DElizabeth

DElizabeth Nov 2023

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"you've changed me.

i used to see the world
as black or white.
now everything is gray & messy...
full of nuance & beauty...
because of you.

in an alternate universe, we'd
still be together.
a team.
ready for anything."

.

DElizabeth Nov 2023

say it again

casual conversation,
i keep my cool when
they mention your name.

but on the inside
i'm begging for them to
say it again

DElizabeth Nov 2023

coffee soon

you said you've really been enjoying our conversations lately

& that you'd love to get some coffee soon.

i can't let myself know you that way, i think we'd hurt each other greatly.

if you really saw, would you like how i look, beneath the light of the moon?

DElizabeth Nov 2023

"WHAT MAKES YOU HAPPY?"

the prompt asked.

to which you replied:

"you. always you."

DElizabeth Nov 2023

goldenrods

his hair reminds me of goldenrods.
soft, yellow, & a certain kind of fragile.

i find myself wanting to make him jealous
& asking who he's talking about
when i think they're other girls...

i'm usually great at eye-contact
but my heart starts racing & can't help but look away
when he looks right into my eyes.

it feels as if he's noticing my every move...my every breath...
like he could read my thoughts...like he can see right through me...

i watch he as you speak to others at the table
& i notice a certain kind of pain in his eyes...
intense...overlooked...neglected...yet still noticeable.

i pay attention to which direction he's facing when we
stand in a group & if his pupils dilate when we speak to each other.

i'm not obsessing? . . .

i'm usually great at eye-contact
but my heart starts racing & can't help but look away
when he looks right into my eyes.

it feels as if he's noticing my every move...my every breath...
like he could read my thoughts...like he can see right through me . . .

DElizabeth Nov 2023

sister

we always said
it was black & white.

that it's funny it seems like
siblings are only ever either
angry & malicious towards one another
or authentic, goofy, obnoxious, & happy.

but i think we're seeing new colors here...
some shades of gray...
some blues...

we're learning that there's more to this,
that we feel something deeper,
more valuable, more tangible...

we hugged twice today.
that doesn't normally happen.

i made you hot cocoa today.
you went for a walk with me.
there was something i've been wanting to say.
& you just listened.

i noticed the warmth in the room
when it used to always be cold.

& the best part is,
you noticed it too.