You said my ideas are
"old school"

I should have known better..
Modern "love"..
Modern relationships..
Modern marriage..

It isn't about
Bonds or trust or honesty or emotion anymore..

It isn't about
Getting to know the other on the deepest levels..connection..chemistry..thoughtfulness anymore..

It isn't about thinking of the other person or considering their needs or how they crave to be loved or taken care of..

It's about selfishness..
It's about not opening up and not expressing emotions..
It's about self service and lust..
It's about looking out for yourself and protecting only yourself..

I suppose I should keep up with the times..

I wasn't trying as hard as I should
For you..
Emotionless
I will try harder to be..
Expressionless
I will try harder to become..
Loveless
I will try my best to be what you want..
I wasn't trying as hard as I should be when I said it..
You never like it when I show how I feel..
You love it when I show you what I feel like..
I wasn't trying as hard as I know I should be
For you..

we will
speak in
songs
and
cursive lines
and
soft looks
from
across the
room
until
i am
no longer
sorry
for
loving
and
until
you know
how you
feel.
until we
both know
how
to say
what we
want...
desire...
need.

i am still
the one
you once
wanted.

you've
always
been
the one
i've
wanted.

but you're
no longer
the one
who
once
wanted me.

ash-free air
fading skyline

melodies of
rich warm
and
harmonies of
deep cool

muted pastels,
peaches and pinks
matching her cheeks

Pluto Projector
Rex Orange County

stargazing
solo

star clusters
galaxies
constellations

bears
archers
scorpions
scales
­
off-balance
head spinning
stomach turning
breath caught
and eyes closed...

she swore the moon
was advancing

whispering
how happy her sun is
with her absence...

you knew
she would
never leave
you

so you
take her
for granted

and take
advantage
of her
forgiveness
and love
she feely
gives
as if
it was
never
going to
go away . .