i should be with you
giggling over red wine
as sweet as they come
judging restaurant interiors
warm & lip-bitten

not solus on that pier
watching skaters across
the motionless lake
endlessly blank
frozen & wind-bitten.

couldn’t pay me enough
to go through with it again—
child-lock everything myself
since no one else would ever
have the guts to tame you—
you really are just a boy after all—
easy piano & slick guitar riffs
across the glittering snow
like magic dust—
falling on my ****
over & over
just to keep up with you—
getting into the worst
while you waited for me
to be lonely,
just so you could
make me lonely.

thumb popping the socket
once...twice...

little green circle
heat flash

lungs of short-comings
throbbing and flushed

flashback fast forward
rewind playback

and what was it all for?...
the risk the writing the songs

oh boy...
maybe i'm not interesting anymore (?...)

whole walk
for nothing

frick.

it's not me
and should i ask another question?. . .

it's you.
so sorry for showing it

hand over heart
yep, it's still beating

a little too fast
*too much

and yet it's never enough
always hungry for more

drive safe
but hurry

time's hands
postponed

take your time!
(:

she could be
my knite

in shining diamonds
& a brand new car

swoop in
pull up

save me
from her

from leaping
from breakfast

in the same kitchen
as her

pour gas on the light
fuel the fury, arrow aflame
to stop me in my tracks

but i have learned to be faster

you never knock, just fling
the door wide open

memorized your footfall
as if i were hiding some grotesque secret

no secret, just emotions
hiding, from you

have to cover my ears
to block the shame
from funneling in

i wouldn't wish you upon anyone.