If I had a camera I’d take a picture
Of your most wonderous feature
I’ve never seen you with a smile quite like this before
So I hope my memory doesn’t fail me
Because I don’t want to forget this moment
With us washed up on the shore
Where your hand found the time to find mine
And your laugh was so outrageous
As soon as I heard it float out of your mouth
I began to laugh
You always thought I was *******
But it must’ve been contagious
Because it’s the most pleasant thing about you
The thing I couldn’t live without
And even though there’s no one else around
You do your best to come off as shy
Diverting your eyes away from mine
The ones I’d use my last wish to drown in
If I had the chance to look at what I’d be missing
If I was unfortunate enough to lose
The most beautiful thing I’d ever lost and found

One more bill through the door and I’ll fall to bits
Counting my shrapnel is a serious business
That’s why I’ve got the Test Match on the wireless
I want no distractions
Apart from the girl next door shouting at her kids
A sound I find strangely soothing
As she fumbles around for any loose change
Hoping it’ll see her through to next month’s benefits
A tale of the obscene has become a somewhat depressing routine
Is this the reality of a life all grown up?
‘Cause I never dreamt it would turn out like this

Winter crept up and is now in full swing
And I get the feeling, although time is slipping by
Sometimes like it’ll never end
The long nights have taken control
Miles away from the stifling heat of a drawn-out summer
Sliding down the icy path of subjugated avenue
The streetlights are faulty
But the flickering light somehow enhances the view
Of a stylish couple in love, gazing skywards under the moon
I bet, they’re fantasising about life in outer space
Creating a civilisation in isolation might be hard
But it could be a sure-fire hit
And if anything, it can’t be any worse than a life like this
Without you

Cold sweat, deep regret
I can’t sleep without waking up in the middle of the night
Since the day you disappeared and left me to pick up the pieces
Forbidden thoughts of you and I have circulated around my mind
****, it keeps on happening all the time
And I don’t think it’ll ever stop
..
I hate the way you used to look at me
I hate the way you still make me feel
It’s true that I took you for granted
That’s why I’ve been trying so hard to forget you
‘Cause I was just fine living my life
With nothing going on in my head
But now you’re all that I think about
A bittersweet memory I can never forget

We need justice for Floyd
After all these years
How can there still be this vast void?
If anything it’s grown wider and more volatile than ever
We can’t let this **** happen again and again
It’s racism pure and simple
No other name but the same old pain
As sad is it seems
It’s tearing humanity apart at the seams
And we need to fight back
And we need to force change
Let’s celebrate individuality and difference
Rather than covering up acts of police brutality and mindless indifference
What a world that would be to live in
Not walking the streets looking over our shoulders
With every thought drenched in the paranoid
I hope one day I will be lucky enough to see it
RIP George
We need justice for Floyd

Years of unsent love letters
About how she gets me high and makes my heart flutter
She told me for the first time tonight
That she liked the look of me
When I was stood at the bar in a suit and tie
Trying to play it cool so casually
Professing when she walked over
That I’ve always been this camera shy
But the only thing I was scared of was,
Getting close to her

It’s final orders so I guess we have to leave
The last thing I want
While she’s taken the time to confide in me
Where she falls asleep on my shoulder
Only seconds after she cried
Over a boy who couldn’t treat her right
And in that moment, yeah
I nearly died
Wondering if this was everything I’d been hoping for
All my life

No offence but all offence at the same time
Why have I spent so long trying to make you mine?
Because you’ve always taken me for granted
And I know I’m more deserving
But every first and last thought I have
Always comes back to you...
More fool me

Protecting ourselves from the pouring rain
I’m so nervous I begin to laugh
If you knew me better
You’d know I always do that
And it might look like I’m not paying attention
Whilst I stare into space
But I’m just thinking for a second
About how you might taste
And If I make a move,
Would you kiss me back?
Or tell me I’ll never be right for you
And I don’t know if I want to risk all that

No offence but all offence at the same time
Why have I spent so long trying to make you mine?
Because you’ve always taken me for granted
And I know I’m more deserving
But every first and last thought I have
Always comes back to you
..
Sometimes the ones you love, cause the most pain

My priorities couldn’t be more skewed
Ignoring my girlfriend but waiting on a message
From someone I have to pay to see ****
For just a few seconds of gratification
I’d hardly say that’s justification
For acting like a silly entitled ****

To use our failing relationship as an excuse
Is poor form but I can’t blame myself
When my necks bound for your noose
You look me up and down like I’m crazy
But my brain makes me who I am
So how can I control that part of me?

We all have secrets but mine are worse than most
Did I look stupid protesting my innocence,
Whilst burning my mouth on some cheese on toast?
I know the answer,
That question was just for me
I already know I’ve failed to win you back so miserably

Go on
You can laugh at me now
Share it with all your friends
Let them know what a ******* I am
Go on
Tell your mum she was right
She can now hate me for an actual reason
Let her know what a ******* I am

I wake up alone and I always feel *****
Wondering when I’ll next feel alright
I pick up my phone to see when you were last online
And realise you’ve been talking to everyone else
whilst ignoring me for quite some time

I guess you think this is one big game
And you can have me whenever you want
Not arsed about all the pain you caused from before
You then have the nerve to tell me we’re both the same
And there’s nothing special about me anymore

I never rolled my eyes before I met you
At least no one pointed it out quite like you do
And now I’m self conscious and scared to be myself
That’s why I stare into space so emotionless
Hoping I don’t find a way to offend you for just one night
It shouldn’t be like this, should it?

I make mistakes because I’m human
And worry about the consequences later
But I can already tell that you’re fuming
Your nose is all scrunched up
And your fists are clenched
I used to find that cute
Until you kicked a hole in my garden fence
That was just ****** up
No matter how many excuses you scream in my face
I don’t like the taste
Isn’t it better if we just go our separate ways?

And to think
I spent so many nights
Conspiring of ways to make you mine
(What a waste, what a waste of time that was)

Is life any better without having you around?
Lately it’s been playing on my mind
Feeling the walls close in
And the clouds darken above
I can only assume it’s not
And without you what have I got?
Broken promises and neglected memories
I can’t bear to recollect
In the aim to protect myself
From losing my head entirely

I wonder how low my elecy bill would be
If I didn’t have the TV on all the time for some company
Even if it rarely works
It’s the price I pay to stop myself feeling lonely
Sometimes

I used to get hard just by our communications
Now I struggle since I learned about your reputation
It’s not your fault I suppose
We all do things we regret in a state of desperation
Sometimes

We thought we were right for each other
Convincing ourselves we weren’t just friends but lovers
Was it wishful thinking,
Or pure naivety,
Believing there could be a happy ending?
And now we don’t even talk
Which is ironic
Cause your only hobby is staring at your phone
Is that what helps you from feeling alone?
Maybe you and I are similar after all