I feel empty
And I'm done with your ****.
You make me feel so petty.
If you'll say nothing - I quit.

"Let her go
You'll find another love,
You'll fall in deeper than in that one you left behind."
But I'm not able to leave yet,
So bottoms up, I wanna forget.
She'll leave my mind
At least for tonight.

You can make me dream about you, if you want.
But don't you know I see you all the time?
Lover, you're the one to blame.
Dancing with you till we feel
Like animals losing control.
Lost in these woods
Made of concrete.
Dancing in the wind
Singing in crowded clubs
On those wild nights.
Running through the lit streets.
We're just weird kids
Dancing in this world alone.

I have this feeling,
It just won't go.
It's like we've been here before.
We must've forgotten what we're here for.
Feеls like we've won somebody else's war,
Not ours, not for us.
There's something more out there.
If only we could raise our heads
And see what is it up there.

But right now we are smiling,
I like who we're becoming.

Lights getting closer
As you stand still.
Facing me
You smile,
Saying
You'll do better next time.
I'm crying.
In the sound of a car crash
You'll be gone.
In the light of flashes
You looked down.
Why would you walk away?
I'd give anything to hear you say
"It won't be long.
We'll soon go home."
In a car crash
You were gone
Since that car crash
I've been going low.

But if you run off again
I hope to see you sooner than
My feet turn cold, my eyes stop seeing,
Thought my heart will never stop feeling.
I will wait behind for you to come
To raise your hands, to pick me up
And bring me home
Where I'll never feel alone.

There will be somebody listening
There will be something sickening
In every other word,
Perhaps the telling will be too bold...
And the theme might get too old...
But that's how those stories must be told.

sometimes i think that this town is alive.
hundreds of people exist in it.
every day are trying to get a better life.
But i guess they don't mind the stares of hundreds lit
Eyes and millions
hollow ones.
Perhaps they don't feel the pressure of high buildings anymore.
They breathe fine under the grey clouds, that lay low.
People are rushing through the hungry streets,
Choosing not to notice how it eats
Their souls up
without a single sound.
Can't you see that the city doesn't have a heart?
It has a stomach,
In which it devours every part
Of you that was once humane without a struggle.
And that's because you don't have many of those parts.
You've lost them along with your minds.
Breaking each other's lives,
Spreading all those horrible lies,
Beating and shooting in your children.
Who is gonna listen to you then,
If you pretend not to be a part of the story
In which, the end is not about your glory?
You did this to yourselves.
A bunch of empty faces,
Throwing shade with your glances.

And I'll never go home again
I think it's time to break this chain.
We'll be flying out in the open blue
Where everything will be true.
But we live in a cloudy dream with you.

The poor stay poor
The rich get richer.
The story goes on
Even when the teller is long gone.

the floor will turn
into a hole in the ground
When you leave without a sound.
Then I will wish for something real
To fill in for something that I want to feel.
And all the old thoughts will come back.
And will wonder - where are you at?
Wasn't it you,who promised not to leave my side
Until the day you die.
Wasn't it you, who asked me to believe
And promised to never deceive?
Does it remind you of anything?
Or were those just simple words
That were rushing
Through your mouth,
Like the fire in your house
That burnt down
With a cracking sound.
At least then you left, leaving something.
Where are you at now,
Where are you hiding?

Falling again
Could somebody pick me up?
I am left out, about to fade.
I am a knot that has been undone.

Save me this one last time.
Don't break me this time.
Take the heat away from me, like that time
You send away, leaving me behind.
Making me blind
Taking my mind
Away.
Save me from the war inside my head, at last.
But please, don't break me, at least one time.

I want to get lost in your lungs.
I want to hide inside
Or maybe run away with you by my side.
I don't wanna fight.
I just want to get on a flight
And fly away from my own fright,
And everyone who's telling me I can't ever be right,
And all the things that make my frame feel too tight.

Do not be afraid
If you fall out of the grey.
Something is hiding at the bay.
You do not need to feel sane
Just because they tell you to be same
Like all those that are plain.

Happy, ugly, warm or cold
I can't change the story that has
already been told.

i'm on the line
this line is mine
and I will kindly remind
that there are two kinds
of sides on this line:
there's plus and there's minus.
now you will find
that my spine is aligned
with this line
and my head us on the minus side.
you might find
that on this side of the line
there is nothing divine.
only holes in the ground,
only fright, to which you're bound.
but this line is mine,
no. i am its tie-in.
but my spine is tied to this line
and i can't escape this time.
on this line
i am not moving.
And where are you?

what am I doing in this place?
where are we all running in this race?
how do I breathe?
how do I live?
tell me, because right now I am suffocating.
Sometimes I wonder if all those thunders
Suddenly crash above my head.
Then I wish that I just bled.
Catch my breath
I can't face my death
Now that I know I am without you
I can't be alone after that too
No.
I wanna stand up
Without breaking apart
And stay up
On that place
Until I can't feel my legs
Until the cold takes over
Until I am under.
I can't face this alone,
Please don't turn into stone.
I am fading away
Come take the weight
Off me now.

Oh love, you know
I can't stand being alone.
Let's go to all those places
Where you and I were one whole.
Where no tear has been shed
And no word spoken with regret.
Where souls burn bright
Lungs are filled will all the light
That is there.
Where waters are deep and fair
And the nights hold all the whispers that
Run out of your mouth
Like dripping sunshine at the moment that is only ours.
Let's go there with our minds clean
Let's leave what is eyed for the unseen.
Please, let us get away!
Oh wait, what are those place anyway?

chasing visions
Of those long lost
Before we learned to see
And hear all the stars.
Beautiful nights,
Your dazzling eyes.
Who are we?
Do we matter?
The answer is here
I feel it, it is near.
The cure lingers in the night air.
With our feet bare
We step out of our minds
Trying to find the missing parts
Of each other's hearts.
But on our way we may
Find our home,
Under the dome
Of a night sky.
Until then, we are lost
Amongst the leaves on the ground,
Waiting to be woken up.

light me a cigarette
smoke wraps around me
just like your arms.
grey clouds heave over silk sheets
night air absorbs the sounds.
breathe in my smoke
cover your eyes
turn around.
a moment won't have time to pass
i will be already gone.
lit me a cigarette,
you were the only one
who cared enough for me

Falling inside
My love
My life.
Watch me melt into your blood.
Don't leave - I'll go with you.
You don't need to be lonely again-
I run in your veins
I run with you.
Away.

Bite my tongue
And watch me bleed.
Rip out my lungs,
But I beg you,
Stop me before I say too much.

"Can't you just love me?
Can't you see that I'll be gone?"
Your love matters more
Than the air I breathe
Your sight heals those wounds
I got along the years.

But you only advert your beautiful eyes away.
Then you say, on the edge of breaking apart.
"I can't. It's not the way I was made. I love you. Not like that."

Now I understand that I only Played a part.
A role in society's horrible play.
She shook her head violently,
Tears streming down her face. Pressed her head against my shoulder.
It was never just a phase.

I put my arms around her lovingly.
Even if it's she's not mine to chase
I am never gonna let this world make her feel lonely.
Not even if she gets lost in black cold space.

what is your soul made from?
Crystal,pearls and other shiny things.
What is your body made from?
Glass, stone and sharpness noone sees.
But what are those strings tied to every part of you?
Those are strings that tie up my life.

Wine
Is always there for you,
Always silent.
And is sometimes the only thing that makes you feel.
But drink with caushion:
Wine has too many too different flavours and colours.

Stay with me, my heart
Tell me if we feel someone we need
Or someone who needs us.
Oh, my heart, I will go with you
If you want me to.
We don't need to hide anymore
We don't need to run anymore.
Stay with me, my heart.
Do we need anybody
If we have each other?

by tomorrow
  you will be longing for something else.
  and I will be locked here to melt.
  dripping straight chlorine in my mouth
can't stop can't get enough.
love to hate you for leaving
without saying a word.
I forgot you
but chemical still lingers in my throat.
Have to build my brain with pieces again.

Laying on my back
I am watching our stars:
For now they are far away from each other.
But
Baby believe me the winter will come
  We will meet once again.
   You will be older
   I will be saner.
  You will hold someone else's hand
And I will be held by the wind.
The night will be cold
The sheets will hold our heat underneath.
Blown out candles and blown out trust.
You will look vulnerable in my arms
After a while you will be back,
Sadly, you are only going to watch me float away.
Away from shallow waters
Into the deep.
I will not need you
Nor your mouth
Not even your lungs.
Now I can be my own ship and my sailor
That ship will leave you in a day
At bay
Alone with your disease.
Then we will be strangers
That don't remember each other's names.
I will not even remember mine.

Fell apart with a single touch.
Bruises form from the softest kiss.
Tears roll down on any occasion.
Been keeping them at bay for so       long.
Now they flood on your whole   life.
I thought you might reignite my
Fragile heart
Before I-

My heart, I have never asked you
If you were doing fine.
Until you ached
For a moment I thought I was having a heart attack.
Since then I never see,
I never feel, I never know.
Oh, heart, where have you gone?
If you fall down
I fall apart.
Please don't break, my heart.

Cold to the bone
I stand out here alone.
In the dark you see my spine
Only in the dark I feel alive.
So close to breaking my glass eyes
So close to collapsing in your arms.
So far from being free
My past is haunting me.
Break me free.
Break me, then I will be free.
I will feel only you.
Only then I will know the real you.

Looking at the note of someone
Entirely mad.
Took it from the large pile of those in my closet.

Wrote them yesterday in the middle of another heat wave.
When everyone was a bit insane
On edge of melting down.

I read them last night
Thought that I could find there something worth my time.

Instead, I found myself staring
Through the inked pages
Right in my doe eyes.

Night air reeked of
Someone else's sweat and broken dreams.

The fresh winds ruffled through the light blue curtains.

Stars dazzled in the distance
Some of them got stuck in my growing horns.

Oh peaceful night of woken mysteries!
Sometimes I wish for you to swallow me whole...

Forgive me for all my dreams, tainted red.
All those words that broke through my cracked lips.
You have no slightest idea of
That repelling aftertaste.

The whirlwind of feeling froze.
Something outside this walls
Called out on me, luring me with its breathy voice.

Looking out I saw a pack of deers Passing under stars,
Walking slowly, as if to show their beauty and freedom.

A cold refreshing wind tore the note out of my clutched hands and all those left hidden in my stained closet.
Tore the past apart right in my sight.

I breathed out,
Not realising how badly I lacked oxygen.

Shed of my clothes I stepped out if the high window, not looking back.

I heard the sound of hooves hitting hot pavement.
I looked back just to see a limp body on the ground.

Walking faster, then running.
I ran.
Still hot air changed to fresh
After I left the feverish city.

When did we loose control?
My spine is now a shattered mess.
Don't you pick me up, you might bleed.
When did we get so cold?
Closed the door with you behind.
Covers cold as are my bones
That is my love.
What happened to your soul?
I just want to know what hides behind
What was going on in your starry mind
That night
When we broke apart.
I thought that we were close.
Now our love is poisonous.
We only stand on the edge when we are close
I guess the door into your heart is closed now
When we are one step from falling.

Gravity keeps you sane
Please, be my space.
Talk some sense to me,
Let me loose it all.

Push me down on my knees,
Throw me against the wall.
I don't really care at all.

Be the missing piece inside me
Be the masterpiece within this mansion.
I want to see your wild reaction
To my madness,
Replacing your grey reality.

We never know all
Until we loose control.
Then we see the core
Pure soul or gore.
All that was hiding underneath,
Or nothing in place of feelings.
But then it's hard to get back.

In fact, control is what we lack.

In the end I come to you
It's you.
It's always been you
And you are my cure
Help me live another day
So I can write another poem
About you
For you
And you.
My moon
And stars
Are you.
My life my love are you
The only word I know is you
So what am I supposed to do
Without you?
Would you be my sun and air
And everything that is there
So I can feel you
And only you.
And be with you
Until I run out of ink
While writing the last word on my skin-
'You'.
For you
And only you
I'll drown inside you
So come near
And just drown with me, dear.
My love, my word, my world
My end.

Clouds covered the sky
Since I've met you they cry.
You fill me up
I breathe so hard
I think I'm drowning.
My head is pounding.
My shoulders drop
When I see you scoff
Looking down on me
After all those times you and me
Have been one whole.
Now there's only hole.
I am standing in the rain broken
Hoping
That you will come back.
And heal this deep crack.

My tears mix with rain
Only now I feel my eyes drain
They've been spilling warmth
Too long, for someone who's not worth.
The clouds melted and fell from the sky with rain.
It washes over me and now my mouth speaks truth again:
The clouds were the weight that has kept me down.
She is gone and I can breathe now.
I thought I knew what love feels like.
I guess not.
At least I know what freedom is.
At least I know how forgotten love
Feels.

Youre such a mess
Made of smoke and confusion
Ever forget to make a conclusion
That the dream you see is not a delusion.
The rain
In your brain
Has washed away
The colours.
They were to fade anyway.
Loose your soul
Seeking a mistake in perfection.
Storming seas of you,
A hurricane within your ribcage
A rain falling on your delicate frame.
I can see your fragile spine.
I wanted to fell you and call you mine.
To be a part of your perfect storm.
To heal what once been torn
Apart.
My love,
It's different now.
In your waters
I will drown.
You will run away
Into arms of your lover, prey.
I will be sinking like a stone
Waiting for the darkness to come

Those whispers with which you left
Still stay in my head.
We are holding on for that night
When summer brought heat
To our house where we ignite.
We never said goodbye, remember?
I vanished in the mist that cold September.
Longing for your mind.
Missing your golden light.
I returned; we smoke together.
You burn the air out of my lungs inhaling it, hiding your hands in my sweater.
You hold on tight.
After we get into a fight
I don't care if you hurt me.
We are just scared of being free.
Pick each other up and then fall apart.
How do we hold each others hearts?

I think I might have inhaled you.
I might have made your feelings mine.
Now  they run in my bloodstream
Now they crawl under my skin.
I try to push them down
To keep them hidden.
Your fears stay inside
Plaguing my flesh
Tying a rope around my heart.
I held you too close
You were contagious.
I did not see that
Because I ment all those words
When I promised not to let you go.
Overweight by your destructive self
I crumpled on the cold marble.
Your remains poured out of me.
All the perfect starts,
Followed by the rotten middle.
All the light we could only feel
Spread across the cold stone.
Those precious moments
When we were sane
Fell down with a heavy sound.
Almost there,almost gone.
Part of me cracked and slid off.
My consciousness.
The scent of spring filled
The still cold air.
But my body stayed there for a while.
Drowned in all those flowers
Until they both dried.

That's what adoration did to us.
Where are you at, honey?