How fast I'm falling for you
How much I think about you
How much just seeing you affects my mood

It scares me

We've talked about staying together
We've talked about getting married
We've talked about kids

He's asked my ring size
He's asked about my tasted in jewlery
He's asked who I'm close to

I told him I love him
I told him it all sounds perfect
I told him I can't wait

But I haven't told him I'm scared

Scared he'll change his mind
Scared of change
Scared of the future
Scared it'll all fall apart

He wants to propose
I want to stall

My mind is always working
Thinking
Analyzing
It won't stop
It won't slow down

Then you kiss me
And my mind goes blank
No thoughts remain
And it's amazing

My tough shell
It hides a fragile girl
The sarcasm and sass
It's covering pain
The innocent appearance
It's masking corruption
The quiet moments
They're concealing turmoil

So please be careful with me

No one sees the tears
The pain
The anxiety
The fear
The anger
The loss in interest
The loss of determination
The lack of emotions
The loss of me

Why should they?
It's not like they miss me
It's not like they care

I'm drowning
Where is the surface
I can't get a breath
My lungs are burning
I can't hold on much longer
Someone
Anyone
Save me!

My lungs are filling with water
Where is everyone?
Help me!
Please!

I surrender
I close my eyes
I give in to death
Goodbye