The house is getting on in years, I know it needs a few repairs,
And I won’t deny there’s dust in every room.

But still I cannot calm my fear they'll use The Bomb to sweep the
   stairs,
When really all that’s needed is a dustpan and a broom.

Being true of heart,
and pure in intention
will get you hurt,
and teach you lessons.

You must make room to accept
the freedom offered to you,
not by following fake rules
but only believing in its truth.

Hard to look in the eyes of others,
Hard to meet a single one.

One can’t—
Love shines bright, too bright to face.
Shy,
(The other might see it in your gaze)

One can’t—
Because all they see is hatred, too much to face
Loathed,
(The other see it on your face)

Baffling,
maddening.

Hard to look in the eyes of others,
Hard to meet a single one.

One can’t—
Because all they see is a rotten soul,
Cursed stain.
(The other leans in, wants to know.)

One can’t,
Because the other is too noble.
Too poor to claim.
(the other scoffs, doesn't want to know your name)

Perplexing,
Bewildering.

Hard to look in the eye of others,
Hard to meet a single one.

One can’t—
Because they respect,
Young,
(The other doesn't.)

One can’t—
Because they are guilty,
Griefed,
(The other is malice.)

Oh—
Dear,
The world is cruel
The world is frayed.

I searched everywhere.

Couldn't find anywhere.

Nowhere to be found.

I am lost.

Am I here for a purpose?

Do I really have a reason to be?

Why can't I see it?

Why doesn't it call me?

A cognitive shift
Seeing the reality.
A state of awe
With transcendent quality.

When hit by the truth -
An overwhelming emotion.
Appreciation of beauty,
Increased sense of connection.

Shift in self-concept,
It could be transformative.
Sense of fragility
From a different perspective.

my father has carried it for as long as i remember,
i am pretty sure he has meant it for me too
i do not wish to hold it, in fact i think it's pathetic
i don't want to have anything to do with it

well it sticks to me still, but i believe i will rip it off one day
i am pretty sure i am right, the disgust that i feel towards it,
well it's raw, it's deep, i didn't just come up with that one day
so even if i am wrong and what i tell is heresy
then just know that it is not my mind that is sick, it is my heart

and if that is true then just cross me out for there was no other way