He will lift you
Rapidly
Into the clouds
Making it feel like fate
As if the clouds
Were really going to hold you
Up there with him
Silly you
People like him
Aren't supposed to stay
They’re made to drift and wander
And when they move on
You can bet you’ll feel
Every **** second from that fall
And you’ll wonder all the way
Why the ******* let him take you up that high
When you’re afraid of heights
Every second will feel
Both extremely fast and eternal
And believe me
You will wish for it to end
To hit the ground
Even if you dread the pain
That’ll come when you do
You’d rather feel everything
So that it may break
Even the last piece of you
That has been tainted by him
But you’ll wish for the eternity in seconds too
Just so you can keep holding on
To a last piece of him
Something that says,

*"Even if only for a minute, I was with you, and you won’t forget"

Do not fall in love with the girl who writes
Unless you want to know hell first hand
She'll make you burn and bring you to ashes
And the worst part is
You won't mind burning at all

She's allergic to routine
Impossible to decipher
Something she takes as a compliment
She's June mornings and December nights
A rare mixture of sins and innocence
And impossible in every possible way

She's the type of girl you'll never forget
And you wont even want to
It'll be a roller coaster
You'll have sunny days laying on the beach
And others were the sea will drown you
You'll feel invincible
As if you have it all
Because you have her

Until she leaves
Without saying why
Or even goodbye
Her departure is something you'll never get over
Her smile will haunt you every day
You'll wake up from nightmares from the day she left
Screaming her name at 4 am
With the echo of her loss
Still resonating through your bedroom walls

*But you'll still believe they are dreams

Do you know that feeling?
Where you're so drunk
You can't see,
You can't speak
You can't even think
A coherent thought,  your mind cannot form.
It's as if time had been stopped, frozen
It's just you and that moment
Where everything that's haunting you,
leaves.
The dizziness, pain and alcohol, have consumed your whole being
And you're finally in that state, where nothing exists.
No feelings, non at all.

But then everything comes back
And you're left in your alcoholic misery

But that moment suspended in time, makes it all worth it.
And you know you would do anything
To once again fill the void
For the numbness to return
Make it all become a blur
And maybe this time
His face you won't recall

Never have I felt worse

I keep telling myself
That everything's just fine
Without you by my side
But my soul still aches
Every time I see your face
Because it reminds me
That my arms
Will never again hold you

I've been smiling a bit brighter
Laughing a little louder
Yet crying a lot harder
And it is slowly killing me

It takes ten times longer
To put myself together
After each time I break
No matter how hard I try
I keep coming back

I told you once
You were like a drug
Well it is hard not to relapse

The days pass fast
But there's no way I can get rid off
This thoughts of you
Keeping me up late
Through this endless nights

Never
Will you ever
Have me back
But I know you wish you did
I was your first everything
I showed you
What love was about
I taught you pain
And ache as well
But you know I was well **** worth it
And even though you act
As if you are over me
Deep down
You know good as ******* aren't
You may kiss her lips
And hold her waist
But don't dare deny
You wish it was me every time