My hands aren't listening
Tears on black keys are glistening.
Why can't I get it out?!
There is something
Tangled in my hair,
Shinning in my eyes,
Just won't get out of my mouth.
But still our hands match,
Hearts beat in same seconds.
Hope you can see it.

Give me a few more seconds
Of feeling your light
And then I swear I'll become somebody else
But they'll still hold you tight.

The more we hold inside
The easier we are to burst
The lighter is your mind
The higher you will go

White blossoms
Swaying in the wind.
The grey sky is about to gulp them down, after -
they're gone
Dancing in the rain, carried by the wind.
Raindrops on my face -
This is how I want to disappear.

Why did you have to go
Where i couldn't follow?
Don't, don't ask me to turn around
I can't bear hurt in my heart
I now have to close my eyes

You just won't take me seriously.
Yeah, look at me, I'm all messed up
Waiting here long enough
For you to make up your mind
About your feelings for me.
But all I've wasted was just too much:
It feels too tight in your clutch
Now I want to be free.
I don't want to hear you say
"Bye, baby, I had a good time"
Baby, it was worth for a while
But I cannot stay
In a place
Where love has been broken.

The night sky is blossoming with stars
Oh there are so many!
Maybe my happiness is still being born up there.
Maybe it is wandering amongst the souls of one's who we have lost,
of people who were too good for this world,
taken to a better place...
to a parallel universe,
where nothing ever hurts.
I'd like to believe that.

Your money won't matter
When the last tree has fallen.
Your opinions will be forgotten
When plastic ends up on your plates.
Your status will be useless
When the water will be poisoned.
What will you do now?
Where will you hide?
It will hit us all if you don't decide
To stop feeding us fake smiles,
Telling us all those lies
About the safe&clean future.
Get together to root out the mess we've all made.
Aren't you even a little afraid
Of what you might see in the end,
When your big party is over?
Just get sober -
You'll see
What we've come to be.

She taught me love
Unlike every other girl i would kiss
We both rose up
As we told each other the words we would later miss.
Half a world apart,
Away to find a new start.
Blue memories of those times are a bliss.

I know I love the way you talk .
Anything. About everything.
Just speak to me
I want to hear your rivers
leaves and grass in the wind
the most powerful tornados
the highest waves of you.

Breathe me and i'll sing to you
Without you i am empty
I'll do whatever you want me to

I will be waiting at bay
for you to come.
oh darling, please don't drown  on your way here.
we will speak,
gulping evening sunlight.
dusk till dawn I will wait here.
through mist and rain
storm scares me less than your absence.
how long must i wait for you?
salty water brushes my ankles,
it's warm in shallows, but if you go deeper... now i understand you,
even i forgot you in those icy calm waters.  sorry,love,
I think I was born to float alone in the cold.

My heart was broken into  thousand pieces,
But I'm not broken yet.

You can make me dream about you, if you want.
But don't you know I see you all the time?
Lover, you're the one to blame.
Dancing with you till we feel
Like animals losing control.
Lost in these woods
Made of concrete.
Dancing in the wind
Singing in crowded clubs
On those wild nights.
Running through the lit streets.
We're just weird kids
Dancing in this world alone.

Thinking about how little time to we have
Before something bursts us.
It's either them
or ourselves, corrupted with grey matter.
Before the ground takes us apart
Piece by piece.
Before we're nothing but past.
How little time do we have for making something out of ourselves?

It all just happens too fast
Too much in one moment
Not enough air in my lungs
And the temperature gets higher
While pressure keeps pushing down
Crashing my spine
Pushing me deeper into the ground.
Even after I'm gone
My flesh and bones are bound to it
Never to break through the clouds
Never to touch the sky.
I've been walking free
My whole life it seems,
But I'm only ever standing
One foot on the ground, pretending
to stand strong and fierce.
But in the end I realize that
There should be more to it
Than trying to keep your feet steady on the ground.

Wine
Is always there for you,
Always silent.
And is sometimes the only thing that makes you feel.
But drink with caushion:
Wine has too many too different flavours and colours.

I like your hands
Even when they're not in mine,
Moonlight on your skin
Even when i'm not around.
I will live for you
Even while you're gone.
I know you need a rest, my love.
But after that - please, hear me,
Something is wrong:
I've been lost for too long,
well..it did happen before.
But don't leave me alone,
not here, not now,
I think that time might come
when we float amongst the stars.

I like it
When people don't try too hard.
Instead
They just hold on tight
To that one inside
That feels right.

Lower your head
Down and down -
Your screens see calling out to you.
Do you even see where you're going?
Are you?

It's weird
How your thoughts are not only yours, at least
Not anymore.

Please don't waste your life
On lifeless things

I'm really not okay
I really needed you today
"I am here to stay"
Those words i need you to say

weirdly, friend, tonight
feels like
all the stars are for my eyes only
now that i think about it, i might be lonely

I hoped you were different,
Made up a thousand nicknames
For you in my songs.
You're not in my hands,
Now I'm left with a thousand pieces
Of my soul.
Baby, wanna watch me cry?
I'm alone at night
Don't you wonder why?
I'm right about to die.
Honey, wanna watch me try?

Oh i just cannot go
These words are all i know,
go ahead feel the hurt,
tell me why's it cold
if it burns
and why'm i strong
if i fold?

finefinefine
the word looses its meaning with time
telling a lie
saying i'm fine
well i'm not. even when i don't cry
when my eyes are completely dry
this doesn't mean i'm fine
listen when i say this, everything will be alright
at least better, am i not right

Writing letters that i'll never send
For i am a coward, my friend.
The words I'd never say
Are here for her to hate.
I know she's not built this way,
And sadly i can't always control what i create .
So now it's all here, go ahead.
Take a look at my ****** fate.

I have this feeling,
It just won't go.
It's like we've been here before.
We must've forgotten what we're here for.
Feеls like we've won somebody else's war,
Not ours, not for us.
There's something more out there.
If only we could raise our heads
And see what is it up there.

But right now we are smiling,
I like who we're becoming.

"Let her go
You'll find another love,
You'll fall in deeper than in that one you left behind."
But I'm not able to leave yet,
So bottoms up, I wanna forget.
She'll leave my mind
At least for tonight.

Do not be afraid
If you fall out of the grey.
Something is hiding at the bay.
You do not need to feel sane
Just because they tell you to be same
Like all those that are plain.

sometimes i think that this town is alive.
hundreds of people exist in it.
every day are trying to get a better life.
But i guess they don't mind the stares of hundreds lit
Eyes and millions
hollow ones.
Perhaps they don't feel the pressure of high buildings anymore.
They breathe fine under the grey clouds, that lay low.
People are rushing through the hungry streets,
Choosing not to notice how it eats
Their souls up
without a single sound.
Can't you see that the city doesn't have a heart?
It has a stomach,
In which it devours every part
Of you that was once humane without a struggle.
And that's because you don't have many of those parts.
You've lost them along with your minds.
Breaking each other's lives,
Spreading all those horrible lies,
Beating and shooting in your children.
Who is gonna listen to you then,
If you pretend not to be a part of the story
In which, the end is not about your glory?
You did this to yourselves.
A bunch of empty faces,
Throwing shade with your glances.

Falling again
Could somebody pick me up?
I am left out, about to fade.
I am a knot that has been undone.

the floor will turn
into a hole in the ground
When you leave without a sound.
Then I will wish for something real
To fill in for something that I want to feel.
And all the old thoughts will come back.
And will wonder - where are you at?
Wasn't it you,who promised not to leave my side
Until the day you die.
Wasn't it you, who asked me to believe
And promised to never deceive?
Does it remind you of anything?
Or were those just simple words
That were rushing
Through your mouth,
Like the fire in your house
That burnt down
With a cracking sound.
At least then you left, leaving something.
Where are you at now,
Where are you hiding?

I hate you now.
I think I should get an apology or something.
I can no longer bow.
You deprive me from my sleep.
I'm tired of feeling like a creep,
You never even ask me how
Or where i spend my days,
I can no longer stand your ways.
Don't you get tired of making up excuses
For ignoring me? i'm left with bruises,
I've been your throwaway for so long.
It's time, i'm moving on.
I'm tired of loosing
myself in my
dreams, dreaming of you.
I'm over feeling blue

Breath out.
In.
Frosty air on my skin.
Out.
Cheeks are tinted red.
In.
There's a more free space within.
Out
No room for dread.
In

Bite my tongue
And watch me bleed.
Rip out my lungs,
But I beg you,
Stop me before I say too much.

i'm on the line
this line is mine
and I will kindly remind
that there are two kinds
of sides on this line:
there's plus and there's minus.
now you will find
that my spine is aligned
with this line
and my head us on the minus side.
you might find
that on this side of the line
there is nothing divine.
only holes in the ground,
only fright, to which you're bound.
but this line is mine,
no. i am its tie-in.
but my spine is tied to this line
and i can't escape this time.
on this line
i am not moving.
And where are you?

And i have never felt so high
You took out my heavy heart
given me a piece of your soul,in my hands it feels divine
I think i found heaven in your eyes.
You are an angel in my life
you will never die
And my love will follow, wherever you are.
Oh but my time flies
Thought i have a feeling
That I'll never ever see you leaving
at least not in this lifetime

Cold to the bone
I stand out here alone.
In the dark you see my spine
Only in the dark I feel alive.
So close to breaking my glass eyes
So close to collapsing in your arms.
So far from being free
My past is haunting me.
Break me free.
Break me, then I will be free.
I will feel only you.
Only then I will know the real you.

Laughing
On and on about old times
Violence pumping on the radio
Encrypting it's rhythm in our
                                   minds.