'm looking up videos of soft breathing to try and fall asleep.

Even with the fan it's hard to sleep

This nighttime cough syrup warms my throat the way you would warm my skin.

I want you
Like echo
Wants narsissis

I need you
Like Icarus
Needed to fly higher

Yet here I am
Holding the world of regret that I created on my back.